Monday, February 12, 2007

Guilt's a bitch.
yeah, i decided to stay home today because its the day of my birth, and i feel kinda guilty about it, i had convinced myself that i was going to end up going today, as long as nothing went wrong, well my dad slept in so i was late, so basically i saw that as an omen that i should stay home, so i ran inside the school [cuz i really had to crap] then went home. now i have to figure out how i'm going to make up fashion-show day, its not as if i didn't want to go to school, its just that i really seem to have bad luck on my birtday, i've had it since i was in elementary school, but i do seem to put to much stock into abstract terms like "luck" or "fate" or "providence" i suppose i like shirking off the respouncibility of my actions, merely blaming them on the will of a higher being, maybe its a defense mechanism so thsat i don't go nuts with blame based off all the terrible decisions i make.

As for what i've gotten so far for my life aniversary, my brother got me ear buds, a knife sharpener, and another pocket knife [again he shopped not off my list" he also got me that nerf sniper rifle the "long-shot" he likes it cuz it has the same name as the sniper rifle from gears of war. well i put it together, being as it comes in too pieces i decided to mess arond for a while pretending i was Dearka in the Buster, and while i t was still in the box i played Nicol in the Blitz, even if the box is retangular and the Blitz's gun/shield is a pointy trapazoid. well i snapped them together and decided to try to snipe, and ya know what?
the damn thing is as accurate as a shotgun! i know this because i was plaging Dearka, aiming at my Strike action figure so i yell out "Take this Strike Pilot!" at the damn rounds all fly off course like hell. "accurate up to 30 feet" yeah, if you know the exact angle of decent in the round and ypu're shooting at a WHALE! the damn foam rounds don't just fall, they fly off coarse laterally too.
the cool thing is that they are shaped like rifle rounds, thel look like reall bullets, even in texture diiferences, foam "jacket" and rubber "tip" so i was pretty happy aout that, the rounds also come in clips that look like real magazines, plus the gun is bolt action, its a simplified bolt, just back and forth, but the bolt does select rounds, and the clips have springs in them.
my dad just gave up and gave me $50, so i have to decide what to buy with it, i know i'll buy some Gundams, but i don't know which ones.

i still have my moms presents to open, and she actually shops off my list, plus the only package that came came from wall of fame, so i know that they are Gundams, because that douche bag doesn't carry anything else. the other guys that sell Gundamns are slipping, so i believe i'll just cancel my orders for DVDs from them and just get things from Right Stuf, they've never let me down.

Speaking of Right Stuf, i finally saw the last episode of Kare Kano, and boy is it a GAINAX ending, Asaba, Yukino, Tsubaki, and all the other girls are working on their play, Arima is pissed at Takifumi because he doesn't like anyone getting close to Yukino, Arima has an inner conflict in which i loves Yukino's free-spirit, but due to his insecurity he wants to keep her all to himself [complete with cool scenes of Yukino wrapped up by rose vines or dark ribbony things, very stylized and cool] Asaba telling Takifumi that the Armia he was HIS ONLY FRIEND as a kid was the FAKE one [which was great, because i love imitating Asaba/Gaara's voice] but is any of this resolved in the end?
NO!
because its GAINAX, the final scene is Takifumi realizing he might have slight feelings for Tsubasa...
WTF!?
it was pretty funny when he thought he might be gay because the two people he likes the most are the pretty-boy Arima and the tom-boy Tsubasa. though the scene where he talks about as a kid he always wanted to be stronger than Tsubasa, because back then gender did nothing towards physical strength, but now he realizes that bilogically he with any amount of effort is physically superior to her, and he gets caught of gaurd by how thing and frail her arms are, that was cute.

still working on strengthening my body, i did 25 push-ups yesterday in an effort to stengthen my chest, i hope that helps, along with all the other shit i put my body through to be better looking, i must say my waist looks good, not its just tits and ass i gotta work on, so thats what walking my weeny dog, running stairs, crunches and push-ups are for. i just want to be leaner, i have a pretty face, not a handsome many one, so i want and need a lean sexy body to go with it.
so i need luck on that!

well i'll be trying to keep myself busy today, to try to block out my guilt.
so i'll probably do the stairs and write so AP.

Hiya I'ts bev!!!
Muhahahahaha I hacked in cus i can?!!!!!
It's his B-Day!!!!!!
I love you JD!!!!
Weeeeeeeeeee.....
I love you so MUCH!!!!!!!

Lots and lots of kissis for you!!!!
*Kisses JD*
Ok i'm bored Bye bye!!!!
I'm his GF!
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"avoiding fate is part of fate"

i use that saying a lot.

visit my lover, she is making an effort to be more prolific on here.


HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Sunday, February 11, 2007

Sloth.
Yeah, i'm guilty of that one, which sucks because Sloth had the worst powers on FMA, i mean Pride with his stupid "i have the ultimate eye!" thing was pretty lame, which i explain more of later, but come on! water-body? god that is a lame power, especially compared to Wrath and Lust, which by the way are much cooler sins.

but Pride with his stupid eye, its retarded, the fact he could dodge Marta's attacks, it doesn't make sense, and you know why? think when Lee fought Sasuke on Naruto, Sasuke whips out his Sharigan eyes, ahnd detects every one of Lee's moves, and commences to get his ass kicked, because even if he can see Lee's moves he can't defend against him because his eyes may be fast, but his body isn't.
so unless Pride also has the "ultimate reaction time" he still should have got his ass beaten, but then again i may just read too much into things, i'm known to do that at times.

well today i didn't get much time to further myself in Star Ocean, being as i know and like most of the voice actors, i perfer to listen to them talk, but they usually annoy my brother, so most of the time he always turns the volume down on all the games i play, but being as i really wanted to hear the voices in this one i decided not to play while he was sitting on the couch, so i only got like an hour of gaming in, because on top of that there was some indie wrestling show he and my dad wanted to go to. so far i've barely gotten into the Vangard III part, of course that part is pretty short, i just gotta kill Norton, then i can go to Elicor and Albel mine! yeah, see i have the strategy guide, so i went through with the scene you need to to have Albel as your first partner [the one that takes out the Vendeeni transporter] i kinda like that scene, where Albel wakes you up by jokingly trying to kill you, then talking to you in the dead of night about wether or not you hate him, and of course i say no, because i want him as Fayt's soul mate, see if you don't do that scene it's likely , basically manditory that Nel is your first partner, and probably that Peppita will be your second, and that Sophia is your soul mate, hell i even got Sophia's ending by accident the first time, and i must say her solo ending makes me like her a lot more, shows her how much she loves Fayt. i kinda feel bad for Roger, i doubt anyone picks him, he's kinda an under-developed character, he's not exactly loveable or sexy so i guess he is like the major failure of the series, not like something i'd hold against square, i mean he himself is a failure, in a game full of intersting engaging character he just sucks.

but anyway about that wrestling show, i, my dad, brother and his girl went because Chris Sabin was going to be there, along with Zach Gowen and some dude called "Necro Butcher" who my brother rants about a lot, so i figured it was going to be good. but for the most type these ametuers performed to show why they weren't discovered yet. some of the guys were pretty good, but for the most part it sucked. and then there were the fans, these fans were terrible, most of them were WWE sheep, cheering for this one jackass in the audience in a DX shirt. i thought indie fans were supposed to be intelligent and cool, but then that would be assuming that Hot Topic sells shirts for the non-conformist. speaking of people asserting their individuality en masse, there were a lot of girls there, most of them quite unattractive, or disinterested, or old. but there was one good looking girl, of course that to me means she has good style, she had on a moogle t-shirt, and from the little red wing design on the back at first i thought it might be Laharl, along with that she had matching leather choker and wrist bands with big metal rings in them which i thought was sexy, in being i want those for myself now, she herself was pretty attractive, not like i'd ever leave Bev, or that this girl compared to her in any way, but hell i enjoy looking at pretty things, be they a cloudy sky or a nice looking girl, at first my only complain was her lip-ring, it kinda takes her look from stylish punk to emo sheep in one fluent impalement, then who i'd assume is her boyfriend sits down and he has on the baggy goth pants with all the chains and rings, along with soime obscure band hoody and long blode hair, longer than he is able on willing to take care of, in a pny tail, and i think to myself "bad taste in men" i realize hey, thsat blind follower may be a great person, but just judging on hisd sense of style and the people i met who dress like him i can say he's a self righteous noron, the guy who makes fun of and hates "preps" for acting alike and being popular, when he himself dresses and act likes, while also listening to, the same musuc as most anyone else. if anything i'm the the non-conformist, not buy choice, i'd love to be like everyone else, but i'm just not. its funny that people who act different just to be different are the ones that actually are the ones who fit into the crowd.

i talked to my lovber when i got home, she thought my story was funny, i can't wait to take bev with me to wrestling and UFC, i know being with her would make even a show full of bad wrestlers and stupid fans tolerable, because by the third match we'd probably be paying more attention eachother than the show.

visait the beaner, ya know you wanna!


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Fry: Eeeeew, its like a party in my mouth and everyone is throwing up.

i can't wait for new episodes of Futurama, there will be movies too!

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Saturday, February 10, 2007

Too cruel to be Albel.
being as the theme for the last few posts was Star Ocean, why not start this with a little more of it.

I've re-started now, being as i want to see the Albel x Fayt ending, so i'm using the strategy guide so i answer the right questions with the right answers, which are basically the most "assholish" answer, which sadly will make Peppita dislike me, but then again Albel liked me last time, even though i did everything that annoyed him, so i guess it'll just makre Peppita LIKE Fayt instead of LOVE him. and it's kind of fun seeing Fsyt act like Albel, and i realized as far as mannerisms, and espeacially facial expressions Albel reminds me of Axel from Kingdom Hearts [that'd be smexy yaoi, S-M-E-X-Y Got it memorized... FOOL!?] which makes the fact i thought him fire alchemy even cooler, he's a more emo version of Axel. another fun thing to do is looking at the answers you see things so cruel that even Albel will tell you "you're an asshole" for saying it, like when Peppita asks instead of saving your life by seperating you from your parents, would it have been better if she just minded her own bussiness? one answer is "why don't you just mind your own bussiness?" which is like -5 points from Albel, i thought that was pretty funny.

