Friday, December 29, 2006

no love.
well it looks like my little rant alienated a lot of people, but then again i could have just been a slow day, who knows?

but in any case time for more of my very cruel, politically incorrect and pretty much completly assholeish rants.

see, unlike mister "people call me anal boy so i'm going to hang myself from a loose piece of bathroom furtiture with a soft piece of cloth." or "my e-crush turned me down, so i'm going to blow my fat WoW obessed brains out with a 30.6." i'm taking respouncibility, if i get hated for what i say, well then keep on hating, cuz i'm going to keep running my evil will about via my little blog here.

see people just have no sense of personal or parental respouncibility anymore. everyone expects someone else to save them from all their problems and their own mistakes. like look at fat people, for instance, you get all these morbidly obese people complaining that people discriminate against them because they are tremendous piles of girth. you get these lard filled orators saying that we need "fat acceptance" and that you should "love yourself".

okay first off, if you are that over weight, it may be physically impossible to love yourself [horrible mental pictures] but more over, yes you should love yourself, but not tolerate your obvious and workable problems. look, i think i could stand to lose a few pounds, so i've started going down the healthier path, i eat sushi and drink green tea for lunch, i've gone from 2-5 cans of coke a day to none, in fact for a while i suffered from a terribly weak stomach, and i only now realize it was because my body was trying to reject that liquid toxin. and on top of my better eating i'm trying to work out and exercise more, because i realize that loving yourself does not mean giving yourself a freebie on all your problems. people shove fat down their gullets until they cause tremors when they walk, then call me prejugdice for staring at them. i'm sorry shamu, but 587 pounds choking down whole cows and hawking up their complete skeleton in one piece does not constitute a genetic disorder or a glanduler problem, its your weak mind allowing you to slip further and further into obesity. so these lard-asses try to make the world comfortable for themselves. like now schools are eliminating competitive sports because the little rotundos can't keep up, and that makes them sad! look, once again, i'm not exactly a decaelete myself, but the difference is that i see my physical condition as MY problem, not the world's! i don't think the A in the mile should be dropped to 16 minutes cuz i slacked off on my cardio, or that touching your toes should be extra credit, because despite my slim waist i'm as limber as a brick as far as toe touching. see that i have to work my ass off to reach a level at which i am successful, i shouldn't try to drag down the standards to the point at which i can succeed.

and then there are the weak minded ones. now there is no red ink because its such a "violent" color, it hurts the children, it makes them feel like "failures".
well i'm sorry to tell you dip-shit, but if you oft fail, well then that msakes you a FAILURE! i have the common sense to figure that out, if i fail at something, i tell myself that i failed, i'm a failure, that is unacceptable, and that i have to do better. i'm not talking about acing everything, but there is no excuse for failing repeatedly at the same thing, at least be average at everything, shoot for average in your failures, if i can get to like a 10 minute miles i'm good, and i've got a while at least to pull it off, i need to get better, thats all there is to it. people need to see that they have faults, and that other people can't be blamed for their faults.

and then we have the parents that ruin everything because their child is a fat moron. like there are no electronics in school because of theft. some kid brings his Zune [fuck it he's a moron, he has an iPod] he brings his iPod to school, and it gets stolen, so what do their parents do? file a police report, teach their kid about respounibility, teach them self-defense, beat their ass? hell no, they sue the school for not protecting their kid's stuff. its not his respouncibilty, its not their respounibility, its YOUR respouncibilty. all of society is respouncible for one moron. or some fat piece of crap can't duck during dodge-ball, so he gets pegged in the head, so no more dodge-ball. some kid blowes his brains out because he got called names, so now calling a straight E student with 0 initative stupid is a expulsion offense. we are babying people, trying to extend that infantary bubble of complete protection while suckling on mommies bosom until they're 19.
"no one can insult me because i'm poorly adjusted, so thats your problem, here let me be an annoying unbalanced shit, but remember, you can't ever tell me about my faults!" my god is the future getting bleak.
i hate cowards, i hate these people like that shrew-chold from last year that do tons of unconfrentational things like theft or pouring sawdust on my head, no thats fine, but if i were to do something like, i don't know, lay him the fuck out with a swift right hook, left jab combo, now thats unacceptable. i realize that kick who hit me had all the right in the world to, wish had given me warning or hit my harder so i could have fought back, but hell i'm willing to die by this sword.

well that was day two of my rant, hopefully better recieved, but hell if it wasn't thats perfectly fine.

