Saturday, January 6, 2007

I so copied this off my Myspace blog and added some stuff lol
"All I Needed"
Current mood: infuriated


You were my everything, my all.
I was completed until you let me fall.

You were all that I ever needed, all I had.
You're gone now, left me broken and sad.

If you only knew how much you mean to me.
Just think how much happier we could be.

We loved eachother, what happened to us?
I guess you lied to just cover it up?

It wouldn't be anything new, your lies.
I think of them and every night I cry.

You were all I needed to be happy forever.
When did you think of that?? Never.

You led me on, and it's gone for too long.
I'm fucking sick of it, it doesn't belong.

You were all I had, my last life line.
You had your life, now I take mine.

I hope your happy, so see me hiding this.
And everynight I want to, but miss.

I don't, wont, and can't love you anymore!
I wish I could, life I did before.

You don't know how much I want you.
I had you, and lost you. What did I do?

You're the reason for all my writings, lies, and cryings.
No one see's my heart has stoped, and I'm slowly dying.

You killed me, your lies and promises that were broken.
Stomped on my heart, "I love you," you were only jokin.

See what it's done to me? Taking what you wanted.
All I asked was to feel you care. It's all I needed.

You treated me like dirt sometimes, I was nothing.
To get away, forget about you, I was only hoping.

You poisen me with every word you say!
Every time you speak my heart's filled with dismay!

Get out of my head! I don't want this anymore! Please stop!
It's all I needed!! Broken promises, the lies, the hatred, to stop!!

Shut up, You're not important to me!! I HATE YOU!!
What am I saying? You're all I need. I LOVE YOU!

My heart doens't know anymore what it feels.
It's your fault, you're words and dirty deals.

It was all that I needed... No, not what you're thinking.
I need closure and security in my heart. But it's slowly sinking.

You came into my life and opened my eyes.
I know now, love is a compromise.

You gained everything you wanted,
And I got everything I needed.



I think you may know who this is about... I'm sorry, I kind of lost it today... I went home sick from school and had some alone time to think. You know what happens when I think. I over analyze everything. I thought about me and an ex-boyfriend who will remained un-named. I thought about everything we did, everything we said, and I got pissed. I wrote and wrote and wrote in my diary. Then I changed it into poem. So yeah... The honest truth, I have no idea what I'm doing with my life. I know what I plan on doing like college wise, but life wise, I don't know. I don't know who my friends will be in 10 years, (course no one does, do they?). I don't know if I found the one I love, and lost him. I don't want to think, "what if I didn't break up with him?".... It consumes my life now, at 16. What am I going to do, when I'm 35, single, living alone, and I'm thinking, "what if?".... I don't know. I think I'm thinking too much...
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