Friday, April 22, 2005

thanks everyone!!
Currently in a hotel room in wisconsin. I should be sleeping, but am talking to someone online. Miss talking to Neko-san, but I will talk to her soon I'm sure.

Can't believe the hotel had wireless *happy dance* I haven't gotten any work done really, but I did work *some* on my D&D character. Prolly not going on saturday, due to a play i forgot about and have tickets to.

And then I might hang out with Lys and Craig and meet Craig's friends. Kind of nervous when I meet new people. It takes me a while to loosen up.

Thanks for all the support for my last post. And sorry for the last few paragraphs. I just occasionally feel left out. My friends are finding these great wonderful people and I feel kind of left out. Its not that I hate being single. Single isn't horrible. Its just one of those things where everyone has someone to pair off with and spend time with and I'm left by myself, doing nothing.

I have a few friends who are single, but they aren't my closest friends (or if they are, they have a million other things to do). So yeah, lonely and abandoned me. Sorry for the self-pity thing. I'm trying to be concise about why I'm lonely and it comes out sounding whiny..

I'm lucky. At least i feel that way. I have good friends, here and in the flesh. I have my muse, though it comes and goes. I haven't written alot, but I have actually FINISHED stories so I feel better about it. I feel better about being an English major, though i'm wavering between Writing major and Graduate bound.

Roleplaying is eating my brain. I'm worried about my finals. I'm studying and working my butt off and don't know if its making a difference. I am adding new people to my best friends..and kind of sad because they don't all like each other (or know each other). I'm working on that, but I don't know how it will go. Everyone has their shortcomings, nobody is perfect. I am a clear example of that. I make mistakes, I compromise my code... but i try to learn from my mistakes and i try not to hold other people's mistakes against them.

I'm developing a headache just thinking about it. Tomorrow is the Organic farm and thankfully no more sad little piggies that make me cry ... *sigh* And then return to home and LARP. And secretary duties.

I will be working on a new email list. And saying if you have any announcements you'd like included in the newsletter, get them to me by SUNDAY. at the latest. and it has to be something at least student related. Or something like that. And i have to find out if the president is ever going to have a damn executive board meeting. Cause he specifically said it would be this week and we had loads of time. I didn't even TALK to him. I talked to his gf about non-LARP stuff.

Grr and yay play tomorrow
~jayde
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