-quote-

Me: [while watching ONLINE NIGHTMARES] You pathetic little fuck, you deserve to die.

narrator: ...he then took a bathrobe tie and hung himself from the shower curtain rod.

Me: Natural selection.

visit Bev



HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Thursday, December 28, 2006

iPoor
yep, thats what i call my barebones MP3 player damn you sansa 240! i want a Zune!!!!!!

well in any case based off my cooments it seems my lover got on after i had gotten off, and was quite sad to see i was not on, which hurts me, but apperently from talking to her today it didn't wound her too deeply abouit it, otherwise she would have whined to me, i like that about her, she whines when something is wrong, she doesn't bottle it up. she's like a doggy, if a dog has to piss, they cry, cats just go inbetween the couch cushions, then we find out and get pissed at them. dogs tell you there is a problem so you can solve it, thats why i like Bev, she is like a doggy in all the right ways, thats why i affectionatly call her my bitch.

but on to a good source of ranting, the fact that the whole US is getting taken over by special interest groups, and that our children are being raised to be a bunch of valueless stupid shits with no sense of repouncibility.

see i was watching this thing on E! THS "ONLINE NIGHTMARES!" and some kid got called gay over the net, a couple kids got to calling him "anal boy," and some tramp he had a crush on over the interweb, who he went on an e-date with turned him down in real life, so this worthless shit killed himself, he tied a bathrobe sash into a noose and hung himself from a shower curtain rod. okay, this misguided piece of crap was 13, and i don't know my exact weight 4 years ago, but i know i sure as hell wasn't light enough for a shower curtain rod to support me, i'm suprised the rod didn't fall out and the poor little emo would've just fallen on his [much gossipped about] ass. so his parents try to make all forms of negetive speech considered illeagal, and they were outraged that sites on the web show how to tie nooses! GASP! well did they ever think people needed to make props? or maybe lynch outlaws? so because their kid was weakminded and pathetic they want to take away my freedom of speech. look, as mean as it sounds, some people just deserve to die. if a couple of people calling you gay and some wierd bitch turning you down makes you wanna die, i for one am not going stop you. see i always analyze [wow thats a pun if i ever saw one] everything, and it helps me avert any pain brought by bullying. first, who are these shits to be obsessed with your rectum, dead weakling? if they like to talk about your ass so much, possibly they are the fruits... and the ho-bag that turned hoim down? well she dated him online, but said she was too good for him offline. look, if this chick draws boundries like that, she is out of her mind and will a very miserable life, she is mentally unbalanced, and poissibly sadistic or a user, she is not worth dying over. but this little punk let it get to him and he died, sorry parents, but thats how it goes.
some other girl was all distraught because a bunch of catty bitches set up a hate shrine to her on myspace. she's all "WHY DO THESE PEOPLE HATE ME!!!!!!!!!!? WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!"
once again, may JD enter his expert advice. in this situation i'd log onto the shrine every day and tell them how psyched i am to have my own shrine! look at all these people! i'm so famous! so popular!
look you spineless half-wits, no publicity is bad publicity, hate and love are twin siblings, look at the best in everything.

and this shit goes on [Shit goes on moeagaru
inochi ga aru kagiri
shinjitsu no jibun sae miushinaisou soredemo...] some little fuck devoted his whole life to world of Warcraft, he left his job, locked himself in a room, abandonned all his friends, when off line he haluncinated he was his WoW charecter, and eventually he blew his brains out cuz once again, gamer girl turned him down. once again, some people jusy aren't meant to be alive, if he could that easily loose all sense of reality and drift down a road to suicide like that, well it was his destiny. some other girl faked being all happy and bubbly, till she poisened herself in a motel room, so they blame the chat room full of suicidal people she talked to.

people and parents have no concept of its mine or my child's fault, so they world is going to hell.

this is going long so i'll countinue tommorrow.

i'll wrap it up with two statements.

Me and bev will NEVER make these mistakes, we will raise our kids with a sense of respouncibility and understanding your flaws and mistakes, not this, "its everyone else in the world's fault" bullshit.

as my brother says while watching "i shouldn't be alive"

Josh: no,no you shouldn't be, you're a moron and you need to die.

