Thursday, April 14, 2005

excuse the babbling, this happens when i don't update for a few days
Well so far my week has gone fairly well. Evan was downstate getting his braces removed but he'll be coming back tomorrow. And hopefully we'll be able to hang out. We haven't had a chance to hang out in a week and a half.

I have written two fanfic stories in the last couple of days. I'm hoping to post them soon on fanfiction.net Hopefully people will like them, Neko seemed to like the one i showed her (the first I completed)

I'm happy. I don't know how to deal with it, since usually my happiness lasts for like..an hour. And then something comes along and takes it away. Like...reality. Or something.

So i'm happy. I'm creative. But at the same time I'm stressed. I want to move, but I have nowhere to go. I don't have the money to go anywhere, I don't have the furniture, i don't have the capacity. Not to mention that the lease here isn't up till August.

However, i don't doubt Jason has people waiting to move in if I decide to leave. He says he already had a couple people in mind to move in to Paul's old room.

Yeah, Paul is moving. With Bob. Who i really don't like. So i guess i won't be visiting him. Not that he's invited me or anything. I feel kind of sad about the fact we aren't really friends anymore, but at the same time, he's the one who pushed me away. I tried to be there for him and it wasn't good enough. So I lost another friend. But at the same time I'm making friends who seem to be stronger than ever before.

I'll miss John. The worst thing is that I don't know when he's leaving. He's resigning as narrator for our LARP on friday...because he doesn't know exactly when they'll be sending him to Iraq. Right now he's going, though I know (from having other friends in the service) that they can change that. So right now he's tentatively being shipped over. The only one who isn't upset about it is him. To his way of figuring, its a paycheck. And he won't be spending it really.

The summer is coming and as in most college towns, people are leaving. Eric might be leaving. I don't know how I'd be able to deal without him. He's graduating. And he doesn't know whether he's staying here or not.

I hate not knowing these things.

On the plus side, I know enough people who will be IN marquette this summer and have enough group stuff planned that i won't be as lonely as last summer.

Thats kind of nice. I really hate being completely isolated (and i mean completely...last summer i was alone most of the time and it really stressed me out...)
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