Sunday, April 17, 2005

Joyous Day :)
I didn't go to sleep until like 3am. I was up chatting with Neko-san and taking random quizzes (some which i may post later...however there were ALOT).

Slept in till 2-ish, only got woke up twice by telemarketers (yay I am winning!). I got up at two and got dressed and around 3 my friend called and he popped over to my place. We then left for a walk which lasted till almost 7:00. We walked in the park, climbed on the rocks, ran around in circles. We saw two deer, one which was like 10 or 15 feet away (and i got pics of). I showed him cool places in the park, including cave and cove and rocks and stuff.. And we talked about going hiking sometime. But the walk thing is going to be something we do regularly (at least i hope so).

It amused me that i'm the only person he knows and he's the only person i know that would just randomly run around and play in the park.

I only made myself look dumb once, when I almost fell off a cliff (smart me). But he saved me ^^ So all is good. I must be more careful though, I always end up doing something, probably due to the fact that I'm accident prone...

So yay for just going out and having a fun day :)

Other than that I haven't really done anything, I got home around 7 and hopped online. I've been randomly going to websites and stuff since then. I'm happy i have such a good friend...its nice to just relax and not worry about stuff.

~ciao
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Saturday, April 16, 2005

So far I had a decent day. I was only woken up by 2 calls this morning and was able to fend them both off (damn telemarketers)

I went to D&D at 2, forgot to talk to former secretary about the LARP email account. I ran into the ST later though and she said that its not really a big deal, its my first week and technically I wasn't secretary while minutes were being taken so people aren't going to be upset.

D&D ended up ending at 6:30, i got kind of a start made on my character for Patrick's new game. I hope it turns out ok, she's got some interesting stats...

I went to the Gaia Monologues at 7:30, which is basically talking about environmental issues. Its a play, but in monologue form. Basically people are reading stories, but acting them (if you've ever been to a monologue play, you know what i mean). I knew almost everyone in it, including a couple of my best friends and 2 people i consider good friends. And I vaguely knew almost everyone else. At least their names anyways. So it was really cool :)

It's now like 9pm and I have nothing to do. I'm debating going to a movie on campus (they are showing an old sci-fi flick, i don't really want to see the new film they're showing). I need to see Sin City, for a couple of reasons. Its tied in with the concept of Patrick's new game. And I heard it was really cool, from a couple of differnt people.

I'm supposed to go on a walk with a friend tomorrow, I'm really hoping it goes through. He said he'd call around 2. And we haven't had time to spend with just the two of us in a while... He's a good person. And I enjoy spending time with him. He supports me and talks to me when I need it. *sigh* I have some really good friends.

Well thats all for now, gaming is eating my brain again. However, I will be gone to Wisconsin for a couple of days (thursday and friday) for a class. It should be fun, but I may opt out of a couple of things. Its really awesome though, because i don't have to pay anything, because the honors program said they would cover it. So i'm taking some cash with me, but only for possible souveneirs or something.

ciao~
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Yay!
I had a pretty good day today.

Just found out my friend's sister had her baby :) Its happy news.

I got voted in as secretary of my LARP. I was majorly surprised. I knew that a couple people wanted to nominate me, but I never thought i would actually get it. I figured it would go to someone who was more popular...or something. I know it was really close. Jamie had one less vote than i...which surprised me more. Her boyfriend has been a member of the LARP for a long time...and she just started LARPing. She knows most of the people fairly well. And I was just really surprised i got it. I got some interesting questions while giving my speech (which i did kind of badly, but i didn't faint!!!)

I don't know why, but it just makes me kind of happy to know that people think i'll do a good job.

In other LARP news...Adrienne is falling into a depression. Her ball did not go as planned. In fact, I almost found myself actually crying due to the emotional stress SHE was under. Sometimes I tune into the character way too much. But yeah...her guest of honor was late, they were just starting to talk and events started to happen which led to her being staked and...things just went downhill from there.

I had two new ghouls. The first one was demon-possessed and ended up staked by the sherriff. The second one I was able to save by asking the Malkavian primogen to spare her, and they were able to get the demon out of her body. So I lost one of my new ghouls. It was kind of sad. He knew how to play with explosives...

hehe

Kage, my business partner, has left the city. He left me a ghoul and all of his business assets. (I need to ask if he left me his house...) So Adrienne was depressed about that too...they had a really special relationship that i don't think Kage ever caught on to. But Eric brought in a new character, one of the clanless, who is pretty. But i've yet to find out whether he has a pretty soul (amusingly enough that matters more to her, not that anyone has figured it out yet)

Ok enough on LARP.