-Quote-

Bev: what is a jumbo shrimp?

Me: a big shrimp.

Bev: but all shrimp are small, i mean the name means small.

me: yes, but they are big for a shrimp.

Bev: but how is that possible?

me: it's like being the world's tallest midget.

Bev: i'm so confused!

this was a request from my beloved beaner herself

her link is below.



HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

1 day after...
...jyuu nengo no
anata wo mitsumete mitai...

i think 1 person besides me got that joke, if you did then good for you, you watched an obscure anime as i did. i did put that song on my MP3 player, the one i referenced for the joke no one got.

but in any case i'm now updating, again. for right now i will give you an update on Christmas crap. see my father had decided to purchase me "the best headphones" which were these massive DJ phones, one they look rediculous, two they felt like my head was being crushed. my brother goes, "oh those are coming back in style." i'm thinking "bro, if you like style so much why didn't uyou get me an iPod." that is why no iPod, i need something to pawn to get a Zune. i'm not tied to the Apple DRM, and as we speak Micrsoft is working to break it, so the Zune may not be the joke it is now, and being as i don't have iTunes, nor do i want to buy my music from there, so a Zune is great for me. but i doubt i'll be getting one being as it as much as a gaming console $250... damn, i better hope my little toy of a player has a shuffle feature.

well i've figured that RightStuf isn't going to send me cash, they will be giving me "store" credit, now i know i'm going to get Gundam SEED Destiny 6 [special edition] but i don't know what else i'll get, i have nothing else to complete, so i'd just end up having to start a new series, which i guess isn't that bad, it'll get my ass in gear so that i get another series going.

i still have to figure out what's up with naruto "uncut" how uncut is it? i must find out! i must also see how much its worth, i feel bad for wanting to ditch it, cuz i might want it back, but i'm not sure yet, i need to do some financing, and to decide what i will purchase, damn the economics of the holiday season!

and then there is trying to purchase Gundams, i was really hoping for more of them, and being as most of my returns seem to be "store credit" and none of these stores sell Gundams, so appear to be functionally fucked.

i think i will pawn Naruto, i just don't feel like owning him right now, i mean if he were no longer on TV, yes i'd be on RightStuf ordering the Digital versitile Discs, but right now, with CN providing me with eps each week, i'm set, right now i care more about getting some of the cooler and more rare MS than everyones favorite ninja.

lets see, in todays news as far as my love life is going, well me and Bev taled a lot in the afternoon, but she had to leave to go shopping during our normal talking time, and she did not call when she got back, cuz i guess she could not, instead she got online, and i was upstairs watching a show that is only available on extended digital cable, that i only have upstairs, away from the comp. so Bev e-Mailed me, and i checked it out about 10 minutes later, which is right when a time limit on her comp kicks in and she gets knocked off, so it seems i cheated myself out of talking to me lover, but oh well, she is always in my heart, and just thinking about her makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside, i only hope she is happy as i am right now.

well i'm going to go around the net and do some research, so you guys get a partial reprieve.
use this time to visit Bev if you haven't already, she last updated on Christmas.

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Josh: of course i didn't shop off your list i never do! but the stuff i get you like, its like you ask for cookies, an d i get you tasty pretzels.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!


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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Moderatly descending Christmas
well i was in midst updating when my computer just gor all freezy, ever since the crash it has been acting wierd, i wonder how long it takes a computer to recover from stuff like that.

see my father got me an MP3 player, its no iPod but it does play music, so i was downloading from from Gendou and i tried to double-up, but it all went BOOM and just restarted kinda, it when to my desk top paper, then the bar for Gendou came back, but none of the other sites or applications, and when i tried to restart it said FireFox was trying to do things, but i just gave up. so i restarted and got my new songs loaded up, course now NEXT is on so now i won't even be listening to the music.

well in any case its time to do the rebuilding. first off Bev loved her presents, i got her a sex bath-robe, then i filled it with tons of Hello Kitty merchandise, most of it lip-gloss [gotta make sure she is prepared for when i see her] i also got her a little manga called "Man's best friend." if you don't know about it ask a fangirl, or i guess i could explain if you really wanna know. but on top of all that i filled the robe full of a good 5 pounds of glitter, and i made sure it was sealed up right, and the box was tight, so my cute little beloved would have no idea what was about to happen, and sure enough she openned it up and it went POOF and sprayed Glitter everywhere. it was so precious! i bet her parents love me now.