But enough about Albel the wickedly hot, onto my life, and all it's mediocre adventures. in my German class we have to do a themed fashion show, and being as i and my teacher watch Doctor Who, she suggested a Doctor who theme, being as i have a hot blonde all i have to do is tell her to poof out her hair a little and wear a bit of mascara and we have Rose, then the black girl in my group can don a black blazer and white shirt and be Cathica from Satellite 5, and i, being as if i spiked my hair a bit i could look a great deal like the 10th Doctor, and with i couple light purchases i could dress like the 9th, so basically when he regenerated, but noooooooooooooooooooooo, they wanted to be cowboys. i then went with the lazy route and said "lets buy crappy naruto bands from hot topic and be ninjas" well they made so spastic leap from Naruto and ninjas to superheros, so now i'm just going to be Frank Castle, i already had a Punisher shirt and new black pants, and my bro has a large black trench coat, so i just need black boots and i'm set, which is fine Frank Castle is as cool as The Doctor, i mean assault rifle vs. TARDIS, enh, TARDIS wins coolness wise, but the Punisher costume was easier.

well i shipped out my present to my lover, as she has also sent her's to me, though i sent mine first, because i'm awesome like that. i really hope Bev likes all i gave her, cuz i spend a little on it, and every bit of it seemed like a great gift to her, in my mind. you guys will have to pester her what she got from me on valentine's, as i'll tell you what she gave me, assuming its less than X-Rated...
-^_^-

but as far as me x Beaner news, well we're more in love than ever, at least i know i am, i really can't wait till my love is here with me, i was very happy to know we need graphic Designers around here, cuz Bev wants to be one, and the schools here kick ass, its just the job market sucks, BUT the job she wants is in demand, so9 she'll be set! As for me i still am lost and confused drifting endlessly in the void of profession decision space, seemingly doomed to wander forever. but i have my love to wander with me, so its all good. i have her with me, there is nothing that could make me feel better, or make stronger and more able to face the future.

i am getting in better shape i believe, i'm losing weight, but in doing so i'm realizing how skinny i am, being as i still have so jiggle in my ass and chest, yet i'm 150, so i need to put on some muscle mass, or else i'm going to look like a scrawny little tool. course thats where the sit-ups, warrior push-ups, stair climbing, and punching bag come in. i've been slacking off a bit, but i'm getting better and not wasting time now, i've gotten back to writing AP, and working on my body. i busted my hand open last time punched the bag, because i tried to push myself for 20 minutes to keep punching through the pain in my hand, i figured that that wouldn't happen, guess i was wrong huh?

well next time i'll push myself less so my hands don't get jacked up again.

tomorrow i'll run around and do some stuff, right now i got 45 minutes or so to write AP, then i'm passing the fuck out.

tommorrow i'll try to get a little closer to Albel-y shounen ai, for i need it, though no where near as much as i need my lover -^_^-

visit her

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economy ho: how is it that you never see your girlfriend, cuz she's like 22 thousand miles away, but i can't keep a boyfriend for more than two weeks, why do you stay with your goirl but none of my guys stay with me?

Me: because i'm not a terrible person *runs off to piss*

them ho's in econ are fun to deal with

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, February 7, 2007

Don't even go there!
Star Ocean 3 was the shit! don't even be talkin no trash about Albel and Peppita! Yeah, Ryoko disapeared but she really served no purpose anyway, i never missed her, she was just secondary character at best, the only way she'd have been useful would have been as a martyr like hisa dad was used. but yes it woyld have been cooler if Ryoko from Tenchi had been Fayt's mom, but i would have liked Roger better if he had been Roger from Big O, or Lord Laharl, but i don't think that ruins the game. And as far as Fayt and Maria having blue hair, they're basically coordinators, theeir genes were menipulaed, therefore they could have whatever color hair they wanted, i mean hair color would be so easy to change, i mean as far as gene manipulation goes, look at Kira and Cagalli from Gundam SEED, they look nothing alike, and they're twins, or Rei from EVA gene splicing can do a lot more than change hair color, i mean Maria or Sophia can open gateways between dimensions, and Fayt can deconstruct matter like Scar on crack, except he uses his mind, yet you can't comprehend that his hair is blue? the whole destroying massive amounts of matter using his mind is easier to create than changing hair color, we can almost, if not already change hair color now, but we sure as hell can't make it so you can deconstruct matter with your mind.

Another thing i noticed, Albel Nox lives in medeval times, in a game made by Square Enix, and he has an AUTO-MAIL!
what the hell!? what is up with Square and giving people who live in olden times bionic limbs?

and there is the fact that Square loves their yaoi to, though i guess that explains loveless as well.

but dam is Albel sexy!

i though he was like the hottest chick ever, until i heard his voice [Crispin Freeman] and i was like "Togussa?" yeah, that was before i was a fanboy, but at that point i just wanted to be him. i guess showing Albel proves what sempai was saying about Square makig androgonous characters. actually seeing Albel's comstume i see he wears theigh high boots, that makes me want to make his costume for myself, after i work my body out, i don't have the torso for Albel's halter, and i also want to get my ass hard and sexy before i don Mr. Nox's loin cloth.
Another strange thing i notice about Albel is that people like to draw him with his left arm being flesh, like that metal is just armor, no its his whole arm! which is kinda funny being as shops sell new weapons for Albel, which essentailly means you can buy new arms for him, yet they are made through blacksmithing, which means its about as hard to makle a full functioning mechanical arm as it is to make brass knuckles for Cliff, i bet that would make Winrey Rockbell feel good huh?
another fun thing i did with Albel was i tought him attack symbology, which involves shooting fireballs, so i've made a combination of Roy Mustang and Edward Elric. i think Albel could take Ed in a fight.

