Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Nipple Rouge.
Nope, they aren't custom pasties for Cagalli [but in all reality that would look silly] nope, this little cosmetic job is oft mentioned in the novel i am reading. it is know as "True Blood" and it is quite the romance novel, quite the trashy, romance novel. i feel like Kakashi reading it, i need the face mask and eye-cover/forehead protector. but in any case this book has many a strange, and poorly devised erotic, scene. the first fun one was the fact that the guy, out of nowhere, is talked about dreaming of seeing the girl naked and making "hot, slow love to her." then, being as the girl can read psychic imprints on objects, sees, or rather "is" a man masterbating to holographic porn. then there is the guy going to a virtual whorehouse, and seeing a girl who "she crawled across the ground on all fours seductivly [she is naked, and seemingly underaged] her inner thighs glistened with sensual moisture, her partner [it was a swinger type situation] had gotten her good and ready." yeah, i blushed reading that one, it kina caught me WAY off guard. then, after a fuckin 3rd, closer to half, the book they do it. no mind you i wasn't lusting for them to fuck, its just that their relationship [i though i fucked up the Allenby x Kit thing in mine] was so see through and sad i just wanted them to fuck already. and when they did i was completly confused for two reasons, 1. I'm a virgin in all senses of the word, i've known not the touch of a woman in any way, so until me and Bev move face-to-face, i will know nothing of physical expression of passing in practice and not imagination. and 2. they are in zero G, so all ideas of intercourse are skewed for me. i really couldn't decern the play by play, half the time i thought i knew what was going on a blatant explanation completly shattered my idea of what the hell these two were doing. at one point i believe the girl humps him while they are both fully clothed, also, this guy seemed to last an inhuman amount of time, while this girl who seemingly was not very sexuality active, seemed to take forever to reach her nirvana. once again not being a participant, let alone an expert on this subject i guess i can't criticize, but i was utterly confused by said sex scene.
also, all the women on this planet they went to like to be topless, and they wore, a direct quote "nipple rouge" which is possibly the silliest thing i have yet to utter. no i thought about the concept of crimson nipples, and i've decided that they would be sexy, sometimes... now on a light skinned girl, i could see it being very arousing, but i don't think a tanned latina like my beloved should be sporting blood colored boob-peaks. i merely thought of this as beening what would be more asthetically pleasing, it brought with it no sensation in the lower quarters [twinkle legs on the other hand made me feel all funny in the pants for a sec]
thats another fun on, the chick in the story talks about getting all wet staring into his eyes, but when they make out, no moisture mentioned. all in all i'd say i'm good enough to write this level of drivel, though i'd like to get better.

and my dear critiquer, i mean not to criticize your criticism of my work, i merely jest with you because i am a dick, i still value your opinion, i'm just not exactly proud to be assigned the evaluation you place on my writing talent.

well in other news i wrote a poem parody in major american authors, it was to Edgar Allen Poe's "Alone" i titled mine "0wn3d" i will post it as soon as i get it back, i loved it, i'm sure you guys will too.

Bev got package #2 today, as 1 apperently has disapeared from this earthly realm for all of eternities entirety, and i'm working on 3. i have no idea when i mail it, so that mean Bev doesn't know when it is coming either.

i hope my love mails me something back soon, i need her love in writing, because i love holding her meassges of love to me.
but whenever is soon enough, i can't pressure the one i love most.
all in good time i'm guessing.

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more from my crappy novel

"... how he'd like to keep her on the pleasure couch all night..."

Me: "pleasure couch!??" is he Zapp Brannighan?

Stacy: what is a pleasure couch?

Me: Is pure velour, senual, senual velour!

-AP Comments-

Kit: Leather is better!

Foxxy: Leather is really sexy, *voice growing more pleased as she imagines* i LOVE how it feels on my skin.

Sora: In my hands as i strap him down...

Foxxy: the sting when he cracks it against my ass.