well my love gave me a Pucca plushie. Pucca, possibly my most embarassing of my vices, right up there with Gravitation. but in any case the plushie is really cute, i gave it to my wiener hound to sniff it, and she didn't seem interested in the smell, which means i think she knows Bev's smell by now, which is good, i want my doggy to know her. she also sent me an Anime Vegas shirt, so its nice to know i got new clothing.

as far as gifts from my dad he gave me the MP3 player, a CD player, the new Eminem compilation, i believe 2 sets of uncomfortable ear-phones, and season 2 of Naruto uncut. do any of you guys know how Uncut "uncut" is, cuz i'm afraid its more DBZ [like one swear word per disk] uncut and less Gundam SEED [Shinn yelling "SHIT!" as loud as he can for no apperent reason often] cuz if its all sissy editted, i can watch that on CN, i don't need DVDs, so if any of you guys have info, please share.

my brother got me strange things like several new knives, jerky, and authentic japanese green tea, so apperently i'm preparing for a long stay in the woods with a USB drive and internet connection, as well as a surplus of AAA batteries.

as for my mother, she got me the Akatsuki, Abyss and Providence Gundams, as well as Full metal panic Fummoffu?!, a naruto foil shirt, and Cagalli's pendant. the stone she gives to Athrun, yeah, it looks different in person, but still looks good on me,plus the box is covered in cute Cagalli and Athrun chibis, so its worth it. the only huge miss would have to be that i asked for the resevoir chronicles Tsubasa manga, and somehow i got Figure 17 DVDs, i have no idea where that came from. but i guess its good i didn't get Tsubasa, i really should watch all of Angelic Layer as well as get to reading Card Captor sakura before going at Tsubasa, of course i played and enjoyed Kingdom Hearts without ever touching a Final Fantasy game in my life, so its possible i just could like stories where i'm oblivious to character's back stories. she also ordered Pilot Candidate, it just hasn't arrived yet, i really wanted that series, it brings me back to the old days of [as] when an electronic voice would announce "all kids out of the pool, Adult swim." this was a time where Yu Yu Hakusho and Inuyash8a were new series, boy those were the days.

but in any case i do have a few things i can return and make money off of. i needs my money to get new stuff, mostly more Gundams.

to all Gundam enthusiasts out there, i DO NOT recomment the Cosmic region/illusion series of action figures, i say stick with standard MSiA or the new ones that come in boxes, extended i think, the advanced MSiA and Cosmic ones, as well as the FIX series have low mobility, they bend crappily, there poses then look stiff and sucky, and some don't hold weapons right, plus they cost more, its just not worth it.

well thats all of my rants for today

happy late christmas!

-Quote-

me: [oppenning presents] Naruto?

Dad: You like it the show...

Me: I was expecting Gundam 00:83

Dad: Thats really old.

Josh: yeah, like 1983.



visit her please, and thank you to those of you who did last time.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas


Ol' Saint Nick's got burban breath
It's so cold you could catch your death
A cop sold me some crystal meth
It's a Merry Fucking Christmas

Everything's so Chritmassy
The streets are twinkling with frozen pee
My priest just sat on santa's knee
It's a Merry Fucking Christmas

All the kids go to bed each night to dream what santa brings 'em (brings 'em)
Unless they're jewish or muslim or some other gyp religion
Crappy toys flying off the shelves
Midgets dressed up to look like elves
Spread good cheer or burn in hell
It's a Merry Fucking Christmas

All the kids go to bed each night to dream what santa brings 'em
Unless they're jewish or muslim or some other gyp religion
Cracklin' fires to keep me warm
And my collection of asian porn
Cradle my bells and work my horn
It's a keep on truckin', last year suckin', midget chuckin', slap the puckin', how much wood could a wood chuck chuckin', Merry Fucking Christmas

HO HO HO!
Shut up! *slap noise*

here are my presents from you.



























and my gift to all my loyal Peoplezez!







well i hope i made your Christmas merry and bright

please visit Bev if you can

it'd mean a lot.




