Thursday, May 24, 2007

Over 1500 hits! Thank you.
Thank you for all of the comments I appreciate them.

This boy keeps confusing me! I wish things were simple with him. Oh well, I think I have come to an understanding that I am going to stay away from him unless he comes to me. Because this is getting ridiculous.

So I got this ring to replace the one that either got lost or stolen a couple of years ago and I was really falling in love with it and I wake up this morning with a green thing on my finger where it is at. The lady said it was sterling silver. Oh well.

So I am feeling like crap still and hopefully am going to the doctor today. Cause I really want to get rid of this, what ever I have.

I wanted to go to this prayer deal this morning cause I like the band and I can't because I have zero hour but luckily I can hear them from here. I really like them, I wonder if they have a cd. It would be even greater if I didn't have to try to listen to them over the people talking in here, but I will take what I can get.

Today I get paid and hopefully I will be able to buy a dress for my cousin's wedding.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

!!! I am alive !!!
Yes I am guys, sorry it's been so long. I have been in this bad state of confusion. This guy is so confusing. I had this dream about him last night that just made it worse.

SO anyway. I think today might be a good day because my sister let me borrow her megatokyo shirt. I am really excited about that because I think it is so cute. It has to do with capture the b33r/b34r.

I have been sick for about the past 2 weeks and I think I might have to go to the doctor. I lied to my uncle and said that it is going away. I just don't want to go spend the money to go.

Well today, hopefully, if I have time I will comment. I have been reading posts but my connection at home is getting so bad that it won't stay on long enough for me to comment. Darn you dial up! So yep I think that's all.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Saturday, May 19, 2007

~*~I am sure that this is going to be a long post~*~
So I am going to try and remember all that I wanted to put on here from last friday. So this is going to be very long, I think. I would like some music but itunes isn't working! :(

Friday: (day of graduation party) Nothing really happened that day until 5th block. BCIS (5th block) I had gotten chased around the room by my class mate because he said he was going to do something very bad. I poked him later (it's really funny to poke him because of his reaction and he jumps like five feet) and he gets up and grabs me flips me upside down and carries me outside. It was really fun and scary at the same time.

Friday Night: (my party) I was running so late! It hadn't turned out like I had wanted but it was fun. I was upset that not a lot of people showed up but I got over it because I had fun. I danced with the guy from BCIS and apologized that my hands were sweaty (from dancing to just about every song). The song right after that one we danced to and he asked why do you want to dance with me? I said because I like you. This got him really nervous, (haha it makes me laugh just think about it) and he asked wait, what kind of like? I replied I dunno. He looked like he had solved a math problem that had been un-solved for centuries and asked Is that why youre hands are sweaty? Are you nervous? I said no.

Saturday: I actually woke up early and cleaned! I had so many left overs from my party that I invited a couple of people to come over and eat, olny one came over but it was cool. He came over and we ate, watched part of Scary Movie, and went to hasting where I bought the final volume of Punch and rented Chrono Crusade. We had some time left before I had to be home so we went to the park which is really fun cause I go there like not even once a year. If I had to make my way out of there by myself I would be so screwed! So later I got ready for my sister's choir preformance. I was txting that guy from 5th block and my party and he asked me to the movies. MY MOM ACTUALLY LET ME GO!! I was really excited. He picked me up from the preformance and we went to see 28 Weeks Later. I jumped twice and he made fun of me. Oh by the way, he was talking to me on the way to the theater. We got out of the theater and took the others home. It looked like something was bothering him. But he wouldn't say. We really didn't talk on the way home. I got home and txted him and called, he never answered. I called sunday too but he didn't answer.

Monday: (5th block) He was in a bad mood and my teacher thought it was her fault. But I really knew who's fault it was. MINE. He would give me these looks. He would barely talk to me. So I thought fine, he wants to act that way so will I. I don't need him cause he will just get in the way. ......... But it didn't work out that way. I was upset that he was like that it bothered me that I knew it was my fault. My teacher assured me that it was my fault, but I knew better.So I went to work where I tried not to let it bother me, but it did. At 4, when I get out of work, my teacher came and told me that it wasn't my fault and briefly told me what had bothered him. But deep down I knew it was really me, and if it wasn't I wish it had been.

Tuesday: (I am in a bad mood) I walk into 5th block and he is like nothing happened, even more ...happier? He tries to talk to me but I walk right past him, drop off my stuff and leave. I come back and he wants a hug, so I "tap" (not really a hug) and he says, thats not a hug, that was a tap. I said no, that was a hug. I walk in another direction and ignore him as he talks to me. I go over to my good freind, lets call him "B" and give him a hug and the guy who wanted a hug mouth drops, it was funny. He goes to me after I had sat down and squeezes me and says that if I didn't give him a hug that he was going to stay there squeezing me. I said that he was going to be there for a while. Later I went up to him and tried to give him a hug but he said, no it's too late. We then talked about what happened that monday.

OK so I can't remember what day I told him that I liked him but this is sorta how it went. HE went out of the class and started messing with things on the wall. (just wanna make sure: from what you have heard you would think that in the least bit that there might be a chance that he like me right?) I eventually tell him and he says something weird like you choose the right person or something and then tells me he isn't good with realationships. OH and that "I get all mad, do you want to go out?" It was a real confusing conversation i asked him you only think of me as a freind right? He said yes, so I left to work. I just remember that this was wednesday.