*glee* I still can't believe I'm the secretary *dances happily*

Is it odd that I was one of the few people surprised about it? I really thought Jamie would get it. Or Amanda... I didn't think Josh would but thats because he's creepy. Very very creepy. He's a toucher...and i HATE that. Grr doom.

that is all :P
jayde
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Thursday, April 14, 2005

So I finally posted a story, on fanfiction.net I feel kind of accomplished, though I don't think anybody's read it yet.

Its not the one I showed to Neko-san, this is my long one with the rather graphic imagery. I'll probably post more later. Right now I'm hoping that people can give me advice on improving my writing skills, i.e. letting me know what i did right and what i did wrong. I've been writing for a long time, but this is the first time I've written something for public view. And I'm a bit nervous about how people are going to react to some of the stuff...

Well thats really all for now. I'm having a "girl's night" with Patrick and Eric. We are going to do each others hair and watch yaoi. It should be fun, as long as everything goes right. Which so far it seems like it is.

I have this compulsion to run home and clean my house. Its not *terribly* messy, but I don't want to freak about it, because Eric and Patrick aren't going to judge. Gah I can imagine my cleaning frenzies becoming a normal thing and thats not a happy thought (its not that i don't want to be neat, its just sometimes i can be COMPULSIVELY neat and i don't want to start that).

I have an exam tomorrow. I had a quiz today, that I actually think i did well on. My evolution essays (on the exam) got fairly good grades. I wish more exams were essays..i seem to do the best on them. Yay for becoming an english major, that should increase the number of essay tests.

Ok, thats really all.

<3
jayde
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excuse the babbling, this happens when i don't update for a few days
Well so far my week has gone fairly well. Evan was downstate getting his braces removed but he'll be coming back tomorrow. And hopefully we'll be able to hang out. We haven't had a chance to hang out in a week and a half.

I have written two fanfic stories in the last couple of days. I'm hoping to post them soon on fanfiction.net Hopefully people will like them, Neko seemed to like the one i showed her (the first I completed)

I'm happy. I don't know how to deal with it, since usually my happiness lasts for like..an hour. And then something comes along and takes it away. Like...reality. Or something.

So i'm happy. I'm creative. But at the same time I'm stressed. I want to move, but I have nowhere to go. I don't have the money to go anywhere, I don't have the furniture, i don't have the capacity. Not to mention that the lease here isn't up till August.

However, i don't doubt Jason has people waiting to move in if I decide to leave. He says he already had a couple people in mind to move in to Paul's old room.

Yeah, Paul is moving. With Bob. Who i really don't like. So i guess i won't be visiting him. Not that he's invited me or anything. I feel kind of sad about the fact we aren't really friends anymore, but at the same time, he's the one who pushed me away. I tried to be there for him and it wasn't good enough. So I lost another friend. But at the same time I'm making friends who seem to be stronger than ever before.

I'll miss John. The worst thing is that I don't know when he's leaving. He's resigning as narrator for our LARP on friday...because he doesn't know exactly when they'll be sending him to Iraq. Right now he's going, though I know (from having other friends in the service) that they can change that. So right now he's tentatively being shipped over. The only one who isn't upset about it is him. To his way of figuring, its a paycheck. And he won't be spending it really.

The summer is coming and as in most college towns, people are leaving. Eric might be leaving. I don't know how I'd be able to deal without him. He's graduating. And he doesn't know whether he's staying here or not.

I hate not knowing these things.

On the plus side, I know enough people who will be IN marquette this summer and have enough group stuff planned that i won't be as lonely as last summer.

Thats kind of nice. I really hate being completely isolated (and i mean completely...last summer i was alone most of the time and it really stressed me out...)
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Sunday, April 10, 2005

   yay weekend
Basically this is what my weekend was like... Friday was kind of hectic and doomy and stuff but it went better than i thought it would...so I ended up kind of having fun. We have a few new people at LARP, so far they seem ok, though the one guy is amusing (think cliched vampire...Eurotrash accent, trench coat, fangs, like he stepped out of a Blade movie). My Masquerade Ball is coming up this friday and I've been working really hard to make sure it goes right. If anything goes wrong, I will probably freak out and cry (in AND out of character).

Saturday i skipped D&D and walked third street with Lys and Craig. Bought a few things, ate ice cream and then we had pineapple and mushroom pizza (mm vegetarian). Then we went and helped Lys pack some more stuff and went to the student directed plays afterwards. They were all really good (using some of my fave student actors and actresses) but the second one was my favorite, it really spoke to me. Then we went to the park, wandered down by the bog and listened to the frogs sing. Then walking back we saw 5 blue spotted salamanders and I picked one up and saved it from getting run over by a car. They were really cute and Craig was excited and telling Lys and I about amphibians and stuff (he's majorly into herpetology)

Then i went home and went to bed. I spent today just chilling at home and studying religion and doing religous stuff. It was relaxing. And I felt at peace. Its a nice feeling and a nice way to end a good weekend. I really needed this and send thanks to the friends who suggested I take a day off, since it turned out to be majorly good advice.