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Sunday, December 24, 2006

Its beginning to feel a lot like Christmas.
yep, as i remember last year, this sure as hell is the Christmas Feeling. massivly underwhelmed, materialistic and whiny. so yeah i think i will get all my Christmas bitching out of the way first, cuz lets face it, its best to face the bad stuff first.

yeah, my dad, Santa Clause shaped as he is seems Hell bent on causing me Christmas-y discomfort. see i am a huge Gundam fanboy [this evident by the fact my BG used to be Strike Rouge and that i talk about every episode of Gundam SEED and/or Destiny] so what i ask for more than anything else is MSIA [Mobile Suit In Action] Figures, which can either be bought in Saline [its an area in michigan near the colleges that is filled with import stores] or online, also i asked for anime DVDs, which since Media Play has shut down, are difficult to find, but are very easy to get from rightstuf.com, being as they must be close to direct importers, i see advertisements for them in the credits of Anime, but being as my dad is to lazy to go online, he says my list is "unrealistic" whats kinda funny is that my mom, who is as technology illiterate as anyone, did all her shopping over the inter-web and has no regrets, infact she is happy i saved her the hastle of having to go to the over-crowded stores. and then we have my brother, he is the one that told me about rightstuf, he orders all his Anime [well the stuff he doesn't download] from, and my mom told the two of them the sites, as being as my brother is a big e-bay seller, builds computers and is quite used to ordering from them, yet my father says its too much of a hassle, well excuse me for not wanting common things, he knows i love gundam, but i guess he just wants to be difficult about it. he launched into this big rant about materialism and just buying things that you think of the person when seeing them, which my Beverly also believes, but hell she is so cute and lovable, so she can get away with it, being that i'm in love with her, so even if she gives me wierd stuff i think of her when i see it, but my dad is my dad, and i know that when i'm older and he's gone such objects will be great, and helpful in mourning, but at this point it only shows he doesn't know me very well.
and my bro is the same way, historically, it may be now that he has changed his ways, but then again who knows, it could be the same-old same-old. i don't really know. last year he had no funds so he gave me a bunch of his old stuff, which was really nice, once i realized that, up until that point i just thought it was typical josh, getting me stuff for him, like EVA toys, instead of presents for me. but at least my dad had the decency to tell me that he didn't bother to buy things i wanted ahead of time, so i could prepare to open a lot of presents i don't want. who knows, this could all be an elaborate trick so i'll be like uber-happy when i get things off my list, after all, my brother is a tricky one, once he had me pick out stuff for a nonexistant sibling of his GF, so i could see him doing this. i won't count on it though, cuz thats a way to get your hopes dashed, like they were last year.

Bev's present didn't get here either, but thats okay, all that means is that another day will become special, when the long awaited present from my love gets here.

and more over i can't wait till my lover gets here, i don't mean it as she is coming soon, it will still be years, but that will be a time of true happiness, spending holidays with her, cuz i know that all either of us needs is a roll of ribbon and nothing else to give the other the best christmas present ever. see to me i don't see the holidays as a time as family bonding, i don't like the forced stuff like this, i sit around lonely watching TV while everyone else cooks, then we all sit dowen and open presents, and everyyone talks about adult subjects like 401ks and stuff, and we all feign interest in TV or pretend its not right that we have to have two christmas', me and my brother. maybe i am only going from my side, in fact i know much of what i'm saying is mine and mine alone, i see sitting around and watch UFC as great male-bonding, it makes ,me feel way closer than on holidays. to me it will be all about my love on the holidays, sharing fireworks on july 4th, thanking the powers above for eachother on thanks giving, unwrapping one another on christmas, and sharing the first kiss of the new year, its nice to be with family, but maybe its because Bev is not here that makes me such a cold cynical bastard. maybe when she is hjere i'll be all happy and and fluffy on christmas, i know she is, so maybe here good parts will rub off on me, like always.
i hope she inproves my outlook, cuz i don't really like hoew i am right now.

