Thursday, March 31, 2005

Well I've had a busy week. I had an essay exam on tuesday in my honors class, which i studied really hard for..hopefully i did well...*crosses fingers*

My games were pretty fun, though Travis didn't come to werewolf I guess because he had a date or something (hehe) We were kind of mad for the lack of notice, till we found out about that...

Patrick has left our vampire dark ages game and probably won't come back...we are still doing pretty well but it sucks only having three people. Plus he's sick right now, he has a weird bacterial skin infection and his doctors won't let him go anywhere (i don't know why...)

My honors class is meeting at a Cafe today, hopefully it will be fun. Its kind of cold and miserable from it raining, it feels more like fall than spring. Oh well, no change for it, I have to walk to get to class so it doesn't make any difference.

And thanks for the advice on Zac...I'll try my best :)

Ciao!
jayde
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Monday, March 28, 2005

This is a long post, sorry :( Haven't updated in a week...agonized feminine stuff at the end (please ignore)
Sorry for not updating recently, life's been rather hectic. It still if, but I find myself with a little time to update :)

Um my week was pretty fun, though a little more hectic than usual. I started my lab, which wasn't too bad, but i have a few things to go over before it tomorrow (and the folder is on campus..) Tuesday game was resheduled due to Pornography Debate.. (it was really fun). My wednesday game went well & i had alot of fun. I actually left class early to get there on time, which ended up being kind of pointless since we didn't actually start till like 8. Oh well... Thursday was busy since thats when the tuesday game was switched to. Alyssia and Patrick ended up getting into a fight...and Patrick quit. I'm hoping he'll come back, but he just started another game so prolly not.

LARP was fun. I felt better than i have in a while. People didn't seem to be fighting as much, Eric was actually allowed to play his regular character (for a while). Evan is playing again, since he isn't working. John's new character is alot of fun. however, Patrick's new character kind of sucks. I don't like it as much (in character) and i know that it prolly won't last long. I feel bad for him, since he didn't have a choice about his other character being removed from the game. I don't know for sure who decided, but I'm pretty sure that Meredith (the ST) and Mouse (the president) had something to do with it. Cause Patrick was playing Mouse's ghoul, and he was trying to get embraced by other people, so thats prolly the reason they removed him from play. I hope he comes back, Lysander was at least nice.

I ended up going to the pancake house, since John requested it. I'm getting sick of their food, but i don't know what i can really do about it. I have no way to get to any other restaurant. In the last couple of months, i have eaten in ONE place other than the pancake house. And that was when i went out to lunch and had chinese. Sometimes being a vegetarian SUCKS. Its so irritating how EVERYTHING has meat in it. There are so few choices. I kind of wish i lived in an area that catered to vegetarians more. But this is the midwest. Here, we are known for having a surplus of fast food (and yes this is a statistical thing). Though i heard burger king has veggie burgers. I don't think its spread up here yet though. And even if it was, i don't know whether i could ethically eat there. *sigh*

D&D was pretty fun, though Jamie was gone. She left for Mexico and is gone for a week. So we are without our thief. The ONE character we actually needed this week. *sigh*

Gaming is taking over my life. I enjoy it, but sometimes wish i had more free time. If i had to choose which game to drop...i don't think i could. I have three free days a week. And i never miss my games. Though once i left early (for a play).

Easter was pretty fun. Hung out with Alyssia, Craig, and Ky. We cooked good vegetarian food and played munchkin and watched movies. It was alot of fun. Ky made this sinfully delicous cake, i must get the recipe...and Alyssia made this REALLY good risotto. mmm

Zac if frustrating me. I keep wondering whether to just give up. He is the person i'm interested in right now..and he doesn't seem to fathom that. The sad thing is that i now have like 4 people ACTIVELY working on getting us together and a number of other people who are nudging or just think we should date. And i requested NONE of this. In fact i only mentioned it to like 2 people. So its kind of scary how many people know now.

I called him on Friday, hoping to go to campus a couple hours early and maybe chill with him. He gave me his number (room and phone) and told me to call him or drop by sometime. But he was still sick and didn't want to expose people to it. Though he was getting better and i saw him the day before. I don't know what to feel about it, except kind of sad. I think Patrick is right..(he thinks Zac is avoiding me). And its kind of sad, because he actually told Alyssia and a couple other people, that he thought i was attractive and...well he wanted to get to know me better but he hasn't done ANYTHING to further this.

I just don't know. He knows i like him. He seemed FINE with it. I mean he was even encouraging. And sometimes he is. But other times he just kind of ignores the fact that i'm agonizing over him (or whatever you want to call it). I have even started trying to actively get him to do stuff with me. Its REALLY hard since i'm so shy. I really am. And i really like this boy. But nothing seems to work. I have called him, went on a date with him, hung out with him & his friends (some of who are my friends), I've flirted with him, I've kissed him (on the cheek), hugged him whenever possible, i have talked to him and tried to get to know him better... And i'm seriously at the end up my rope. I wish boys weren't so... unfathomable.