In the corner Aveian reads a paper casually, while draco lays on the floor bleeding EVA style from the nose.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!
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Monday, October 23, 2006

updatey-ness.
well, once again i am updating. i don't know if i will get to visit today, but i'll try, my day has been kinda busy, but that is no excuse, just because i can't prioritize.
well today's thing that interupted my usual routine was the fact the the God of HotPants has decided to assign us independent reading, and i realized i hate sci fi.
sorta strange that i took that class then huh? well when i took it i wasn't thinking, see when i think of science fiction i think of Gundam SEED, EVA, and Chobits. i never thought of "Cold Equations," or "Alas, Babylon." i don't really like American sci fi, i was thinking of Anime. so i'm stuck in this class for another 11 weeks. but i was really pissed off at HotPants and the school librarian, because i was looking for a sci fi/romance novel, since we had to read sci fi of some sort, and both Gaylord and the book orge said that was basically an oxymoron. Gaylord suggested 1984 he goes "this couple gets together and join to fight the system..." and if i didn't already know the plot i'd be like "so cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute!!!" then he goes "then they get captured, turn against eachother, betray eachother, then die." and i'm like "how is THAT romantic?!" so i wander off and saulk, so the book ogre comes over and suggests "stranger in a strange land." she explains it as "this guy is a martian, so this girl kidnaps and takes him off to live with her..." and i'm thinking "that sounds super uber-romantic and cute!!!!!!!!!" then all i hear is "starts a cult... affairs... manipulates... graphic sex scenes..." i'm thinking "DOES NO ONE HERE HAVE THE SLIGHTEST CONCEPT OF ROMANCE!!!!!!!?" their suggestions are like if i asked for a CareBears book, and i got one involving Jeffery Dahmer decapitating SnuggleBear and raping his ear.

well i ended up going to the public library to get a book, after annoying the fuck out of Stacy, with my constant bitching about Gaylord's class, especially after her and Kitty got their Vo-tech grades, so we all were bitching, though they kinda made me feel like i was without ground. that and Stacy got all pissy at me about not wanting to read a 500 page story, because she loves reading so much. its really nice when the people you confide in make you feel like a whiny bitch. that and i've realized that i attract really polarized people around me. Stacy is all "Novels are better than manga!" Bev is always complaining that animes are never as good as the mangas, and my brother compares EVERYTHING to Evangelion, and is all "Subs are better than dubs, voice actors suck!" so yeah, all of my close associates make me feel like shit if i try to talk about something i like. here would be a range of example.

Me: I watched the new Gundam SEED Destiny DVD today.

Josh: I saw it subbed a year ago, Its just a cheap rip-off of EVA.

Bev: The manga is better.

Stacy: READ A BOOK!!!!!!!!!!!

so yeah, sometimes life sucks. but they are all cool, and bev will be extra easy to deal with, i'll just glomp onto her and keep her on the couch, forcing her to watch anime. the other two i just try not to get as pissed on the outside as i am on the inside with them.
i don't know, i guess i just get annoyed at the patisanship, why can't people just leave me to my dubbed Gundam SEED Destiny, and stop trying to make me read novels, or the manga, or watch it in japanese, or watch Gunbuster.
yeah, now my oh so great brother wants me to watch Gunbuster. now see i was happy to watch EVA with him, cuz i thought he'd watch my favorite animes with me, but he never does. he just walks out of the room and ignores it, its really insensitive, i'd love if he'd watch Gundam SEED Destiny with me, but i doubt i will, and i guess i'll have to watch more of the GAINAX back-catalogue.

well it appears that my package i sent my lover spontaniously combusted, and will never get to her. but its fine. for all her annoyingness i love her deeply with all my heart, she is so perfect to me.
i'm so happy to have her.

well my greatest critic is all up in my ass about AP being sub-par, so i need all you peoplezez to read it and ytell me how you feel!
k-ness?

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best quote ever!