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Bev: i love my boobs!

believe me, she says it a lot, and i'm tired
and lazy

just go to her site, the pic of us commands you

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




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Saturday, December 23, 2006

Let it go man... JUST LET IT GO!!!!
yeah, i went a little rant happy earlier, i was quite pissed off because a couple people called me perverted for talking about Bev having a D-Cup. and see i actually thought "maybe i got a little carried away with the Bev loving." but i re-read it, and i was my normal lovey-dovey self. i made a comment about her abundant breasts and the fact that yes, after 1.5 years together we want to be a bit physical and can't wait to see eachother, so i get two people, one who i really like and respect calling me a pervert. but luckily my good friends were around to comment, and Lytjuh really helped, she is a great friend. her comment really helped, she showed that with more time on this earth and more alchol in her system, she is much wiser than me. i don't know, i could just imagine her as the type of person that gives buzzed and from over their shot glass can give you good, honest advice. but then again i could be getting this all wrong, thus ruining any sappy moments or relationship points i accumulated, but i don't know, i think by this time most people know how insane i am, so i think i'm in the clear as far as breaking new ground in offensiveness.

but in any case what she said made a lot of sense, like she admitted she'd be happier with a D-Cup, but also it possible to be a long-distance pervert. so i really respected her answer, it was on the same level of intelligence as thought as a Myui comment, except not as sarcastic. in any case it was because of her i calmed down in the first place, her post made me happier, and kinda made me feel all warm inside with its holdiay sap and cuteness.

well in any case i feel better now, i think thats common for me though, i go of on some screaming rambling rant, then i calmly make the next post all rationally and happily.

well in any case my lover finally got her present i sent her, it was so cute what she said, she was calling because she was going to see "Happy Feet" so she was letting me know not to call her, so i asked her before she goes to see if my present was there. so she goes and looks, then i here her screaming and squeaking all happily, then she says in her cute little voice "i got your present... and i can't pick it up with one hand." i'm just kinda annoyed that her little siblings got into it and ruined the suprise that i sprinkled a little glitter in there. oh well, i still can't wait to have kids, so i think her little siblings are cute, plus its always nice to meet people bev can legitimatly call "dumb."

well being as i'm getting into another rant about my lover, why not just keep going with it? yeah, we both admit, me and my love, that she isn't exactly a genius, but i love that about her, its something i never thought i wanted, and i'm so glad she taught me that i had no idea what i wanted. i love everything about Bev, her adorable dumbness and her sizeable mamories, both two things i didn't think i wanted, but i'm uber glad i got. hell lets go into more things bev taught me i wanted, Yaoi Fangirl, Beaner, long-distance love, emotional, and emo-ish. she really is so great, and i'm so happy i got exactly her, because she showed me what i really want. she is my soulmate and i ow it to this site for finding her. and the two of us are deeply in love, and we acknowledge things about eachother, we tease and are slightly dickish to one another, but we get the jokes, we both talk openly about eachother, i know she never apologizes for loving me, and i need to learn to be the same way, i need to just be able to handle those who doubt my love and i more gracefully, insread of going all postal. its probably not good to flip the fuck out like i do, but i'm working on that, Bev quells my temper, who knows, she could be the ultimate partner for me, and she is definatly my better half. i know i'm lucky to have her, and i talk about her as she is, so for all those who doubt me and her, you don't know me if you do, so its sad. just wait awhile and maybe then you'll see, a different side of me.

ahh, nothing better than quoting Rob Thomas

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Me: i know you are gonna get pissy over this.

Bev: Huh?

Me: If you think about it, "bitch" is a compliment.

Bev: *growl*

Me: no really, we both like dogs, they're warm, fluffy, loyal, affectionatem loving, and always there for you, self-sacrficing and love unconditionally, and you are all that, you are dog-like, and a girl, dso that makes you my bitch.

Bev: i'm your bitch?

Me: yeah...

Bev: that really does sound sweet how you put it.

before you kill me Peoplezez, think about it, i am kinda right.
doggies are so cute!

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!


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Friday, December 22, 2006

Blind leading the dumb pt.1
Well once again i have been massively misunderstood [why that suprises me is a mystery to me...] but i must thank several of my Peoplezez for completly not knowing me what-so-ever to the point the conclusion they draw about me are comically inaccurate.

alrighty, well it seems based off the fact that i made one statement of my girlfriend's chest size and i get several comments how i'm some depraved pervert or something like that.
Alas this is the fatal flaw in blogging, people don't hear what you say half the time, so you say something based off of the idea that the people reading it know you, but then you get a lot of respounces showing you otherwise. i am going to try not to be a raving maniac hurling insults at the Peoplezez that misunderstood me, but this will be difficult being as i am 1. an asshole, 2. prone to ranting, 3. in firm mind to feel you all deserve it.

