Saturday, February 5, 2005

Of sacred thoughts and stupid ones...
Shadow

Today he came to me
Arms open wide
For another girl and not me
I feel my heart breaking
When you turned away laughing
I loved you so much
But I wasnt good enough
Looking away every time we pass
I feel so hopeless
He looks up at me, holding her hand
I hate him more than I can stand

Today I died inside
Giving my heart to the other side
Weeping in agony
As I stood in his doorway
I cannot stop the tears
Everyones laughter in my ears
At the girl who is slowly breaking apart
Left to pick up the peices of her heart
Now there is no one anywhere
Sudden silence in the air
...An empty echo in her chest...
There is no heart beating in my breast

Am I worth saving?
As I start fading
All that is left are tears
That will haunt me for years
Hoping a day will come
When I am made whole
But until then...
I am a broken heart's shadow

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I wrote this poem today. I hope it inspires you otaku rhetorics. This is on a...past event that happend in my life not so long ago. Some guy not worth naming anymore that broke my heart...
Whatever. What doesnt kill us always makes us stronger, Otaku's. Always remember that pain cannot last forever, no matter how unending it seems. Trust Ixion ^_^ for a few months I had to deal with a severe bought with Depression (which, I think, the boy who inspired this poem contributed to...). And I was in the purest state of hell. Every day was an effort to get up without sobbing in my first waking moments. But I faught it. And I got over it becouse I realized I couldnt live in my own misery forever, or else I would die. Rot and fester inside of myself until my soul would twist into nothing. And today I am much beter off, being depressed made me even stronger. If you even need a shoulder to cry on, Ixion is there always ^_^.
Im realizing that much like my own journal, my otaku zine here is kind of...soulful. ROTFL. Cant help myself, I guess. Poopy. Well, looks like Otaku Community will have to deal with it... ^_^ haha. I suppose when you need a dose of insight, Ixion's corner of the universe is the place to go.
lalala de da...woo hoo...and all of a sudden theres a truck tire in the middle of the road--EEEEERRRRRR!!! Whoa. That was close. Heha. Now lets see what happens when your driving with the *other* guys break pads...your driving along and your driving along and all of a sudden the kids are yelling from the back seat "I gotta go to the bathroom daddy!" , "NOT NOW DAMMIT!" ...TRUCK TIRE! EEEEEERRRRRR! I CANT STOP!!!! AAAHHH AAAGGGHHH OOOAAHHH! HELP! Theres a cliff! aaaah! BANG! "OH WERE BURNING ALIVE! NO, I CANT FEEL MY LEGS!" Here comes the meat waggon! *weee ooo wee ooo* and the medic gets out and says "Oh. My. God." , new guys in the corner puking his guts out: bleeehh gaaahhhh!......all becouse you wanted to save a couple extra pennies...
*Blinks* Oh, what? Sorry, I blacked out, what happend? LOL. Thats from Tommy Boy, one of my favorite moves ever! hahaha, I cant help but ever quote it, and thats one of my favorite parts! Rent the movie if you havent seen it!
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