Tuesday, September 26, 2006

love bites

	I don't really expect anyone to comment on this, or even bother to read it, I just needed to get this out because I'm just really frustrated and confused at the moment. Today at school I noticed that this new girl at my school, Teresa, was talking to Brandon, they guy I've liked since like last winter, as they walked down the hall. I didn't think much of it until I went to my next class which Teresa was supposed to be in, and she didnt show up even though I'd seen her in the hallway not even 5 minutes beforehand. I asked one of my best friends about it and she said that Teresa seriously likes Brandon, and he seems to like her even though he has a girlfriend. Last school year he used to flirt with me all the time, but I didn't ask him out or anything because I knew he had a girlfriend. Now he doesn't talk to me half as much as he used to, and it kinda pisses me off and I'm not enitrely sure why. I mean, he's totally hott and practically a genius, but he's a player and a manwhore and everyone knows it. He's not really worth my time, but I can't help but feel like I'm somehow not good enough for him. Practically half the guys in my grade want to go out with me and I've rejected all of them because most of them are stupid, shallow jocks who just wanna get in my pants. Then there's Brandon, who's confident, smart, gorgeous, athletic, but still really deep and thoughtful, and he writes amazing poetry and songs. He's so funny and outgoing; we used to spend a whole class period joking around about porn and marijuana, and he'd say anything to get me to laugh. But even after all that I know he'd just leave me for the next pretty girl that walks by. And yet out of all the guys who've shown an interest in me, he's the one I want but can't have, because it seems he's already found the next pretty girl that walked by before I even got a chance. I don't know why the whole thing with Teresa pissed me off so much. It's like he's way out of my league but always used to go out of his way to make my day a little brighter, and now that's gone. Someone as awesome as Brandon actually noticed me, and I guess that made me feel special. A relationship with him would never really last, so I should just get over it but I can't. I guess I can always hope that somehow things will turn around, maybe he'll actually remember that I'm still here. Then I can go back to giggling during history class and looking forward to school each day.

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