Saturday, June 18, 2005

thoughts...not that anyone cares
i need a new site name...but i dont wanna leave all my crap behind...grness...

o well...im thinking of some...uhh...

xoxshootingstarxox
xfalling tearsx
xdying insidex
xdyingtearx
fallen tear

can u think of any more...or what one do u like best??

i wanna ask billy back out...i cant wait forever for him tommake up his mind.....he dumped me but i want him back so back i think id kill myself to have him abck...except then i wouldnt be with him anyway...but id do just about anything for him...i love him so much

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   depressed
OMG...I DONT KNOW WHAT IM GOING TO DO...I LOVE HIM SO MUCH...I WANT HIM TO ASK ME BACK OUT BUT I TOLD HIM IN AN EMAIL THAT I COULDNT WAIT AROUUND FOREVER FOR HIM TO MAKE UP HIS MIND....what if he doesnt like me anymore...what if he hates me...OMG!!! OMGOMGOMG!!! i wish some mirical comes along and he likes me and askes me back out and still wants to be with me...i know im just rambling on but i rele want him...i dont think i have ever wanted anyone so much in my entire life....wow...i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed him.....


check out my xange site...
www.xanga.com/xshootingstarr22x
(^i think thats it)
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nikki and scott
im sorry nikki....he is a jerk face...im here if u need me hun..ok?...love ya lots(friendly)
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   he dumped me.....im must be the stupidest persom in the world...
he dumped me.....im must be the stupidest persom in the world...i still want him... but i dont know right now...i think im just gunna make him make up his mind,..the other day he said that he wanted to ask me back out but he didnt know if he could...i just gunna say u rele need to make up ur mind billy...its not or never...i cant sit around here forever waiting for you...so its time for u to descide...do u want me or not...and i men yes i will cry if he doesnt want me but i have to move on...i cant sit here day after day wondering what he is thnking and if he is ever gunna ask me back out and if he is then when...like i sayd...now or never...i understand then having cassie do that was wrong...and he knows im sorry for doing that...and i wot ake that mistake againn...wow...and now me and one of my best friends are fighting b/c i tried to make him jelous to get him back...wow...i am stuopid/....i know it was wrong...but i asked her not to tell him what i was doing...and she told me she wouldnt then she did...i fucking hate her...sorry for the swearing but ohh my godd...when u promise 1 or ur best friends ur not going to do something then u turn around and do it u cant expect them not to be mad at you...and me and my cousin are fighting b/c i told her dad that she l;ikes a guy in her class that smokes pott...that was the right thing to do but i still feel bad...everyone is madd at me...maybe i should just run away or die...and seriously i have thought about taking my life sometimes...i know that i never would...but the thought has crossed mty mind more than a few times...o well....i dont expect anyone to care...but if u do i thank you...i promise that as soon as i can i will get msome pix on here...i dont have any of me at my dads wich is where i am now...and my moms house the pix are too big...so i ahve to have my freiend do it for me...soon enough i promise...
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Sunday, June 12, 2005

   billy again...
i feel bad for doin this but me and my friend shauna are gunna ask her cuzzin cassie if she will go along with us in tellin billthat she likes him b/c b4 he dated me he had the biggest crush on her... so i wanna c if he would dump me for a chance with her or tay with me..like i said b4 i hate to do it but it has to be done....

i hope he doesnt dump me...idk if he likes cassie still or not tho so idk if he would or not...but omg im gunne cry my eyes out forever and a lifetime if he dumps me again...idk...my god guys are soooo not worth it... nikki knows wut im tlkn bout...

well...come back l8r...i promise more interesting posts..i know this has gotta be pretty booring for you...i sry...bye bye for now...
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Sunday, June 5, 2005

MY TIGER!!!

Comments (2) | Permalink    me and billy...message me if u can help Billy told his sis to tell me that what misty said wasnt true...what she said still rings in my head.....i wanna ask him about it but im too afraid he will gert all wierd on me for even sugesting sumthing...idk...i really love him...and i dont want things to end...but if he doesnt feel the same way what reason do i have to stay with him?i hate trying to sllep at night and not be able too because im too bizzy wondering what he is thinking...its like this quote or song or sumthin i heard a while ago...i dont remember exactly how it went but it wss like this guy and a girl and she was thinking about him and wondering if when he kissed her he was imagining it was sum1 else...i dont want that to become us...but......idk...maybe im doing all this worring for nothing but i seems to me that ever since he broke up with me the first time everyone and everything else gets more of his atttention than i do...when we are at the park he seems distant....and he used to call me everyday but now he never calls me..so thats the vibe iim getting...that he doesnt care as much as he says he does... please pm me if u can help at all... Comments (6) | Permalink Saturday, June 4, 2005    billy im depressed...i thnk billy is gonna break up with me...he hasnt called me in like a week...he used to call like vereyday...and all of a sudden his friends are getting all the attention...wwaahh!!! im gonna go cry now... (i wrote this poem when billy broke up with me the first time) TIME its going to take me a while to get used to the fact that i cant tell you that i love you i cant hang oput with you with out wanting to hugg you i cant call you and tel you how much i miss you im never going to be able to kiss you again i love you so much im really going to miss you but here is one last heart felt kiss i'll leave you alone and bug you no more so here i go, im bowing out now good bye forever, i'll miss you CLOSED EYES(ANOTRHER ONE I WROTE AFTER THE BREAK UP) i closed my eyes to forget the pain i closed my eyes and hid the tears my dreams are dying my heart is breaking all because i know that i have to let you go FALLEN TEARS her tears fall oh so slowly the pain is killing her she loved him oh so much and its the hardest thing she'll ever do waching him love her best friend and the tears she cries have never fallen so muchin her life never has she cried for anyone so hard before he doesnt even notice her she tries oh so hard though but no matter how hard she tries she can never have him back and it kills her Comments (2) | Permalink    updated buddy profile......6/4/05 4View My BuddyProfile i love you BILLY!! Comments (0) | Permalink Friday, June 3, 2005 hope it works again...its my buddypro...and i cant get it to go on aim 4View My BuddyProfile Comments (0) | Permalink Pages (6): [ First ][ Previous ] 1 2 3 4 5 6 [ Next ] [ Last ]