Friday, September 29, 2006

Thank you guys for the support!
I really appreciate it. THe guy is acting weird towards me, like he hates me.

I asked another freind how long would it take to hurt someone with a spork repeatedly, with force. He grabs my spork and stabs the guy (the guy who kissed me) and the guy just started going off on me. I tried to tell him that I didn't tell him to do it and he still just kept yelling. I wish nothing would have happened but then again I am glad it did. I just want to cry about the way things are going. Why does it always have to be bad? Atleast I got a little moment of happiness. Too bad it was short.

I talked to the guy in my art class. He tried to pull the chair out from under me. It was pretty funny. He told me that he picks on everyone except one freind but that was because he hits really hard in the face. I think he is so funny. he really isn't that mean, he's sweet in fact. I was telling my freind about what happened and he looked at me. I was .. and hes looking right at me. He is so cute!

Anyway, sorry. I really do appreciate you all being here. I feel that I can't really tell anyone that I know. Oh song of the day!!!!!

I am not sure how many people know this band but it's from CHRONIC FUTURE'S ( don't know why I did it in all caps) Time and Time Again. Love that song.

I would like your advice about what I should do about that guy. I have no idea! It's so confusing!

I have to go but have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Thursday, September 28, 2006

Today is one of those days...
Song of the day is "Swing Swing" by the All American Rejects.

There is this song I want to use But I am not sure if it is the right name. Does Third Eye Blind have a song named a Semi Charmed Life?Thanks.

Wanted to get that out of the way. It's getting harder to chose. I need to make a list of the ones I have already done.

Ok the next paragraph is about me and what happened yesterday. If you don't like public display of affection don't read it. or if you dont care.

Yesterday I got my first kiss! I know lame. I hope no one reads this and makes fun of me. I just wanted to get it out my system. It was my ex of course but I was so nervous! I am guessing I was because I don't want to get hurt. I am glad that it is over with. I didn't want to be 18 and not have. But yeah, that was the highlight of the day. A lot of people can't believe that i waited that long. Last night I had some regrets but now i don't. I wish it wouldn't have been akward but I think that was unavoidable. My freind said that he might like me, (because Of all that happened yesterday) but I must think realisticly (sp, i know) and realize that 99.9% chance that he doesn't.

Yeah, that has been on my mind pretty much all day.

Ok other things I need to say. I can't ever remmeber.

OH! Does anyone know if they took Naruto off of Cartoon Network on the week days? Everytime I turn on my tv its not on.

Wish me luck with the rest of the day. I am going to need it, I am seeing him some more today. Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Its already been that long?
Well I have been so swamped lately and Homecoming is just around the corner.

I started posting htis morning but I lost all of the ideas I had, oops. It makes me mad when I do that.

I wonder what my ex-boyfreind is thinking. Wow, it feels so weird to think of him as that. I rarely ever do. It's like it never happened. Its so weird. He looked funny when I was walking with my close best freind and he looked when I told my freind to look at that guy. I would love to be able to know exactly what he is thinking. i dunno. Sorry that was kind of weird. Umm. I told my freind I wonder if he looked out of interest or if he was just being nosy. I said it might be both and she agreed.

I feel sick.

That reminds me the song of the day, it should be. Do you have any suggestions?

TODAYS- In too deep by Sum 41. I do believe that they sing it, but I am not for sure.

Its seems that everything is happening Oct.7 For me its homecoming, competition, and my mom wants to go out of town. Jeez.

Well I have to go. I hope yall have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Sunday, September 24, 2006

   I thought this week-end was a waste but apparently not.
I am so sorry for being late first off. It's been really hard lately.

I put that as a subject because I couldn't stay up past 9:30 last night and thought I missed all the anime. But my sister told me while she was up they didn't play anime. I was at wal-mart for about 5 hours, no joke. I found a lot of cds that I want.

BY THE WAY, Today is Nickelodeon's Sunday of premiers. I don't know who still watches it but I am so excited! Something happens with Ned and Moze on Ned's Declassified. On Zoey 101 Chase tries to tell Zoey about his feelings. So excited.