but none the less i will do my best to be kind [of course know with all the all the over-explanation i just sound pretentious] so i'd just like to state some facts about me. how, if i am in a long distance relationship could i just be some chest-obsessed pervert, it makes no sense, for me to be fixated on the physical yet in a relationship that involves no physical contact what-so-ever! that is completly stupid! especially if you consider that all in all i like small breasts better! up until i met Bev i loved girls with small chests, i grew to like big breasts BECAUSE of Bev having a D-Cup, i only bring it up because most guys and girls prefer them, guys want girls with them and girls want them, i was bragging because i am a stuck-up little brat not accustomed to winning, so when i came upon a prize such as Bev and somehow she decides to love me, of course i am going to talk about all the good parts about her, to me personality, affection, temperment and loyalty are all far more inportant, i state this like a mantra but some how even though what i talk about boils down to love, love, love, love, love, love tits, love, love , love , love, love... people zooms in on the breasts part, and you know that really annoys me. that people can be so shallow as to take any mention of the chest as a meaning that that is all i care about. it seems i get this a lot, i compliment Bev, i talk about how much i love her and i fill my stories of her with so much fluff it annoys the hell out of people, but the first time i mention something that has to do do with breasts, sensuality or sexuality, even though i state it as in my mind only appropriate between people deeply in love, and that Bev believes the same thing, i get that i'm a pervert, that she is a slut, and i wonder how you people see these things. it makes no sense to me.
"i'm as bad as all my friends combined," and this comes from a person i really respect, a person who i'm over-joyed to see commented, yet this person breaks my expectations by just tagging me as a perv. and reall, all friends combined, so every friend comes out to one mention of chest size and a few examples of physical intamacy? i don't mean to be an ass, i'm really trying to be a nice guy, but its very difficult.
i need support peoplezez
i'm sorry for the angry rant, but as i tell people, if there is one thing i don't take shit about, if there is one thing i am deadly serious about, its my love life, me and Bev, so while i like your ceriticism, and i love the comments, try to keep from calling me names and labelling me a pervert, because deep down in side i am a moody bitch
and my typing finger gets itchy quick.

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thanks to a good friend i've calmed down a little, i've realized to count my blessing not my pains, so thanks to the majority of you who understand me and give me kind, honorest comments, please don't be deterred by those who anger me, and those who angery me, don't worry, if you communicate and attempt to solve our difference of agreement, our problems will be gone that quickly.
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Monday, December 18, 2006

more rants.
first of all its okay that you compared the two sweet kisses, i merely used your comment to rant a lot, its okay to compare the two but i just felt like voicing my hatred of Elfen Lied.

but what i really want to talk about is that i got a comment saying that it is cool that me and Bev plan to get married, but it would be so much cooler if purposed...

WHAT THE FUCK!?

why is that cooler? what makes me doing it cool? i don't understand your viewpoint person!
how is me purposing cooler than her purposing? i think its pretty fucking cool that she is going to do it, its unique and original, to have the girl purpose. i think its really cute that she would do that for me. and even though i already knew this since probably the first week of knowing her, she isn't some diamond crazy gold-digger. hell, most women now a days say they'd rather have a plasma TV than a diamond ring, hell i bet Bev would rather have a 360 and a copy of Gears of War, since she is a gamer.
actually to digress for a second, isn't Bev great? [i'm turing into the boyfriend equivilent of Mayes Hughes here] i mean she is fun, sweet, loving, undestanding, affectionate, cute, she swears, she has a more active libido, can fight, and is a gamer, plus, she's a full D-Cup. man and here i thought i'd be alone forever -^_^-

