Saturday, February 21, 2004

   waiting...
Sword practice for the actors started at 10:00am today. It's 12:02 right now. I'm waiting for a call...one of the actors was supposed to call me and tell me about what's happening there. I can't go 'cause my dad's off to a business trip...
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Thursday, February 19, 2004

   once again...CRAP!!
The second sword practice session was to be held this Saturday but was canceled due to a lack of instructors and no where to practice. Oh well, Next week, maybe...
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Tuesday, February 17, 2004

   :::sigh:::
Three day weekend is over. Gotta go back, now. My body aches but I think that's a good sign. It's 8:44 now. Gotta head for the car by 8:47 and starting heading towards school by 8:50. Crap! I'm gonna be late!
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Monday, February 16, 2004

   Whoops....
If I knew Saturday was Valentine's day then I would've taken down my Valentine's Day quote yesterday (today's Monday).

The Valentine quote was: "Draw a circle around the one you love. Hearts can break but a circle goes on forever"

I'm gonna go back to sleep.
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Friday, February 13, 2004

   ...crap
Find of mine forgot to look for actors this week at school. He goes to a different school and I was hoping to be able to get the 8 actors we need to begin the movie. He also can't come over for sword practice tommorrow for the actors. He said something about "grades" and "report cards". Oh well, the new actors will just be a couple lessons behind.
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   Yay!!!!
Very good news!!! The movie is about to be underway!! Tommorrow (Valentine's Day) we will be starting the first training session for our actors. When we start shooting will be determined by how fast the actors learn.

We do, however, have a shortage of swords, though. Even if we use two of our metal broomsticks we're still one sword short ^^;;

That's not all!! We also are more than 8 actors too short to start the movie. The guys over should be sending some (this is a joint program between friends at two different schools).

Anywho, it'l be fun anyways...let's just hope Vash106 doesn't hit anyone in the jaw again...
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Wednesday, February 11, 2004

   "Destiny"
I took this here test here. Says that my "Destiny" is to destroy the human race.
...I'm kinda against that. Don't take me as a pacifist. I will ruthlessly take lethal action if a situation calls for it.

Many people believe that the human race is worthless. Currently I believe that is true however most don't see what type of potential every life has. Everybody is born with the chance of becoming a great man or woman. It's merely how they live their lives or the condition of the life they're born into that changes people.

(I will say this now, my parents have never discussed any type of philosophy with me. This I came up myself. It's amazing what you can learn if you spend enough time thinking with an open mind, a little common sense, and some intuition.)

Another reason why one can believe the human race can be "worthless" is because the natural human will be lazy and can only be changed through a lot of training or a demanding lifestyle. A lazy human will find the easiest way to get what he/she wants and will eventually lead to taking advantage of the weak and the old.

However people who do nothing but stand alone, angry at the worthlessness of their kind. People who believe that theirs and other peoples lives are worthless clearly don't have anything or anybody to live for.

Others merely say that they think life is worthless but in fact, they live a very happy life, are just saying that in order to feel that they're wise or to give the impression that they are a sort of "tortured soul".

It is said that during puberty one can be unsure of their place in life, leading to a feeling of insecurity. Sometimes depression, too. A feeling that makes one feel that there's not and won't be a purpose in life.

I came to that thought as well. I don't know if it was a stage or if I just came across that thought as I was sitting in my computer chair thinking (that's where I go to reflect and think).

That thought stayed with me for awhile. I was hesitant to totally change my philosophies until I fully understand this new concept. Finally one day I had to sit in my chair for a couple of hours straight before I finally came to a conclusion.

My thoughts started with questioning why life would be considered useless. A good arguement there would be because you die in the end. No matter what you do you will die in the end. That's true. And there's no way to currently change that fact. So...the reasonable thing to do would be to not try to change that fact.

So...you have a whole worthless lifetime ahead of you. Mmmm...somewhere around 70-80 years. 18 for certain loud-mouth people. Gonna be kinda boring living a worthless life, huh? That's where suicide comes in...NO! STOP! DON"T DO IT! I'M NOT DONE!!...anyway...that would be a VERY bad solution. So...a worthless life. Everybody has a short, worthless life as some people would say. If our life is worthless then so what is our purpose here?

Now I questioned what makes a life worthwhile.

Oh...so there *is* a purpose here. But what can we accomplish in such a short time? Mostly likely you will not change much on a global scale. But don't let that discourage you. There will always be a chance that you will one way or another. You will, most definitely, influence the lives of others.

Now there's something to live for. Your influence can be a good thing or a bad thing depending on what influenced *you*. My first conclusion here is very old: Live and let live. Use your life but don't obstruct the lives of others.

You will die in the end. You might as well enjoy it. That could be a reason why we were sent here. Just to enjoy our stay. Keep in mind that you shouldn't obstruct the lives of others during your time here. That statement wasn't entirely original but it came from another person. Look! An example of how one life influenced another!

You could love someonw or the other way around. That would be considered an influence on other people, no? But that leads to another complicated subject in which I will adress once I find the time.

As I was saying: You might as well enjoy your life. It may be short compared to the world and a universal scale but its literally a lifetime for you. Don't mope around feeling sorry for yourself because you're going to die in the end.

Conclusion #2: Live your life so that when you grow old and look back you can enjoy it a second time.