So yeah I have been getting advice from a million different people. And I have tried everything it seems. And none of it is working. And its just upsetting me alot. Its not that he may not like me. I could live with that. But I just don't know whats going on in his head. I need some sort of resolution. *pulls out hair* But hopefully this will be resolved soon.

Thats really all for now, sorry for the long post...
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Sunday, March 20, 2005

Well...my character DID come back to life. Unfortunately she was then forcibly changed into a were-boar and told to get the curse taken away she had to turn in either the vampire or the psionic she had been traveling with. So...I don't think she would turn in the psionic, since they kind of worked together. They weren't exactly friends but there is a kinship there...due to certain things that happened to their characters in game. Soo I don't know what to do.

I forgot to talk to Eric about LARP stuff and haven't decided whether to embrace Lyssander or not. Its hard sometimes to separate the character from yourself and thing about what they would do objectively. Cause I like Patrick, but my character isn't happy with his character right now. He was jealous and ran off and told on her to her sire. Which really pissed her off because it ended up making everyone yell at her and then they were forcing her to do a bunch of stuff. So...she's not happy. But if she thought she could control him she MIGHT embrace him. However, she kind of likes other people right now. Grr its difficult. Because in these games making the wrong choice could cause your character to DIE.

*sigh*

Anyways, after D&D I went and hung out with Patrick, Evan, and Jamie. We rented Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust and I liked it alot. I was rather happy because Patrick had mentioned it was the first anime he saw that he really liked...so i figured i would like it too. And I did, so its all good. Eric might be coming over tomorrow to hang out and watch Gravitation. He's sick right now and I hope that he's feeling better soon. He said he might call in to work and i was going to talk to him more, but ended up not walking home with him...

I hope Joey liked D&D it was a rather hectic first day for him. But his character was rather interesting. However, he kept bickering with the Kobold...and it was rather amusing, but not the best person in the party to argue with. Since he could have prolly killed him BEFORE the uber-power up we got today.

Thats mostly it, sorry for the long post, its just been a hectic day...

Ciao!
jayde
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Saturday, March 19, 2005

Ummm didn't get much sleep last night, i didn't go to sleep till like 6am. Hung out with people until like 4:30 and then came home and chatted with someone till like 5:30/6:00 and then i went to bed. I found out when i got home that gravitation had arrived, I will have to watch it soon :) I have the first two dvds, thats half the series.

My D&D character just died, but hopefully (if anyone survives) I will be brought back/reincarnated in some way. I was starting to like her, though some really horrible stuff happened to her today :(

Well thats mostly it, LARP is going all right, though I am hoping that my character survives because there is so much going on right now. She is kind of upset at most of the people that she thought were her friends...people were pushing her alot so she was really upset. And her sire took on a new child and she doesn't know whether she is happy about that or not. Probably not...

Well thats mostly it for now. Hopefully anime and grilled cheese soon :)

Ciao!
jayde
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Thursday, March 17, 2005

Hanging out with friends for St. Patrick's Day, having a sleepover/party. Should be fun. I *had* a date to a really formal ball on campus, but he didn't realize it conflicted with something else he had already committed to. :( So I am debating whether to find a new date (due to the AWESOME theme they are having) or go with my guy friend to a drag show. Hmm well its not for a few weeks so i'll have figured it out by then.

Thats really all for now except i now have tickets to a bunch of speeches and plays and stuff on campus it should be fun, i haven't gone to as much this year as i did last year, but i'm more involved in actual groups than before. So yay.

Ciao!
jayde
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

   Thanks for all the support :) My break did turn out to be much better than i anticipated, I had alot of fun gaming with "relax" times in between. I definitely am happy I stayed home

I'm trying to work my fanfics in and still haven't found much time...i don't know why but my life is not conducive to writing right now. I haven't even written ANYTHING creative in ages. Hopefully that will change, since writing makes me happy.

I have Vampire: Dark Ages tonight... should be fun...

And boys are funny...And thats all i have to say about that :P

jayde

P.S. Neko-san let me know when Chibi has her baby...then i can be joyous ;)

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Sunday, March 13, 2005

yay i finally got something done
Well I got around to everyone's sites today who had updated and I commented on most of them :)

I had fun at D&D yesterday and walked home with Eric (only looking somewhat clumsy...) I have nothing really to do today...except dishes :P Ewww... But i'll get them done. I'm bored and don't want to go back to class..but i know i have to. I have discovered that as long as its not REALLY cold I still like walking. Especially with Eric. He's a really sweet guy...unfortunately I don't think he likes me that way (sigh...) But he's a good friend and gives great hugs, so I'm not complaining. Sometimes I would rather have a good friend than a boyfriend...friends tend to last longer than boyfriends (and with MUCH less drama)

So those are my random thoughts for today. Other than I am still seriously considering changing my major. I think I really want to write. I don't know what, but something. I love to write. So it seems to make sense...

