Sunday, June 11, 2006

*yawn*
I went to bad at 2. I woke up really late! hehe. Yeah I haven't anything all day and it is 3:30. I am starting to get hungry though. We are going to eat out or bring something home. I hope we eat out.

I just posted chapter 3 I am so happy! It took me FOREVER to type it! I dislike typing. After a while my hands and wrist start to hurt. I have had one review, thanks Zack! You are awesome!

I barely just started to pack. I still need to do alot of things and I am leaving Tuesday I think. I still need to figure out what i am going to do for my senior pics. (hair wise)I need to go shopping still for some last minute things too. too much to do, so little time!

I just noticed this is a long post! (to me atleast) Well I think I am going to go, will be back later to visit some sites.
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Saturday, June 10, 2006

   I GOT IT UP!
OK I have posted the Prologue and the first Chapter of Hidden Masquerade. Thank all of you who have helped me and encouraged me to do this! I really appreciate it. Please review if you want and have time. Thanks, Jess.
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Lets see if that works...
Today I am going to post my story on fiction press. I am really nervous, but I am so happy. Well I have to go. Hope to come back soon.

Yay! It works well. I would like to see what kind of titles yall can come up with this pic.


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Friday, June 9, 2006

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Would it be a good idea to find a picture and have you comment a Title for it? Please leave your suggestions. THanks
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Today is my last day of working here....
Then Monday I have to take the THEA and I am so nervous. I need to pass it to get into college classes. Then I have senior pictures. I had the weirdest dream last night, really weird.

I still need to pack for my other job. Man I have so much to do with so little time. I need to go shopping to. I dont think the clothes that I have now are not appropriate for that kind of work place. I am so nervous about that job too.

I saw the video for "I write Sins Not Tragedies" By Panic! at the Disco. I love that song. How many of you have heard it or of the band?

Well I hope to be back soon (looks like another boring/quiet day at the office). Have an awesome day!

Jess
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Thursday, June 8, 2006

   Grown Up?
Yeah my mom got on to me about everything this morning. Lately she hadn't been on my back about everything but now its gotten worse. I don't want to put up with it any more. I dont mind putting up with it but I don't want to be the only one taking all the heat! She was like if you want to be all grown up you need to act like it. OMG! She doesn't even give me the chance. I bust my butt to do everything and I have to put up with this. So I was like this is why I should drive and she was like go ahead. I said you better sign all the papers so I dont get in trouble. She yelled it was ok aslong as I paid for everything. I made the piont that I would need a second job in order to do that. She yelled that as long as I got myself there it would be fine. Even though she said that she is most likely going to deny it. I told her that next year I was going to get a second job. She just makes me so mad! So now I am really going to have save and really bust my butt.

Sorry I made you have to go through that. I am really upset. Well I got a fictionpress account so on the 10th of June I am going to start posting my story. Well I need to go do the mail so I will be back later. I might not even come back to work after lunch since I am so upset and just hang out with my freind who is leaving at the end of the month because if I go home and ask to go the answer is always no and I am always doing the right thing and I am just tired of it. I dont want to put up with it anymore.

Have an awesome day.
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Wednesday, June 7, 2006

Today seems to be going wrong...
I woke up late and then I forgot to bring my spiral to type up the rest of my story and well I left it at home.

I got dressed up because I thought I was going out for lunch with a freind. But she can't make it. So now I have to either call someone else for lunch, call my uncle, or eat nothing. I dont like calling though. Oh well. I am hopefully going to eat with her tomorrow though.

I will post the rest of chapter one today and maybe part of chapter two. I am thinking about getting an account today at fictionpress today. Well see , If I do then I am just going to put it up there. I am kind of nervous about putting it up there because I am afraid that someone would claim it as their own, but I guess that is a chance that I need to be willing to take.

Well I need to get back to work. Have a spectacular day!
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Tuesday, June 6, 2006

Rest of Chapter 1:
Here is the rest I cant wait til tomorrow. So here it goes. I hope you like it I will post more later.

I took the desk in the back the next day in homeroom. The teacher started taking role, Samantha Abbot, ... then a couple of names later my name was called. Being that the first letter of my name is near the beginning of the alphabet. When my name was called instead of the usual, "Here.", I just raised my hand. Refusing to interact by speaking. After I put my hand down, I turned to look out the window. Noticing how warm it looked outside, and how it was so beautiful that I wished I was outside. Outside where the usual spot was, where I normally spent my free time at school.