I have to clean my house and do everything else before that starts! I want no interuptions, lol.

Naruto was a recap special. So I can't wait until next Saturday, I hope I will be able to stay up though.

I think this is long enough so the song of the day and a farewell.

Song of the day is... by The Fray, Over My Head (Cable Car).

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Thursday, September 21, 2006

900!!!!
Thanks guys!

Thank you to all of you who were concerned with my argument. I appreciate it. Well Today I have a dentist appt and I forgot until just right now and I just ate like about a package of chewy candy. I am still so hungry!!! Anyway. It's still not going so good at home. It looks like they are going to try everything to keep me there. I may even lose my really good job that I work during the summer. But I think it will be good for me. Hopefully.

*change of subject* I have to go in a bit but wish me luck.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess

I almost forgot the song of the day... Face down by cartel! Bye!
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

AS WE SPEAK I AM 2 AWAY FROM 900!
Thank you guys! Well I got into a really big argument with my mother. It is just getting ridiculous.

Song of the day today is Here and Now and I believe that is by Fuel. I am not sure so please dont hold it against me. October is nearly here. I have started working on my new theme but have pretty much gotten no where.

Ok well I have nothing else to say so I will go and visit. Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Why does it seem waking up everyday means waking up to a bad day?
I think I cry pretty much everyday. Thats how bad it has gotten. I was thinking about moving out yesterday but I made up my mind I will be moving out in December. Around my 18th birthday I am so nervous and scared. But I have to do it. That may mean no AKON to celebrate my 18th birthday but someone told me who knows you may get to go after all. I sure hope so.

I am putting songs in my journal if you have any sad songs I will very much appreciate it. Thank you.

Its only 7:12 and I want to leave. I wonder if I am going to make it on my own. I am so scared about telling my mom that when I was telling my boss I was shaking. But at the same time I am excited. I think its my chance at happiness. No one telling me I am crazy and physco or fat or stupid. I am going to enjoy it a lot, hopefully.

I cried this morning, why do I have to be so emotional? I hate it. Well I have to actually do some school work.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Monday, September 18, 2006

"Hate me today, hate me tomorrow"
Ok well, I have that song in my head so guess what the song is, come on, you can do it. j/k

It's Hate Me Today by Blue October. Love that song had it as a ring tone when I had my phone.

Today is bad got a bit better at lunch. Andy was nice to me. Let's see how long that lasts. Today my zodiac reading (you can tell that i dont really pay attention to them) It said that I was going to talk to a cutie and good things will happen. I like to see what they say but my day isnt based on them. Anyway I thought it was pretty interesting. Oh by the way it isnt word for word that is just what happened.

A lot of bad things have been happening. I got in trouble yesterday becasue of my sister. I will admit the reason I got in trouble this morning was partially my fault. But then again not really.

I have a quiz in about 5 mins so I am nervous because I am not studing. I studied a bit before I got here. Sorry about the typing errors I am in a rush. I want to see Naruto really bad!

I finally got to see Bleach and Teen Titans. OMG! They kissed, hehe. Sorry guys blame it on tiredness. yeah I was pretty tired. Still am. You can tell my day is pretty bad when I wrote about 3 pages in my journal in about an hour just this morning. about 8:30. About nothing. lol, well have to go, sorry about the post about nothing.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Friday, September 15, 2006

What's my name again?
I am so ... blah. Can't keep up with whats going on. Glad its Friday.

Song of the day is *drum roll*

Painic! at the Disco's I Write Sins Not Tragedies. I finally got my three papers done last night at 12. My teacher wasn't even there today! I am so tired. I got up early enough not to be late.

I have to go the bell is about to ring!

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Thursday, September 14, 2006

   Its been so long, I think..
I have no idea how long i have been gone.

Todays song of the day is...

Rascal Flatts' Stand. Its a really good song. Love it love thier cd.

My friend was being an ass (excuse my language) and know that just made my day so much worse. I can't wait until the day is over but I have to write a report thingy. On civil rights I hope its going to be easy. Most likly not because its govt.

I have to go but I hope you all have a wonderful day!

Jess
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