but on to the plot of the game, that's really what i liked, to me it had the bestv story line of any game, it seemed pretty linear and mediocre, until the Enforcers start showing up, oh yeah! After fayt leaves Elicor and comes back when his dad dies [and in my case Albel comes back] that was great! And what he reason he gives for coming along is so great! i don't remember the exact words, but i think its something like "to fight and kill people all across the universe." yeah that was great! And once you actually meet Peppita again [my favorite character, please make me some Peppita x Albel fanart] and Luther starts taking out whole worlds, easpecially after you go to 4D and find out HOW he does it, oh it was so great! please people, if i could buy you all a copy and a PS2 i would, i recommend the game more than anything else for the PS2, its a LONG game but its worth it, and the ending is so great, that final battle with Luther and the philosophies flying back in forth during those cut scenes, priceless.

and i got the Sophia and Peppita endings, i must say that Sophia's solo ending made me wanna cry, and Peppita's couple ending is so cute, it really was an "AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW" moment for me. And Albel, well he challenges Satan to a fight, he kicks ass!

what else went on in my life, well got two days off school, slept, put more anime pics on my wall, now i got homework, so i might not be able to visit, sorry all.

i'm a bit behind on V. Day presents, so Bev will get one late one, sorry babe.

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Albel: Its not the great who are strong... ITS THE STRONG WHO ARE GREAT! MUHAHAHAHA!

[thats his usual end-battle quote]

visit my love.


HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Monday, February 5, 2007

Misunderstood.
okay, i was not saying Shining tears was "bad", i actually liked the strange gaps in the story, its one of those things you can poke fun at when the game pisses you off. besides, since nobody likes the game you can get it for uber-cheap, heel the guys at EB may actually pay you to take it off their hands, and the game is pretty fast, which does sorta contribute to the sometimes lack-luster plot, being as its not an 80-hour RPG they can;'t quite put the Gravitas on events like they did in Star Ocean 3 or Tales of Symphonia, but once again i'm saying you should try playing it, the characters themselves are really good, their interactions with eachother and such are pretty good, plus the character designs are really good, i suppose i'd equate it to Animes like Ikki Tousen and Elfen Lied, it is mostly mediocre, with redeeming qualities that make it worth while in the end, so if you have like $10 laying around and a free like 30 hours to devote to the game i say go for it, if not i understand, i just want people i can talk about the game with.

but in any case, when i was writing my last post about all Square Enix has done, i wonder why there is no Full Metal Alchemist in Kingdom Hearts. wouldn't it be awesome to be able to have Sora summon Roy Mustang? or have a final boss battle with Dante? get a keyblade based off of Edwards lance he always makes. thinking about that i'm just sad that even if they did do that, i doubt Kimblee would be an enemy, or, my dream come true, an allie that you can put in your party. well actually, fuck Kimblee [i wanna see some hentai fanart involving him] what i really want is to have Kairi and Riku as constant choices for party members in Kingdom Hearts 3. then again based off the teaser trailer Sora and company might not even be in the damn game, of course last time the big secret was Roxas! wow was that little Jesse Macartney voiced kid a bit of a letdown, don't get me wrong, Roxas' story was way better than Sora's up until the end, and that was just because Riku and Kairi showed back up, and that made it all worth while. another nice concept might be to let you control the other two party members, of course i'd only care about that if Riku and Kairi were playable characters, they'd fit right in, make Kairi a magic user, and Riku could take Goofy's spot, except have him focus on all attack, after all fighting him in KH 1 i realized he hits really hard [to my chagrin, i died like 30 times because of him] but he really can't take a punch, and if you do get to control Riku he better be able to do his sonic blade whoosh like he did in KH 1 and CoM, if any of you guys agree with me we should go and bitch to Square, they say they'll listen to overwhelming fan requests, i used to want to complain and get them to put out FF VII again for the PS3, but now, being as the PS3 is a piece of shit i want it on the 360. i've rallied for a call to arms before and got no support, but i'll try again, if you agree with me rant to squre, if not, if you just don't want to, figured i'd try.

i had no school today becaudse it was too cold, so i'm updating pretty early, there's something cool on TV, so i'm going back upstairs, i'm going to come back down and finish this later

sorry for you guys that get this early, you can come back at like 1:30 central to get the rest, i'll make it easy

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the rest...

okay then, yeah anyway i got to sleep in today, because with windchill its -25 out, so that really helped, being as i have a cold i'm trying to beat, and because Bev watched some scary shows and kept me up a little last night, she tried really hard and let me have a lot more sleep, but still i enjoyed the extra sleep.

i hope to make the best of today, i need some more pants, and sinces its close to Valentines i need to finish Bev's presents, and pick up the now abundant love-themed boxers.

i need to write some of AP too. so yeah, busy, busy.

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Mao: Its like a castle, and its totally like walking towards us!

Elwyn: What the hell are you talking about- Holy crap! it is a walking castle!

i love the dialogue in Shining Tears.

visit my Beverly-Lover!


HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Sunday, February 4, 2007

posting again
well lets see what crazy things JD can post about today... i'm a bit distracted by the fact my lover is on the phone right now, which kinda points out the fact that Bev could REALLY "distract" me, but then again that is of in the distant future, and in mean time i really have to focus on today, or else i'll go crazy with anticipation [like its not driving me crazy already] so let's see what is going on in the mean time.

lets see, well i'm still playing Shining Tears, and noticing the reasons why X-Play gave it a 1. the story for the most part is retarded, i did play it all the way through, thinking it would get better, but it didn't. some of the stuff is really stupid, like Mao meeting her father, she literally makes almost none to no mention about hating him, or him even existing, until she meets him, then she tries to kill him, then launching into this huge long back-story, then she realizes that he loved her for some wierd reason, then her hair turns blonde for a level, and she goes from dark soul to light soul, and her attacks change a little, so yeah, that was lame. and being as i got sick of it on the last level and stopped playing for monthes, then started back up and beat the ending was kinda anticlimactic. but the ending with Mao being pretty flirty and hinting at adult content was pretty cool, and worth it. i suggest that if you have a PS2 that you pick up Star Ocean: Till the end of time, Disgaea: hour of darkness, and Shining Tears, in that order. RPGs are really all i play, so i know what i'm talking about when it comes to them.

but i don't feel like ranting about stuff, besides if i recommended a game would you guys really buy it anyway?

i guess i caould just talk about Bev, being as there is really nothing else for me to talk about, and because her squeaky beaner voice is going directly into my brain, and i kinda made her sad for a while, but she's happy again now, which is good, and now she is sad again... because i told her i get jealous of all the other couples on here, and at my school, because no one ever gets to see her, at school i see all these kids, madly in lust in the halls trying to eat eachothers faces, and i wish me and my lover could do that, except i know that next week me and Bev will still be together, unlike those two horny fools, or the fact that i hear people gossip about this couple or that one, how cute he is, how lucky she is to be with him, or when i guy mentions a girl he is going out with that others know they go "awwww, you're so lucky to be with her." or i even get jealous on here, mostly of Lytjuh and Silver-sama, they are so cute together, and everyone that knows one usually know the other one, so people have really detailed info and comments about them, but Bev doesn't really like being on here that much... the just posts for me... so yeah, i made her feel better, and she is sleeping happily now, so i feel a lot better. i hurt her over my vanity, i just want to be the prom King, i want people to think me and bev are so cute, and i want to be praised some times, i realize people already do, i guess i want deeper insight or something. she got scared that i'd leave her over this, but i told her, as i tell you now that that would never happen, i would never break up with her, let alone over my own foolish pride, i'll get over it. i just can't wait for her to be here, hopefully i can get her to visit to take me to prom, i'll definatly go to her's, i don't know, i guess i'm just desperate to do couple things, i don't know if i'm right or justified or anything like that, i just know that sometimes i get a wild thought across my head, and i need something i can't have.

i guess i am stuck on the future, because really all i ever talk about is RPGs, anime, Bev, or other wierd rants, and being as no one places the same games as me, and i have no anime to talk about, it was all Bev really this time.

if you guys do want me to write more about video games i will, it just seems like i bore you guys with it.

i plan to talk to bev before i go to sleep, so we can both be all lovey dovey and warm and fuzzy when we go to sleep, which is really all i care about, our relationship making us both happy. at the end of the day that's all that's important.

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Me: I wonder if i end Star Ocean with Albel being my soul mate if i'd get a shounen ai scene?

Josh: [friend, not brother] What do you mean?

Me: Square Enix made Star Ocean: Sqaure is behind Final Fantasy, Full Meatl Alchemist, and kingdom Hearts, all hotbeds of homo-erotcism, plus they made Loveless, which was straight up yaoi, so i want to see Albel x Fayt!

Josh: are you gay or something?

Me: i just want to here Crispin Freeman as Albel say some yaoi dialogue.

Josh: Gay Hideki?

Me: Yep.

visit my lover now, if you can


HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Saturday, February 3, 2007

massive brain failure.
yeah, there is nothing on the ole boob tube, and being as my Love has kept me up all night lately my lack of sleep is catching up with me, so i'm updating early, i just have to type this and wait for midnight to put it up, then i can pass out into a nice happy sleep and get all rested up.

but lets get on with the post, i still haven't gotten my Gundam SEED Destiny DVD, at first it was because the place i bought it from cancelled my order due to my purchase of other things, thinking that i was going to switch and pay for the new stuff instead of my DVDs, and being as that was my mom's fault i told her to fix it, well she bought the wrong on, and that one is back ordered, so i guess it will be a while before i get it, apperently the Destiny T-Shirts are of inferior quality, so the guy sorta is making it hard for me to get the deluxe one with the shirt, but thats all fine and good, eventually i'll see the next episodes, i suppose if my computer wasn't messed up and it easily paid youtube, or if i wanted to watch subs i could watch all the destiny i wanted for free whenever i wanted, but i'd rather wait for the dubs, the good ole dubs with Hiene sounding 38 and Shinn sounding like an idiot. i'm just psyched to see more kira kicking ass in the Freedom, i wanna see how Shinn beats him, so i can bitch about it.