So in the end: don't worry, just be be HAPPY! Leave the world in a good condition for the next generation to enjoy. To your grandfathers we were the next in line for our turn here. They left it to us to enjoy and we should do the same for the next generation. Pull your own weight so that another doesn't waste their life doing it for you.

To *truly* waste your life is to believe it is worthless. To live every minute is to live it to it's greatest extent. There is the world to explore and the TV is not substitute for it. Yes, even high-definition TV. Soon it will not only be the world we can explore. There are so many things to see and experience that most people don't take the time to notice or get caught up in their work to take notice for the fine things in life.

So...all this started with a test I took. Feh..."Destroyer of the Human Race"?

I THINK NOT!

note: this was an extremly condensed version of my thoughts. Please don't commit suicide or I'll be very sad. Now you have someone to live for so live to the fullest!

note: this was not based on any religion and I hope this will not become a religion

What is Your Destiny? by Valcion
Name
Color
Birthday
Destiny	Destroyer of Human kind
Date when you fufill your destiny	April 12, 2006
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

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Saturday, February 7, 2004

   ?
No idea...why I'm so happy right now. I can't say I don't like it but I'd like to know why...

Maybe it's the prospect of shooting a new film my friends and I are working on (The 47 Ronin). I don't know...

I want the go back to school...All my friends are there. I have nobody to talk to at home. It's just the homework I don't like
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Tuesday, February 3, 2004

   My Hunting Trip
It's been awhile since I last updated. For some reason I've been in a really good, happy mood. But after what I've been through, it makes you appreciate things a little more:

1:00 AM: Alarm clock rings.

2:00 AM: Hunting partners arrive, drag me out of bed.

2:30 AM: Throw everything except kitchen sink into pickup.

3:00 AM: Leave for deep woods.

3:15 AM: Drive back home to pick up gun.

3:30 AM: Drive like crazy to get to the woods before daylight.

4:00 AM: Set up camp. Forgot the stupid tent.

4:30 AM: Head for the woods.

6:05 AM: See eight deer.

6:06 AM: Take aim and squeeze trigger.

6:07 AM: CLICK.

6:08 AM: Load gun while watching deer go over hill.

8:00 AM: Head back to camp.

9:00 AM: Still looking for camp.

10:00 AM: Realize that I don't know where camp is.

NOON : Fire gun for help---eat wild berries.

2:15 PM: Run out of bullets---eight deer come back.

2:20 PM: Strange feeling in stomach.

2:30 PM: Realize that I ate poison berries.

2:45 PM: Rescued.

2:55 PM: Rushed to hospital to have stomach pumped, throw up instead.

3:15 PM: Arrive back at camp.

3:30 PM: Leave camp to kill deer.

4:00 PM: Return to camp for bullets.

4:01 PM: Load gun---leave camp again.

5:00 PM: Empty gun on bug that’s bugging me.

6:00 PM: Arrive at camp -- see deer grazing.

6:01 PM: Load gun.

6:02 PM: Fire gun.

6:03 PM: One dead pickup.

6:05 PM: Hunting partners arrive in camp dragging deer.

6:06 PM: Repress desire to shoot hunting partners.

6:07 PM: Fall into fire.

6:10 PM: Change clothing, throw burned ones in fire.

6:15 PM: Take pickup, leave hunting partners and deer in camp.

6:25 PM: Pickup boils over due to hole shot in block.

6:26 PM: Start walking.

6:30 PM: Stumble and fall, drop gun in mud.

6:35 PM: Meet bear.

6:36 PM: Take aim.

6:37 PM: Fire gun, blow up barrel that's plugged with mud.

6:38 PM: Mess pants.

6:39 PM: Climb tree.

11:00 PM: Bear leaves. Wrap gun around tree.

Midnight: Home at last. Fall on knees thanking kami.

Next day: Watch Super Bowl on TV, slowly tearing up hunting license into small pieces, place in envelope, and mail to Game Warden.

Do'ya know what would be really funny? If it actually happened

...

I'm going to bed, now
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Wednesday, January 21, 2004

   Somebody help me
Still have nothing to do...

Is this Otaku Life thing supposed to be a diary?

I don't think keeping a diary is a good idea. I seem a little vulnerable giving people the ability to read my thoughts.

Or maybe it's a good idea. During childhood the mind is too unexposed to real situations in the world causing unusual theories to occur in the minds of thoughtful kids who have enough time to think...but that's only what I think and I'm only 14 and all..

Another thing! I also believe that mostly everybody feels that everybody else is too shallow to understand their thoughts and feelings and therefore keeps their thoughts to themsleves. In the end nobody shares anything with anybody else and...well yeah that's about it.

I prefer it that way. How everybody keeps to themselves. The approach I take to this is that I make my own philosophies and keep them to myself. At school my character and personality is then just an act that I put on not showing a hint of my true self. Once I am able to find a person that puts as much thought into things as I do I drop the act slowly and see what their outlook on life is.

...

I really have to find something to do here.

Please comment on my thoughts and what you think about them. This is not the whole of my many many philosophies, theories, and thoughts that I have. This is only a small portion and so the amount and complexity of my thoughts that I share with you will be regulated as I see fit depending on how seriously you take me and how well you can comprehend life philosophies.

Please comment on my post and tell me what you think.
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