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Thursday, May 6, 2004
When God closes a door, he shuts and padlocks a window.
Erm, don't read into that headline too much. I needed something to put there. ~_^
I still haven't really updated my page since v2 was launched. So I might tinker around with it a little bit later on. I just feel like I don't have the energy to do it. I just spent the last three hours doing N-Sider-related stuff...so, I think that's enough for this evening.
It's been an incredibly odd week, again. The last couple of weeks, I feel like I've been in the twilight zone. Does that ever happen to you?
It is sort of like, one moment I'm in a vaccuum and nothing looks or feels real. And the next moment, everything is almost too real. I can't quite explain it. It might just be the topsy turvy nature of my love life, which has been a seemingly extreme mixture of good and bad, ever since I became single toward the end of last year. Weird is definitely the best way to describe how things have felt lately.
To some extent, I think this has affected online stuff. Some things I've attended to, which really needed work. Other things I've neglected, because I've found it very difficult to feel any passion or interest in the Internet lately. You know what I mean? Normally, I have periods where I feel really passionate about things and I work very hard.
But sometimes, I can work insanely hard on something and I'll get nowhere -- it's like running and not moving. This is because, I find it very difficult to work on projects when I don't have the interest in what I'm doing. Usually, with things like Otaku and such, I do have the interest. And that always fuels me to do some relatively good work.
But...even that, lately, hasn't been there for me. It feels like all my passion for online projects has been seeping out of me for the last few weeks...to the point where now, it feels like an enormous effort to actually come up with new ideas.
The only exception to this would be Kill Adam. For some reason, I've had a lot of ideas about it lately and I've been eager to put them into practice.
Even the myOtaku homepage design for example; this should have been completed already. But after I finished the logo and placed it on the page, I sat there and looked at the white space. And I sat there, and sat there. And nothing. No ideas. Not a single thought -- I couldn't think about where to place things on the page, I couldn't think about what colours to use, I couldn't imagine where certain elements would fit. And I began disliking the basic layout that I'd come up with, in the first place.
I thought that maybe this would just be something for one night or two, like a writer's block (which happens to all of us).
But in general...nothing. No inspiration, no ideas, no desire.
It's a bit worrying, because it hasn't happened to me since I started working on the web, in early 2001. Maybe I'm just ready for retirement, or something entirely different. I really don't know.
Hopefully this phase will pass.
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