but back to the main topic, why should i submit to the stereotype and propose to her? she's a big girl and she can decide when she wants to get married, and she wants to do this. i love that she is thinking outside the box, she has always been the dominent one in the relationship, but to say that i'm whipped is not true, being as whipped guys don't like it and are whiny little bitches, i just happen to never have to disagree with Bev because she is one of the guys and my very female lover at the same time, i don't have to be all "i'm in control bitch, gimme a samich!" cuz she would probably want something to eat, and we could share it [probably with minimal hand use, maximum mouth contact] it seems stupid to me to go, "you should purpose." why the hell should i? she wants to, so i'll let her.
of course no matter how much i say its for her, there is the fact that i'm lazy and insecure, so the fact is at most times i wouldn't know the "right" time to propose and even though i now, as a semi-ration person, know that she would not only say yes, but would probably glomp-tackle me down and kiss me until my skin color is her gloss shade, i still upon buying and pocketing the ring would feel all insecure.
i'm just wierd like that, so i'm happy Bev will be doing the initiating, being as she is the stronger of the two of us, and in a sense [and in contridicting myself partly] Bev is more of the "man" in the relationship than me, so in some logical sense it should be her that proposes.
if she really didn't want to, i of course would, because i of course want to claim her as mine in as many ways as possible, and if i can place a ring on her that tells every man that she is mine and mine only, as i know she will do to me [in both ring and hickie, kiss, writing, drawing, and tattoo forms] i will, but she is doing me the favor of taking the initiative first, plus she just likes ruling me [those are her own words, she is so hot!]
so i'm good
i'm kept
i'm her's
i'm happy.

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instead of a quote i give you a link, please read the entire list upon clicking, and feel free to tell me how funny it is.

these guys are great

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s. i spent over an hour looking for my back-pack after school today cuz some damn administrator took it, put it in their side office then left without telling anyone it was there, i so hate these people.
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Sunday, December 17, 2006

Rant-o-licious
well first off i have to go one another anime themed rant.
i was told that the series Karin is like Chobits + Elfen Lied. there is only one problem, Elfen Lied is so much like a terrible rip-off at some points of chobits its funny. i think one of the driving ideas behind Elfen Lied was "lets take Chobits, take out all the great character developement, make it suck terribly, then add gore." so if you are going to say something is like Elfen Lied and Chobits its like saying it sucks, but is like Chobits. i must say though that if Freya acted a little more like lucy that she would have been a bit more worthy of the title of "dark Chii" as i saw her called many times, i mean if she killed people with her wires instead of just binding or knocking them out, it would have made things a bit more interesting.
but then again it wouldn't have been as cute and lovey that way, if Chii had slaughtered some random people. i must say that the whole Nyuu/Chii similarity does not reall warrant a comparison being as Elfen lied is like a 3 and Chobits is definatly a 10, so comparing the two is kinda an insult on CLAMPs efforts to makee a great show, and i think all the execs at Arms should have killed themselves by now, though i do like that they call themselves "arms" when they came up with the idea for those vector things, now that is devotion to your product, even if it would be like Kevin Smith devoting himself to Jersey Girl. its nice to see that the huge swell of Elfen lied obsession that swept across this site has subsided, it seems they all saw the ending too and went "what the fuck?!" yeah, don't waste your time of that terrible anime, go watch Nermia Daikon Brothers, or Chobits, hell go with ikki Tousen, at least that series gives you fan service and isn't completly self-obsessed shit.

but then there is Gundam SEED Destiny, i know from the reports of other fans that Destiny is a huge disapointment, so i'm ready for the suckage any day now, so far all i can see is that they completly ruined Cagalli, turning her from a badass to a whiny useless bitch, of course i haven't seen much of her aboard the Archangel yet, so it could have been the whole Yuna being a creepy manipulative bastard, so maybe Cagalli will regain her coolness now, but hearing about her piloting the Akatsuki that she doesn't get any cooler, but Waltfeld is looking a lot cooler, and i like Kira now, so it is improving my liking of individual characters, so if nothing else it'll cause an Ikki Tousen affect where there are characters i really like and i wish were in a better show, though i really do hope that doesn't happen, being as i really want to like this show till the end so the characters are as memoral as the Wing boys. But then again i could just disown Destiny and pretend it all ends at Jaquin with the destruction of GENESIS, and that i never met Shinn. i'm also pissed that it seems that even after becoming a commander Dearka is still not back in a red coat. how can you be a commander, a rank that none of the pilots had at the beginning, yet not be high enough in the ranks to get your red coat back? maybe they just decided Dearka looks better in green.

well i'm still being a useless slacker, but bev is still in love with me and all is good, i while ago she proposed to me, she wants to get married once we can live together, which will be really nice, especially since she is the one getting down on one knee and starting it. she's sweet like that.

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Me: Man, David Duchovny is really bad at emoting.

Dad: Its his style.

Me: its not paying attention in class.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!
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