Thursday: (in the morning) My freind goes off on me and tells me that I need to learn how to talk, that I need to learn how to talk to guys and thats why I can't have a relationship. And all of this other stuff. They didn't see me upset but before I could get to the office I started crying. I had thought that all the crap that was happening to me I had under control, oh how I was wrong what my freind just made realize that I hadnt. That I had just pushed them aside. I went to 5th block upset but under control. I just decided that I am not going to put all that had happened cause it's already long. Guy from 5th block asked me why I was acting weird and I said that this is how I act, then he started ignoring me, I hate to be ignored. I started telling my teacher what was bothering me and got upset, tears forming on the ridges of my eyes, i got up and went out to the hall. I came back when I heard her telling the guy what had made me upset, he had seen me get teary eyed. I walked in and told her not to tell him. So she didn't he pulled her into the hall expecting an explanation but he didn't get one. She walked back in syaing something and told me that she didn't say anything. He looked like he felt sorry for me, that made me feel worse.

Friday: I tapped him to get his attention and he looks at me and turns around. So I walk off, it seems like he is ignoring me. Then later he wanted a hug and I told him that I was trying to give him a hug but he just ignored me. After I told that earlier I wasn't poking him but trying to get his attention to hug him.

Last night: I had a party and I only knew the one person, the person who had invited me. So I invited "the guy" but no answer. I call a couple of hours later, no answer. I txt him and time passes before I get a reply. Eventually he says yeah he'll come. He says he's on his way and so I am waiting. I put his name on the card so it doesn't look like he just came with an empty hand. SO I am waiting 30 minutes before I get a call. He tells me that he isn't going to go after all. Gave me this crappy excuse that he told his freind that he would hang out with him. I hear a girl's voice in the background. I said ok. so now I have 10 minutes to find someone to take me. I am really upset. So now i am not in the mood to go to a party anymore. I whiteout his name on the card but you can still sort of make out the name. I went and sat down at an empty table and two people that I had vaugely known from ROTC came and sat with me and I was glad but I hate being felt sorry for. I hung out with them until I called it an early night and went home at 10. By then I had decided that I am never going to talk to that guy again. In fact most of my guy freinds. I am slowly going to make myself alone. Monday I am not going to talk to anyone in 5th block but "B".

I am happy that today is Saturday and I am going to clean. Hopefully get done early so I can spend sometime by myself at the movies. The last movie I saw by myself was FEARLESS.

I give cookies to all who made it this far! *hands out cookies* Thank you so much. I know that was a lot, please forgive me.

I almost forgot I am going to try and work on my site. Going back to the beginning.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Friday, May 18, 2007

Ummm...really sick
I woke up with a REALLY bad cough.

I still haven't had time to post anything that I had wanted to. Thank you for leaving comments, I appreciate it. And apologize that I haven't made it to anyone's site. I have a graduation party tonight. Hopefully I won't be to sick for that.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Thursday, May 17, 2007

Yesterday was such a bad day.
Bad thing after bad thing kept happening yesterday since the time I woke up. This included a fight with a freind. I feel bad about it but I shouldn't because he was the one who had said most of the nasty stuff.

I have been meaning to post what happened this past week-end and the beginning of the week as well but I just haven't had time. I hopefully will be able to tell you about everything that has happened.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Bad moods
I don't have much time to post. I just wanted to say that i haven't forgotten you all, just don't have enough time.

I have been in a bad mood due to a situation but I have decided to ignore this person. I will give details later.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Saturday, May 12, 2007

   The day after...
I had my graduation party last night and not very many people showed up. I was upset, but I am not so upset now. I had a lot of fun and will be posting more about it later.

ANIME NIGHT!! WOOT!

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Wednesday, May 9, 2007

I am feeling a bit better
So I would like to thank you all for the lovely comments.

I shopped yesterday for my party and I am starting to stress, lol. They were completley out of the rolls of table cloth of silver. Which is sort of a good think because the black works out so much better. I am having live fish as a decoration, but it is only at the head table (my table)They are so silvery too. The good thing is that I get some fish for pets and I have been wanting one. Please don't be like my uncle and sister and think I am being cruel or going to flush them down the toliet afterwards. *shakes head* I am going to take care of them. I love this idea and plus it made a quick, easy, and cheap table decoration. I was having so much trouble trying to decide what to do. I was joking when I first said lets just use fish and then I was like wait that is SO COOL.

I need to get to doing my class work.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Tuesday, May 8, 2007

I am truely sick. :(
~Dancin' in the moonlight~ By Switchfoot is in my head.

Yep ladies and gentlemen I am sick. I wish I could stay home but I can't. I made it on time today and had time to take a shower! I am so happy, lol. I usually take a shower at night so I am not late and last night I felt to sicka nd sleepy to to do it.

Don't you hate it when you have to sneeze but it just won't come out? Its been happening a lot to me.

I got the scholarship! I am so happy that means that I can also go to the banquet Thursday. I was really worried that I wouldn't get one.

Gotta go work but I should be back later.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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Monday, May 7, 2007

I am alive...although I may not feel like it.
I feel sick and yesterday was worse but I thought it was consequences from Prom. I don't know though. Atleast I don't feel as bad as yesterday. I slept most of the day.

So today is Monday and the list for the caterer is due today and I only recieved one phone call to RSVP. So I have to try and make sure that everyone who wants to go is on the list.

I didn't do anything that I had planned to do yesterday. I missed anime and didn't even record it. :( I shall not miss it this week-end though! lol.

I need to get to work so I will try and visit sites later.

Have a wonderful day!

Jess
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