Sunday, February 27, 2005

   ......There Are No Words.
Last night was somewhere between the best night Ive had and the scariest of my life. For the first time in my (albet, sheltered...) life that I snuck out of my house in the middle of the night. I went out in my pajamas and a sweater and flip-flops down my very creaky stairs...then had to go back up to shut my door...then down again. Take ten minutes to yank open the frozen door downstairs to the backyard...then carefully creep my way across the yard and over the gate behind the garage. I tried to open the gate to the ten foot fence around the alley but it was no use. So, desperetly, I climbed over it (and its one freaking inch width! God almighty! try balancing on that kind of crap! >.<) and ran like hell to the end of the street to my getaway car...
This is a strange story. This was all orginized by the one I have been talking a lot about recently...the guy I am madly in love with. (*gulp*). He called me in the evening to tell me he was going to kidnap me! Lol, of course, it couldnt really be called a kidnapping since we were both collaborating on it. But, so it became: Ixion was kidnapped in the middle of the night.
After some roaming around for about an hour or so, we went to Lovers Leap, this place in my small little town past a gas station that winds up this god-forsaken road to this cliffy thing that overlooks the entire town....
So its there, on this cliff named for innuendo of lovers going suicide that I...um, er,...*sighs deeply* have the most romantic night of my life yet. (*faints*) Haha. It was so bizarr, but so...magical! He took me in his arms where I lay for the whole night, and we talk about some of our past relationship disasters, and anything that came to our minds. (The middle of the night will do that to do o_@). I could hardly beleive it. Its one of the things I treasure about him: the fact that he will say anything thats on his mind, good or bad, and that because of it I feel so open with him about anything and everything.
Sometime around 4 in the morning is where this story gets...outragious! (But I trust my Otaku's. ^_^ just sshhh!). Im cuddled in his arms, looking out at the moon and over the town when I look back at him and he's gazing at me, and I gaze back at him. He smiles at me. "Im so afraid to kiss you." my stomach is turning becouse Im so scared and happy, (and its not very attractive to throw up on people! LOL.). And I manage a warm smile back, and tell him its ok...and we laugh and he hugs me to him tightly, rocking back and forth, and it just...happened.
This was the most magical thing I have ever felt. Were were in that car until 5:30 am, overlooking the town in eachothers arms, laughing at eachother and joking, and somehow at the same time kissing and being totally entwined in eachothers arms. I never thought I'd be so lucky. Never ever...
Im in love.

When I couldnt be out any longer for fear my family would wake and find me gone and muderer me and mail the body parts to him, I finally had to sneak back home. Before we left he gave me a goodbye kiss that literally had me shiver from head to foot. (Aaah!) and then I started blabering about how the fence was going to kill me when I had to climb it again and--he took my chin and made me look at him and smiled, putting a finger on my lips and kissing me again. "You talk too much."
...So I went back to my hellridden home and almost damn near killed myself climbing that peice-of-shit fence. But somehow I made it and army-comandoed it across the backyard and to the house. I threw off my sweater and flops and was about to shout in triamph, until I realized...MY MOM WAS AWAKE AND DOWNSTAIRS.
I didnt know what to do. She HAD to have heard me come in. I was about to throw up in fear, and went upstairs as calmly as I could and went to my room and shut the door...then ran into my bed and covered my whole body in sheets, shaking madly. About five minutes after I got into bed mom came into my room, looking down at me for a long moment. I thought "Fucking shit! SHIT! She knows!! Im going to get grounded until I die and never see the love of my life again! I want to DIE!!"
...But she closed the door. And went back to sleep. There are no words for how lucky I was that night. I was so close to getting my heart ripped out by my own mother and forbid to see the one man I love more than anything (and still dont know how or why...)
but it was all worth it. Kidnapped in the middle of the night for 4 and a 1/2 hours until the sun almost rose again... And I've never felt dawn sing to me so sweetly...


Natural Beauty! You impress with your narural
charme and your simple beauty. You only want to
be the person you are and be accepted as that.
Go you!



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