Tuesday, September 12, 2006

   Trying something new.
Ok from now on I think I am going to have a song of the day when I post. I wanted to do it yesterday but I didnt have time. I said I was going to visit yesterday but I didnt get to finish sorry.

Todays song of the day is... When We Were Young by The Killers. I love this song and I want to buy the cd (Sam's Town). I am going to buy it cause I have been having a hard time.

Anyway. Yesterday was really busy. I actually understood my Pre-cal homework and got everything done except 3 questions. (they added minutes and I don't know how) I joined Anchor club I am really excited about that. I actually feel better about a lot of things. Which reminds me... Thank you guys for all of your support. You don't know how much it means to me. I feel that here is where I can just talk about what is wrong. Anyway. I don't want to burden you anymore than I already have.

I woke up at 4:30 and I actually got done getting dressed in time. It was kind of a bad thing because my mom was giving me a hard time about getting up too early and just siting around.Oh well. She was really grouchy towards me today. But when is she not. I am going to play bingo tomorrow at a retirement home for anchor club. I can't wait until the next football game. WOW! this is long. Well I will go then. I probably need to get to work.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Saturday, September 9, 2006

Well here and now, will we ever be again? Cause I have found that all that shimmers is sure to fade away
I am tired. My aunt woke me up by calling and saying that I needed to get my ass up and get ready. I can't believe that she comes here and then starts giving out orders!

I am almost done cleaning my room. I am going to have to spend half the day going through scholarships because I haven't been doing that. I also need to finish my homework so I can relax tomorrow and have a stress free anime night tonite. There is just so much to do. I had like a breakdown yesterday and my boss and I talked I really appreciate it but I feel weak for doing that. I should be able to handle things on my own, not rely on any one. You know what I mean? I wish things would just work out. I have gotten to the point to where I am just tired of living. I ask myself where I get the energy, and I have no idea. You might think that I am overreacting but I am not so sure. Everyone expects me to always be the happy girl they can rely on and/or walk all over but I am not. I just cant do it anymore. But I do and I dont know how I do it. I wish I had more strength. Does everybody feel like this? Or am I just being dramatic? I feel that everyone elses happiness becomes before mine and in result I dont know who I am. Maybe thats why I am always having bad days and feel sick/tired all the time. I have pretty much stopped eating, eating at one meal. Sometimes (not often) two. I am just not hungry and/or I feel sick.

Enough of that. Our football team lost. I could hear parts of the game from my house which made me a little sad.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Thursday, September 7, 2006

Guys are such a pain....
Yeah well I dont know. Hehe. It has been another long bad day. I woke up feeling sick. Failed my test with a zero.

GEEZ! sorry I had to get that out of my system. Lunch was pretty good though. I actually ate today.

I had a $400 phone bill so I am in so much trouble. I hope I can go to the football game tomorrow. Its going to be so awesome if I am able to go.

The guy said he was going to give me a ride but now can't. so now I am supposed to find someone else. Its going to be painful. I just dont understand him. He makes me want to yell and, ... well a lot of things. I just wished things would have worked out. But he has changed. I wish he hadnt. I hate change, with few exceptions.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Wednesday, September 6, 2006

WHY?!
Well today has been a bad day from the start. My sister ran into my room and cut of fmy radio right after I put it on. I cussed at her (she made fun of me) and I got in trouble. She is such a pain.

I stayed up until 11:30 working on my essay to find out that I got like a 70. My teacher is so ... I dont know how to explain it. I cant wait until saturday.

My BCIS teacher had been putting up daily quotes I think i might put them up sometimes.

Todays is: Smile, it makes people wonder what your thinking.

I am So tired. and hungry. Yea. Well I have to go, have an awesome day!

Jess
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Tuesday, September 5, 2006

YES!
I had time to finish visiting people and time to post. I have a question...

Can you see my bg, or is it just my computer?

I hope its just this computer because I am not sure if I would be able to fix it.

Today is such a long day and bad day. Blah. Sorry had to get that out of my system. I have to write an essay for tomorrow that I just got today. Man so much to do. I have to go buy some tshirts too.

Well I haven't had time, sorry. I should have time soon or else!! J/k if I don't then I will make time. I just might have to start waking up earlier than 4:45. I dont know I think I should but I am just so tired. I am a night person.

I stayed up past 12 Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. I am so stupid! Haha.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Monday, September 4, 2006

SO MUCH TO DO!
Well I saw from Alchemilla's site that Bleach is going to be shown. So I went to [adultswim] and checked out the schedule. Yeppers Bleach is going to be on at 12:30. And guess what! Inuyasha 4 is going to be played in December. I know that might not be so exciting for you but it is for me. I might not be able to wait that long and just might buy it on DVD.

My list is getting to long and not a lot of people on it are coming so I think I might have to take some time to work on it. Please let me know if you are visiting. My computer is acting funny so I might have to come back later!

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Sunday, September 3, 2006

I am so proud of myself ^^
I finally tried to fix my site. It's not exactly the way I wanted it to look but I like it. The next theme should be better with practice, I hope. Thank you everyone who helped.

I was freaking out thinking that my computer was the only one that wasn't getting to myotaku, but I see no one could.

I am going to finish up with the changes and visit sites.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Friday, September 1, 2006

TODAY IS FRIDAY!
Ok well today is such a pain. But luckily is isn't as bad as it was yesterday. My boyfreind of a total of .... *DRUMROLL* one day broke up with me. I was really upset but the thing is I was upset because I knew this was going to happen but I did it anyway. STUPID ME! The good thing that came out of it was it gave me some strength and now I am not left thinking what would have happened if I hadn't. Bad things have been happening to me a lot lately. I am starting another story.

MAN I just want to go crawl into a ball and cry and ... I dunno. I feel a lot better since I talked to my freinds. I am over it, mostly. It sucks.

Well I have to go. Wish me luck. I am going to need!

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

WOW, so it has been a week since I have posted...

$body$

Sorry about that,
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Sorry no time today...
There is not enough time in the day I say! I am going to have to skip lunch again tomorrow to work. I am still not eating breakfast, but I never eat it. I wonder why I feel sick? hmm... lol. I never have time and am always running around. It gets really bad. I woke up an hour late I was so tired. I am going to watch a bit of Naruto because I have been deprived of it and then read my summary of the book that I was supposed to read and choose my clothes for tomorrow.

Have a wonderful day tomorrow if I dont make it.

Jess
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