yesterday i beat Shining Tears, and i must say the ending cut scene was really cute, Mao getting all peverted, and Xion being all shy and trying to avoid admitting he liked/wanted to do Mao. i must say that from some of the scenes i can see how X-Play gave it a 1, but at other times it was pretty good, okay the end was really the only good part, but still thay one scene made it worth it, plus it is a fun game, i just wish it wasn't so terrible and unpopular so i could get cheats off the interweb, because the item synthsis is kinda annoying, being as i have no idea what i can create and how. but i suppose it's my own fault for buying and playing it. i did enjoy how Ewlyn's attacks allowed you to attack opponents with bubbly pink hearts or kissy-fairies, that make enemies love-struck and attack eachother, i wish you could put that condition into weapons, like poison or paralysis, but once again i'm just bitching. i did like on of the ending scenes is Mao in a french-maid outfit, because i guess big-boobed-dumb-neko-ninja-girl isn't enough of a fetish, we need a french maid outfit too. or mao winking and saying she's glad to be living under one roof with him, now they just have to be alone a while, i must say that level of flirting is refereshing in RPGs. but don't get me wrong, its not the best RPG ever, no i'd say that would either be Star Ocean TTEOT or Tales of Symphonia, Star Ocean had the best story, but ToS had amazing character developement, i only wish it was easier to make a character hate you, i want Genis to hate me, and to make Zelos and Llyod better friends. it'd also be nice to set up other couples, if i could have started a Zelos x Colette sub-plot, mmm-mmmm-mmm that would be fun, oh the things he could do to her poor pure and innocent mind... also case specific things would be nice, like Sheena thanking you for saving Kunoichi, or if you let him die, fdor you talk about it when they are all alone together, plus that last scene sucks, they just put your soul mate in there to take up space, it'd be nice to have a cute little ending scene, or a ending picture, like couple's art, but i'm sure i'm just reciting a bunch of normal fanboy rants, so i'll stop.

in Econ this group of chicks were hitting on me, i think it may have been them mocking me, but either way i put no stock in it, i spoke my mind and freaked them the hell out a few times, and i think i actually touched them with my devoted cuteness. they asked things like "how can you love a person you can't fuck?" i told them i care more about the emotion parts than the physical, the one who may or may not have liked me [they said she did, but like that can be trusted] asked if i'd ever seen a vagina before, i said "in real life or in a sexual situation, no, in fact i've never really gotten a good view, its not like i've never seen one, just not well." so the one asked "what if i got naked and spread my legs so you could see mine?" i said it'd stare curiously, but thats all, it wouldn't excite me because the only person i want is Bev. so they asked what if i'd do the one who liked me, i said that i'm devoted to Bev, i won't cheat on her, so they asked what if all 4 of them got naked and played with me at once, and i said no, cuz that'd be like quadupal cheating, they said she'd never know, so it didn't count, i told them i'd know, and that knowing i betrayed her would hurt me very deeply.
so about after that i either destroyed their dreams, or bored them with my answers, so they gave me this "wish you the best of luck" thing and went on with their lives, so i asked Gillis if they were fucking with me or not, he said they do it to him all the time, they're not being mean, just teasing, he told me just be happy that i have someone, then motioned for a knuckle-bump, so i obligued.

Gillis broke up with his GF, or she broke up with him after hje went way out of his way to visit her and stay by her side when she had to have an emergency appendixectomy, and even now he helps her carry her books, Gillis is a great guy, on the last day of school freshman year he ran alkl around the school to find me toilet paper cuz they put it all away and i had to poo, he's a great guy.

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Chelsey: [the only one of those girls i knoew, so i imagine she is the one who said this] what if she [Bev] is like fat and ugly?

Me: i'd be more sad she lied to me, and told me that she was a different person, being as i have pics of her and she looks so hot, i'd just be sad she lied to me, if she sent me pictures of herself and she did look bad, i'd still love her, and i trust that all she's told me is true.

visit my beaner


and read AP like the wonderful people in the intro.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Friday, February 2, 2007

massive brain failure.
yeah, there is nothing on the ole boob tube, and being as my Love has kept me up all night lately my lack of sleep is catching up with me, so i'm updating early, i just have to type this and wait for midnight to put it up, then i can pass out into a nice happy sleep and get all rested up.

but lets get on with the post, i still haven't gotten my Gundam SEED Destiny DVD, at first it was because the place i bought it from cancelled my order due to my purchase of other things, thinking that i was going to switch and pay for the new stuff instead of my DVDs, and being as that was my mom's fault i told her to fix it, well she bought the wrong on, and that one is back ordered, so i guess it will be a while before i get it, apperently the Destiny T-Shirts are of inferior quality, so the guy sorta is making it hard for me to get the deluxe one with the shirt, but thats all fine and good, eventually i'll see the next episodes, i suppose if my computer wasn't messed up and it easily paid youtube, or if i wanted to watch subs i could watch all the destiny i wanted for free whenever i wanted, but i'd rather wait for the dubs, the good ole dubs with Hiene sounding 38 and Shinn sounding like an idiot. i'm just psyched to see more kira kicking ass in the Freedom, i wanna see how Shinn beats him, so i can bitch about it.

