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Tuesday, May 30, 2006
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okay, this is kinda a continuation of my last post. My mom came in so I just put 'more later' and added it quickly because I didnt want her getting nosy.
So here I am at 2am trying to finish my homework, just feeling blah. A few weeks ago I was telling myself that with my awesome grades, I can do anything I want. But now I just feel like even if I'm good I'll never be the best. There's always someone better than me at everything, and it never used to be that way. At my old school, I was always valedictorian, I had like a 98 GPA in elementary. Then I homeschooled, and I was the oldest kid. I was the big sister, the one who always helped everyone else because I knew everything.
But now, I'm not. Going to public school made me realize that I'm just a good kid with good grades. The guy I like has a lower GPA than me by like 2 points, but he actually knows what he's doing with his life. He's pre-accepted to one of the top colleges in the country to be a marine zoologist. And, he's the starting catcher on the baseball team, and our team is one of the best. What do I have? Well, I can draw pretty well, that won't get me far. My great aunt got a degree in art, and she was like amazing, but never got a job in art and ended up living on minimum wage.
And now, I just feel stupid. Because somehow I feel like I should be happy that I actually have a chance to do something with my life, because I know so many people are doomed to a life of flipping burgers and living in a trailer park. I just wish I knew what I was doing.
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