Thursday, January 13, 2005

back to school on monday
well its back to school on monday for me...and i'm not really looking forward to it. I have to check and see about my money on friday and get books and stuff this weekend. Paul's pushing for me to go to the doctor and unfortunately i think he's right. I don't cough as much but when i do i can't breathe. His mom thinks i have bronchitis right now but that I might be on the verge of pneumonia and I don't think that will go away without antibiotics. I hate the fact that my immune system is so low that I get sick all the time, this will be the first time I go to the doctor in like 3 years. Its been a long time, but as long as I get better it will be worth it. I can't afford to be sick and miss class when its just beginning, thats a good way to screw up the entire semester.

I actually accomplished stuff after getting back home. With the help of Paul (and a little help from Jason) I completely cleaned and rearranged my bedroom which is not an easy task. I have ALOT of heavy furniture. And I bought a bookshelf (not a little one either). Its completely full and my old one is still mostly full. I have too many books. My room is actually home-y now though. Its kind of weird after basically "existing" in a bunch of different places. This is the first time I've actually taken the time to really decorate a place. I guess knowing I'll be here until August at least made me want to settle in. I hope I'm here longer than that its a really comfortable house and other than a few little things this place is great. The rent is manageable and we have all the furniture and stuff we need.

College is a weird time to feel settled though. I just wish I had a job, which I'm going to try really hard this semester. It still pisses me off that they never called me back about my application. I have Work Study and I applied for the positions that people don't want as much (food service) so I thought I would get a job. Not to mention the woman who does it told my friend she would give me a job since she asked about it. Grr. And then she didn't. Big surprise. Its so dumb. I mean I am a college student who receives work study and that means I'm supposed to be considered before people without work study but that isn't the case. I shouldn't have such a problem finding a job. I mean they didn't even try to put me somewhere else or anything. They just didn't call.

Anyways, sorry for ranting but I'm hoping this time is different. I would like to be able to use my Work study. And to save a little money for things like new clothes and maybe a vacation or something so that I can relax sometime. I have gone to school continuously since my freshman year and halfway thru my 2nd year of college I am already a junior. And I didn't have ANY prior credits. I can't go on like this or I'll burn out. I'm almost there already and it surely doesn't help my health any to never have a break. A few weeks of break is nice, but its not the same as having the summer off and not having to worry about money to pay bills.

Well I'm hoping this year is better than last year. So far it hasn't been bad except for me being sick. And that is hopefully going to change.

Ciao for now...
jayde
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