Monday, March 13, 2006

   ahhh, what am i to do!?
i spent my weekend laughing at myself trying to get better and not tell myself that i'm not good enough. i decided to annoy my parents for ice cream (which we dont have for GOODNESS KNOWS WHAT REASON) so i walked about the house moaning "woe is me! alas, the greatest of shaksperian novels can't compare to the soprrow i feel in my SOOOOAAAAALLLLL" ect ect. it went well, and i didnt feel too sad after that but then my parents caved in AND GOT ME ICE CREAM in return for shutting up. and i agreed. so now i have to actually face my problems and the fact that i'm sad. i said we'd still be friends (we were only BEST) and i have several options.

1. i can keep going in theis horrid pattern. gettign close to him, him getting a gf, me getting heartbroken, they break up, we make up, and im happy till next time.

2. i can ditch him forever (as if, i'm in LOVE)

3. we can talk it out and actually solve the problem

4.i can turn this into another argument and proceed with number one even tho i promised not to be mad.

5. i can still associate with him and be his friend, but try not to get as close (which will be very difficult for me, he's so sweet most of the time)

6. (almost forgot this one) i could be the overacheiver i've always wanted to be (perfect grades, tai chi, dancing, martial arts, drawing all in one week) and wallow myself in my attempts at perfection (and maybe rub it in his face a little)

ok help me out here please, i appreciate any and all input. wish me luck!

~Ivory Vines Lead...
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Friday, March 10, 2006

   last night
my boyfriend dumped me last night and i promised not be angry or sad. i hate making promises i can't keep. the only way to stop the sadness from seeping is to throw my emotions into a false rage. it doesn't help. i'll be posting much more gruesome art now, it helps stop the pain and i'm at my bast when i'm wounded inside. the saddest part is that i really loved him and i was a short lived crush...
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Thursday, March 9, 2006

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Saturday, March 4, 2006

What Chobits Character Are You?


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What Inuyasha Villain Are You?


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What Inuyasha Hero Are You?


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Friday, March 3, 2006

What Rurouni Kenshin Character Are You?


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What Samurai Champloo Character Are You?


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What Yu Yu Hakusho Character Are You?


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What Village Are You From?


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