T.T Why the change? I don't like the separation of theotaku.com and myotaku.com, it's just not right. They are strongest together. Divide them, and they will fall.
Life seems to just want to pick away at anything that I have left. Nothing seems to be going my way. MyOtaku is changing, I can't afford to move out, school is terrible, I think my car has a broken seal somewhere that lets water into my trunk, work seems twenty times worse lately, my friends won't answer my phone calls or texts, and...she left me.
All I've done lately is go to school, go to work, and stay at home. I've been cleaning my room, in hopes that I might be able to move out eventually. I came across the pictures of her that were on my desk. I took a moment to stop cleaning and I sat down on my floor. As I looked through them, I could not hold back my tears. Everything about her lingers in my mind. There's an emptiness in my heart. Moving out of my house seems to be the only thing that I want anymore. I want to be able to move on. I don't want to cry every time I hear her name, every time I look at her picture, every time I remember.... when she loved me.
Maybe I'm not meant to be happy. None of my dreams are becoming a reality. Everything that I've worked towards is blowing up in my face. I just feel like I want to yell, but I also feel so helpless. I feel cold... nothing I do makes a difference...this seems to have become more about my problems than about the current separation of the sites as this post was originally intended... I don't know what to else to talk about.
I just wish it would stop hurting...