Well thats all for now :)
jayde
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Saturday, March 12, 2005

...i suck at keeping up with things
Well I had more time to do things, but for some reason I still didn't update much. *sigh*

Oh well...here is this weeks update. I had a game of vampire on tuesday (in which i dragged off bodies..thats about it) Game of werewolf on wednesday (in which i went on a mission and got info to complete Eagle's quest...our totem) Thursday I sat around in pjs and didn't really do much...Friday was LARP and Alyssia and Craig didn't come, I guess they said they didn't know about it (but they were there when the announcement was made and I thought they were coming...) But I walked with Eric...that was fun. He's a really nice person and fun to hang out with. Which I do now at least 4 times a week (while gaming) Hopefully he comes over to hang out regularly soon... Umm...D&D was today and that was fun :) For some reason we ended up running into a magical deck of cards. The first time around...well lots of bad happened, so we got to redraw (thankfully...there is NOTHING worse than being evil and then suddenly you're good...I hugged the cleric...) And the redraws were pretty nice...I got a castle keep again (underground of course) I also got a magical item...and something else...oh 6 pts in diplomacy...i think thats it. Unfortunately my bad draw was to lose all my worldly items. Meaning i lost all my weapons, armor, pack, and money. And standing mostly naked in the middle of a tavern... it happened to Eric too...but anyways, I traded my magic scepter (which was REALLY cool) so that I could get a cooler mount.

The DM gave me a DRAGON. A baby, but still a dragon. A really evil dragon...muahaha I just thought it was really sweet...even if i have to wait a long time for him to grow up so I can ride him. Being a Paladin ROCKS. I just have to treat him as an equal and give him a hoard (most likely in said castle)

So now I'm happy...its not everyday i get a dragon. Even an imaginary one :)

Ciao!
jayde
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Monday, March 7, 2005

time for an update, sorry so long but haven't updated lately :(
well i haven't updated in a while, but i should have time this week (since i have few responsibilites, yay spring break)

well i have no solid plans this week other than gaming. D&D got out early on saturday, due to breaking of the DM's mind, seriously we reached new levels of wrongness...but it was funny because none of it was actually in the plan (which was why the DM's mind broke) so it was fun and rather horrible at the same time. I definitely like how my character is developing in that game, can't wait to play my other D&D game this sat. Also joined another game, Vampire: Dark Ages, this one is being run by Craig too, just like my werewolf game. So yay for having like way too many gaming committments. Hopefully it doesn't become too much, I really like all the games right now (i'm getting to like Patrick's game better) and I really don't want to quit any of them. Plus i wouldn't know which one to choose anyways, I'm in 2 games of vampire (the masquerade, which is LARP and dark ages, tabletop), 2 games of D&D which are very different from each other, and my werewolf game. all are with people who i like...and run by people i like...and all of them generally take at least 6 hours per game. So they are most of a day's commitment (D&D generally runs longer...but its on a saturday and starts in the afternoon) problem is if i get a job i don't know what i'm going to do about working that around my games. the two craig is running are off-campus...however the D&D games and LARP (i think) are both actual clubs, so i could probably get out of work for them.

But yeah i haven't heard from them yet, but its only been a week (i think) so I'm still hopeful...

umm things with Zac are going kind of slow, due to neither of us possessing a car. And I live off-campus so its a ways away (not really far but its winter...and there is LOTS of snow) So I'm hoping to find a solution to that sometime soon...or maybe to just work up the courage to invite him over and then get one of my roommates to go get him. Its spring break and would be a good time to hang out, but both my roommates are going to be leaving soon. Jason prolly tomorrow and Paul in the middle of the week...course Paul's not here now...he's been "making friends" in the way that he does. meaning he meets someone once and then just randomly goes to visit them. He has been driving like an hour and a half to see people he barely know (gah! i don't get it..) But yeah anyways, spring break has been kind of boring so far, hoping it will pick up (or just hoping Zac calls me so i don't have to work up the courage to call HIM)

Well...meh

bye for now
jayde
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Thursday, March 3, 2005

Woo Fun
Well my spring break starts this weekend so yay for nothing to do. The chicago trip is off and i'm now staying home (most likely by myself) and doing random gaming with people I don't want to spend it all with Alyssia, because this is private time for her and Craig, they need it since they don't get it very often....and they are working too so yeah

I handed in an application to the den, haven't heard anything yet, though they said they would get back to me. They best or i'll be pissed again.

Umm...i guess Zac wants to ask me to go out or something, but I see him so rarely...he hasn't really said anythig to me. I want to get to know him better and hang out or something, so I asked him to come to Munchkin tonight, he doesn't know whether he's coming or not though. He's not feeling well. So hopefully that goes thru, if not, I will try to talk to him tomorrow at LARP and maybe set up hang out times during break since I *think* he'll be here. That would be nice.

Eric and I are getting together to write our Drow history for D&D and he said he'd come over and hang out soon. He just finished his internship for cosmetology. So he has a little more time. Plus he said to definitely call him when I get Gravitation from Netflix, he wants to watch it with me. So that will be fun.

My house is really messed up, its starting to irritate me. Jason hasn't done dishes yet and i really need to do laundry. So hopefully that gets done soon, especially if he's leaving for spring break, if he leaves w/out getting it done, retribution will be in order.

Thats all for now i guess
sorry for the long-ish post
bye for now :)
jayde
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