yesterday i beat Shining Tears, and i must say the ending cut scene was really cute, Mao getting all peverted, and Xion being all shy and trying to avoid admitting he liked/wanted to do Mao. i must say that from some of the scenes i can see how X-Play gave it a 1, but at other times it was pretty good, okay the end was really the only good part, but still thay one scene made it worth it, plus it is a fun game, i just wish it wasn't so terrible and unpopular so i could get cheats off the interweb, because the item synthsis is kinda annoying, being as i have no idea what i can create and how. but i suppose it's my own fault for buying and playing it. i did enjoy how Ewlyn's attacks allowed you to attack opponents with bubbly pink hearts or kissy-fairies, that make enemies love-struck and attack eachother, i wish you could put that condition into weapons, like poison or paralysis, but once again i'm just bitching. i did like on of the ending scenes is Mao in a french-maid outfit, because i guess big-boobed-dumb-neko-ninja-girl isn't enough of a fetish, we need a french maid outfit too. or mao winking and saying she's glad to be living under one roof with him, now they just have to be alone a while, i must say that level of flirting is refereshing in RPGs. but don't get me wrong, its not the best RPG ever, no i'd say that would either be Star Ocean TTEOT or Tales of Symphonia, Star Ocean had the best story, but ToS had amazing character developement, i only wish it was easier to make a character hate you, i want Genis to hate me, and to make Zelos and Llyod better friends. it'd also be nice to set up other couples, if i could have started a Zelos x Colette sub-plot, mmm-mmmm-mmm that would be fun, oh the things he could do to her poor pure and innocent mind... also case specific things would be nice, like Sheena thanking you for saving Kunoichi, or if you let him die, fdor you talk about it when they are all alone together, plus that last scene sucks, they just put your soul mate in there to take up space, it'd be nice to have a cute little ending scene, or a ending picture, like couple's art, but i'm sure i'm just reciting a bunch of normal fanboy rants, so i'll stop.

in Econ this group of chicks were hitting on me, i think it may have been them mocking me, but either way i put no stock in it, i spoke my mind and freaked them the hell out a few times, and i think i actually touched them with my devoted cuteness. they asked things like "how can you love a person you can't fuck?" i told them i care more about the emotion parts than the physical, the one who may or may not have liked me [they said she did, but like that can be trusted] asked if i'd ever seen a vagina before, i said "in real life or in a sexual situation, no, in fact i've never really gotten a good view, its not like i've never seen one, just not well." so the one asked "what if i got naked and spread my legs so you could see mine?" i said it'd stare curiously, but thats all, it wouldn't excite me because the only person i want is Bev. so they asked what if i'd do the one who liked me, i said that i'm devoted to Bev, i won't cheat on her, so they asked what if all 4 of them got naked and played with me at once, and i said no, cuz that'd be like quadupal cheating, they said she'd never know, so it didn't count, i told them i'd know, and that knowing i betrayed her would hurt me very deeply.
so about after that i either destroyed their dreams, or bored them with my answers, so they gave me this "wish you the best of luck" thing and went on with their lives, so i asked Gillis if they were fucking with me or not, he said they do it to him all the time, they're not being mean, just teasing, he told me just be happy that i have someone, then motioned for a knuckle-bump, so i obligued.

Gillis broke up with his GF, or she broke up with him after hje went way out of his way to visit her and stay by her side when she had to have an emergency appendixectomy, and even now he helps her carry her books, Gillis is a great guy, on the last day of school freshman year he ran alkl around the school to find me toilet paper cuz they put it all away and i had to poo, he's a great guy.

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Chelsey: [the only one of those girls i knoew, so i imagine she is the one who said this] what if she [Bev] is like fat and ugly?

Me: i'd be more sad she lied to me, and told me that she was a different person, being as i have pics of her and she looks so hot, i'd just be sad she lied to me, if she sent me pictures of herself and she did look bad, i'd still love her, and i trust that all she's told me is true.

visit my beaner


and read AP like the wonderful people in the intro.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Less purpose than before.
yeah, once again i'm posting, basically because i like to talk, and you guys listen [read] so hell, i feel as if it's a good investment to update all the time, if i could i'd do it more often, but it seems as if i do it as much as i can with the schedule i keep.
today i'm pretty busy so i may not be able to visit you guys today, i've got book work from forensics i gotta do, come to think of it i have German work as well, ay! oh well, not much i can do about it now is there? but its not as if i'm having a jolly ole time, i want to write more of AP, but i'll visit you guys before i write any of AP, being as its the more respouncible of the two things to do, and i do want more comments, though it seems pretty random how many i get, wether i visit people or not i get about the same amount, which to me seems small, but i am moving up the ranking in Otaku so i guess i'm getting a lot, just doesn't seem like it compared to people like Magnus-Sama, though i'm sure if i bothered to look Magnus is probably far above me in the ranks, so i suppose that if i could get up there, it'd intale getting more visits, maybe i just need to become more prolific and go around the site more, leaving tons of comments, but that would cut into my writing time, which isn't good.

guess that may be my problem, that i'm trying to be a jack of all trades, i want too much, to be successful at too much, but i really want to have more visitors, plus i always do good in school, i have an uber-successful realationship, i'm a huge gamer, a major Otaku, and i love drawing. maybe i just try to do too much, or maybe i just use time ineffectivly, but i think i'd do a lot better at this stuff if i had more time.
but alas, i probably have more time than a lot of you guys out there, and you guys do more with your time, so what the hell am i complaining about? i should just go about doing what i want, and maybe focus on one thing that i really want to do more, hell if i had a lap-top or my dad's computer worked i'd write AP there all the time over there, but i can't so i end up playing a lot of video games over there, and if i could do the things i liked no matter where i was i could get more exercise too, i suppose that in the future, when its just me and my beaner i will be a lot more free to do my will at most times, but then again i'd really like to spend time with Bev, so i have a feeling i'll have less time. but thats all in the future, and i should probably stop answering all of my questions about how to improve my life is "Bev will do it."