I hope the rest of my week goes as well (i.e. Patrick doesn't decide to start being mean to me again, as well as other people).

I feel loved right now, knowing that i have some really awesome friends who are always there to talk to me when they know i need it the most :) Even chatting with a good friend makes everything better.

So thanks to all my friends. I <3 you guys.

~jayde
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Ganked from Neko-san
Yay quizzies :)

They are mostly accurate..and Neko-san and I got almost all the same results :P


In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)


What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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you represent the hard times in life. you have a
hard life yourself and a hidden self many don't
know about.


What part of life do you represent? ( AWESOME anime pics ^_^)
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You are a dark girl. You have a really quiet and
really a i dont' care attitude. You like to be
alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't
like to be around others and you'd rather be
away from here. You have a get away from me
look and others find you bitchy and
self-rigious. You'd rather read than be at a
fair but that's ok because that's who you are.


Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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You are the night. You are quiet and don't really
talk to people. People see you as a loner and
you are also very reserved when around people.
That's only at school! At home your different!
That depends on who you are though.


What's your Element? (anime pics)
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You have a lost soul. You tend to be pushed around.
When you do take ur own way you seem to get
lost. You can be very sweet but are drawn back
when people think you are just a goodie-tushos
(which sucks believe me i would know)all in all
you are sweet and cute (attitude wise).


CONSTANT UPDATING(NEW ANSWER) What kind of soul do you have? ( ENCHANTING anime pics)
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You like the ones that understand you.


What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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I confuse people on a regular basis, so i don't think this one is even possible ^^

jayde
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Friday, April 8, 2005

Paper is done, my personal life is still messed up (though i'm trying to at least clarify some things right now, and for the most part its working)

I have two exams next week, one for CLS and another for chem (i suppose people did really bad if he is giving it to us again).

I hope I have a relaxing weekend. Maybe I'll help Lys and Craig set up their new apartment. I might go to the student directed plays on saturday (they're at 7:30) tho i might have to leave DnD early.

Ciao
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Wednesday, April 6, 2005

and more of my emotional drama
So my week was going ok...I had some things going on in my personal life that I'm not really going to elaborate on, except to say that lots of drama ensued.

I have taken my two exams, one i was fairly confident about, the other...well i'm hoping.

I have a paper that will most likely exceed 15 pages due tomorrow. I should be able to get it done, even if I have to skip my afternoon classes. The paper is due by like 7:40 (thats when my class ends). So I'll be working on that this afternoon and all of tomorrow. I hope i don't have to stay up all night, that would really suck.

And at the moment I'm hoping that I will have someone to hang out with tomorrow. yes, a particular someone. But at the moment, I don't really know.

Alyssia is coming to stay for a couple days. She's been searching for a person to sub-lease her apartment in may when she's moving in with Craig. Well a friend of hers was interested and found himself in need of an apartment right away. So she's moving in the next couple of days, staying with me for a few days. Then she will either move in with Craig early or crash here for like 3 weeks. Which should be fine.

I don't really feel like a good person right now. There are a lot of reasons for that. And I still don't regret..because I guess I figured it was worth it. But i really hate causing people pain and I have a really high empathy so it always ends up falling onto me anyways. I just have this feeling that everybody hates me, even when they assure me they don't. And I don't know how this situation will cause them to react.

Well thats really all for now, wish me luck on getting my paper done.

jayde
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Monday, April 4, 2005

My weekend
I had the best weekend i've had in awhile.

Friday, LARP went pretty well, though my character was rather upset. She got stabbed and almost died. It made her reevaluate a few things.

Went to the pancake house, ate fries and drank coke..and then hung out with someone until like 1:00pm the next day. We talked for hours. It was one of those times when you learn more about the other person in a short time period than you learn about some people in a year.

It was alot of fun. We talked and then around 7am we went for a walk on the beach and through a park where i live. We walked for three hours and then went back and ended up falling asleep for around an hour on the couch. Then woke up and I went home. I showered and went to Patrick's game. Which isn't D&D at the moment, he is taking a break and instituting a gaming system loosely based on white wolf (the world of darkness) except we are playing ourselves, in our city, but with random magic powers. We actually wrote them up as us. It was kind of fun. He's testing it as a tabletop before making it into a LARP this summer.

Then we went to see a movie, which turned out to be different than the one they said it was (stupid campus announcements). The movie was ok, the only thing that kept it funny was one of the supporting actors.

Then I left and went home and crashed till like 2pm the next day (technically 1, since daylight savings time switched over).

And then around 4-ish i went over and hung out with my friend again. Till like 4am. And it was alot of fun...

Thats really all, except i'm really tired and have exams this week :(

Ciao!
jayde
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