The sky was a light blue, with very little clouds. And the clouds that were there seemed to take a shape. (oh, look a star!) Under that "star" was a tree. Now, the school doesn't have many trees. Especially in the food court area. In the food court area ther are about two. What I love most about these trees is the way they look. The trees have cracks that run down to the trunk, that remind me of rivers. The trees have an old look about them. A grey look. Like they have been there for centuries and could tell many stories if they could speak. Like how so and so broke up. Or remember when she decided that she was going to climb me and nearly fell but that one young man broke her fall? Good times, Good times. Oh lord, I must be nuts! I am sitting here thinking about what trees would say if they could talk.
I was quickly pulled away when I heard the opening of a door. Through the door walked a tall, skinny boy, with dark hair. There was something about him though, something mysterious. His eyes were the same dark brown color of his hair. And his bangs fell in his eyes. "I am sorry for being late." he suddenly spoke. The semi-plump teacher replied, "Just take a seat by... Jennifer." The boy walked slowly to the seat and hesitated, quickly glancing at me before sitting down.

Chapter one is really long and I am just now realizing that so I am sorry but i must break it up once more. Please tell me how I am doing. For those of you who are really interested I am trying to think of an easier way to get this to you. If you have any suggestions please let me know. Thanks. Jess
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Thank you so much!
I really appreciate those who commented. It made me really happy. I will try my best to post the rest of the chapter and chapter 2. Thank you so much.

For those of you who are interested in reading the story you can find it in the post below. See you later!

Have an awesome day!
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MY STORY
I have decided to post my story because I have come to the realization that I will most likely never get it published. I hope you all like it and please keep in mind that it is a ROUGH draft and CHANGES WILL BE MADE!

Prologue: LOVE MAKES US REALLY GOOD ACTORS

I guess you could call me “unique”, but not really. I am ignored and that is the way I like it. Why have conflict and interaction with somebody? Why make life harder than it already is?
I observe people. In particularly people in “love”. Everyone has their interpretation of love, some good, and some bad. I have my unique theory of love.
People in “love” do not realize that it is not really love. You have two cases of people in “love”. One case, the people who think that they are in love, but in fact just get along together well. Last, but not least the second case, those who pretend to be and cannot stand each other when they are by themselves. But isn’t love just what we think it should be or what we want it to be? Something so impossible to achieve? Something we want so badly that we are willing to try to impersonate something that isn’t real?
As you can tell, I am one of those nonbelievers. There is no special someone out there just for me. That sounds like a load of crap. “Love” is just a concept someone thought of, something to keep us entertained. Love makes us really good actors. To me there is no real love. Sure there are affections and admirations we have for others, that’s understandable, we have emotions. However, it’s not forever. Two people in love with each other are good actors, nothing more. Fooling themselves, and others. Being in false love just brings you pain. I say false love because, again, I do not believe in love. Sure there is love people think they have. But no true love.
I always believed these concepts I had about love without a doubt. That was until Michael unexpectedly walked into my life. More like trampled through steel walls I had built around myself. Kind of saving me from myself. Slowly helping me change into the person that I was meant to be. I then had second thoughts about these “love” concepts. I started thinking well what if they actually had something? I shut those thoughts out pretty quickly when I thought about all the bad things that came with being in “love”. There may not be such a thing as “love”, but there is a thing as a broken heart. But whenever I thought about Michael, a few of those shut out thoughts would sneak back into my mind. This all began my junior year of High School. I had no idea of the dramatic change that I was about to go through.

Chapter 1

* 1 year earlier

"Hey Jenn! Honey are you ready you ready for school tomorrow?" mom yelled from the kitchen.
"Yes mom, I have all my things!" I hate thinking about school and dreaded that school was tomorrow. She walked into the living room where I was keeping busy by playing Kingdom Hearts.
"I know how you feel about school, but could you please try and make some freinds?"
"If you know how I feel about it, why do you have to ask?" I didn't mean to sound so sarcastic but I get that way about this subject.
"Jennifer I just want whats best for you."
"I know mom, this is whats best. You should see the kinds of kids there are at school. And I have freinds, people who I interact with." I turned around and continued playing my game. My mother thought while looking at me that she knew I didnt talk to anyone at school unless called upon by my teacher. She also knew that, that would have to change or something bad would happen.

That is the first part of Chapter 1. I am getting really tired, other wise I would have finished it. I hope you liked it. Please leave some comments on it. I would really appreciate that. Well see you tomorrow! Have an awesome day!



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