As for Bev, she kept me up all last night again, which is a bit annoying, but i love her, and because of it she loves me more, that i can sacrifice for her so much, so i guess if all i have to do is get dark circles under my eyes to make my lover that much happier and to make her fall that much deeper for me its definatly worth it. But still i'd like to sleep eventually, it does kind of help, but hey dreams don't always come true, i'll keep trying to sleep, but i don't know how successful i'll be.

School is getting easier, i'm used to having these teachers, and now i've realized that it isn't that hard. i've given up on having Lezak as a teacher, and gotten used to the flaming hippy i have now, as am i getting re-used to Weiss, she may be really annoying and bitchy, but she does have a sick sense of humor as i do so i can get away with my evil deeds in my writing and creativity around her, case in point doing my speach on bras, i've actually learned quite a lot, and its not as sexy as you think, though i must admit a few times i've gotten pretty psyched reading stuff, as many other times you just go "ewwwwww."

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Me: [talking to Kitty and Stacy] see look, Kimblee's symbols, this girl had a Full Metal Alchemist messanger bag and she didn't recognize them.

Stacy:Who was Kimblee again?

Me: how do you not know...

Kitty: he was they guy who blew people up...

Stacy: i watched FMA many times through and i loved it but i don't even remember him that well...

Me: Why does no one remember Kimblee?

visit Bev, i hope to visit you.


HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Monday, January 29, 2007

JD plus boredom equals explosions.
yeah, i really had nothing to do in Econ class, so i took out a black gel pen and drew Kimblee's transumatation circles on my palms, then the rest of the day consisted of me imagining blowing random things up. my friend Gillis kept trying to poke everyone in outr group, i saw him going for me and caught his wrist, yeah, if those damn symbols worked for real i'd be bad-ass. we needed a name for our group in econ, i suggested "the Zolf J.Kimblee investment company, EXPLOSIVELY good deals! what is our chief resource? Sulfur." no one got that one, not even a girl with a Full Metal Alchemist messanger bag, yeah, that sure makes me feel well adjusted and normal. i think we will end up with "the Edmound Fitzgerald fund, invest with use and you will be drowning in new money." equal in obscure fanboyness was one i came up with after leaving the class, "Dalek investments, we EX-TER-MIN-ATE your debt!" but once again i think i'd be alone in enjoying that little pun, so i think the sinking ship is pronbably going to be our group idea, personally i see that as being the easiest joke, so i can't really take pride in it, i feel like i may as well call it "GIT-R-DONE corp." but i guess that's my own outlook on things, i'll just have to live with what ends up chosen, i seem to take a lot of pride in creative things, i'm going to have to learn how to submit a little when it comes to the free-lance work.

in Weiss' class i'm working on a speach about the history of brassieres, and i must say that it is very interesting work, many a new sillt fact i can spill out, like about bra sizings and the many draw backs of the ole bra. i'm definatly going to talk to bev about this stuff, because she is my girlfriend, she has a large chest, and she listens to my meaningless babble. once i've completed it, or if i have a ton of free time i'll write more about it, that is if you want to hear it, my Peoplezez.

As far as how my life is going? well i'm tired as hell, last night my dad had the brilliant idea to watch Worlds Worst Entertainers [WWE] Wrestling, so me and my brother sat around and mocked its stupidity, though i guess we are the stupid ones, being as we bought it. but thaqt meant i was going to sleep late, and i slept less cuz my lover called, and because my body knows if i have no time for REM sleep, so i just take a series of naps, i took a nap in Astronomy too, being as the teacher leaves us to study a lot, and i basically know only what he said, and i remeber most of it okay, i'll probably study more tomorrow, being as it is the last day in the planetarium before we take a test. but yeah, i've gotta get some sleep tonight, and i know Bev would let me if i really asked, but i'm never tired while i talk to her, and its hard for me to let her go at night.

job-wise, slipping further from the front of my mind, i think its a self preservation reflex, if i worry to much i'll snap and get the urge to listen to A7X, and that is SO not me! i know i gotta figure some of this shit out, but at this point i'm to lost to try to find a future, i'll sign up from drama next year, and if i feel like i can pull this acting thing off, well then i'll try to become VA, if that plan falls through, i'll see how hard it'd be to start an import store, and if niether those impossible dreams come true, i'll find something tolerable to do. -^_^-

besides, i have Bev, and its a billion times better to hate your job and be happy to come home than to weep and lament when your hours are up, and take over-ytime just so you don't have to come home to a home you feel pain to be in. i've got one huge thing going for me, now i just have to see what else i can do to better my life.

so yeah, no mopey JD today.

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Guy: So what should i do, i need to make money off my investments?

Dalek: CON-SOLI-DATE!!!

Guy: but if that company goes under then what do i do. besides, you're a talking trash can, why should i listen to you?

Dalek: DAL-IKS are the SU-PER-IOR SPE-CIES in IN-VEST-TING! Try making your ECO-NOM-IC RE-SOURC-SES last the span of time!

Guy: *nervous* o-Okay then...

yeah, i'm insane, this is what my mind craps out.

visit Bev, its fun!


HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!
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