[exerp from the Kevin Smith movie "Chasing Amy"]

Banky draws a 4-way intersection with a $100 bill in the middle, he then draws a pretty girl, and angry woman with short hair and a shirt saying "i hate me," a large rabbit, and st. nick

Banky: Now Houlden, we have a kind, conversive lesbian, a man-hating dyke, santa, and the easter bunny, and a $100 bill in the middle, who will make it to the money first?

Houlden: I don't know Banky... the mamn-hating dyke.

Banky: yes, and do you know why?

Houlden: why?

Banky: because, the other 3... are FIGMENTS OF YOUR FUCKING IMAGINATION!!!!!!!

-AP Comments-

Kit: We have no lesbians, wait we do... yet i'm not happy about that...

*dramatic music*

TGFB: [operatic] FORESHADOWING!!!!!!!!!

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!
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Sunday, October 22, 2006

energyless.
well i'm pretty tired right now, i basically slept through Eureka 7, though i imagine that is a common reaction to that show.
i was planning on just doing a short post, but i think that is impossible for me. but hell, you guys might luck out anf get a shorter post, no promises though.

okay, i was pretty happy reading my comments, ce[t till the end, i still got a bit accused, well i believe i was, i could see the accusitory statements as being broad exclamations, but in any case i'd like to further clear things up.
i don't base broad statements, my beloved and two friends both enjoy dressing emo, i think hot topic is an aphrodisiac to Bev, if her parents didn't hate the place i'm sure her woredrobe would be entirely from it. see i'm not talking about just seeing a person and going "you're an emo, i hate you." i mean associating with a person and realizing they are a shallow dickwad. i think the emo drawing are annoying, but its not a fatal blow or anything, cuz i haven't seen said drawings, but the ones i speak of are like the little gingerbread-man looking dudes with the little broken heart drawn on their chest, and a rain cloud over them. now see that is an example of being a poser, i've drawn shit when i was miserable, i think i know about illistrating depression, and this was illistrating "i pretend to be depressed, LOVE ME!" these fake shits annoy me, if you are really depressed then i have no problem with you, infact i seem to attract depressed people, at least two close friends on here, friends in real life, and my beloved, i seem to attract people who have deep wounds in their souls, i'm pretty bad off phsychologically too, i just got cold, not sad. when it comes to love and romance i'm all emotional, if i see some sugar-fluff love scene i get all choked up, or if one of my complex plans concieved under the rules of my mind fails in the harsh, real world, i weep like a bitch. but when my dog dies i miss her, but about an hour after her death it didn't hurt anymore, i adjust. my uncle tortured, raped and killed an underaged boy, and i accepted that, it didn't even shock me. somebody threatens to commit suicide and i tell them they are weak, and i tell their friends that thy are as good as dead, you can't keep someone alive against their will, and i tell them they have to learn to accept reality, no matter how cruel. when my friends learned that about me, i swear, from the look in their eyes and the inflection in their voice, i thought they'd never want to talk to me again. maybe i'm lucky, i have no pain, but then again the fact that in the face of deep sorrow i lose empathy, maybe its worse.
i think my lover is the same way, i've seen her act like me at times, it doesn't bother me, how could it? and dshe is really devoted to me, whenever i even mention i slightly dislike something she tries to change it, she tries so hard to be perfect for me. i think its like rearranging hearts on a love letter, i'm already head over-heels for her, yet she does everything she can to get me even better, its the effort that counts, and she's so cute trying so hard, i love her so much
i'm so uber-lucky to have her.

well i hope this offered more inctite into situations and stuff, i hope you all don't see me as cruel, we all have our problems, i just advertise mine, but i don't wallow in them, i don't scar myself over them, i'm not weak. i live with my sins, i won't die for them.

AP is my story i'm writing, i guess technically its a fanfiction, but its is so wierd and off dogma its more of a parody, a spoof. and really, anything you don't know google or wiki can fix, i think its pretty good, and everyone other than my biggest critic agrees [he thinks my writing is "not so great"] but i think it is tolerable. see for yourself, just have me pm it to you and you can be the judge. i used to have it on FanFiction.net, but i found the system there and the people there unhospitable and unfriendly, i might go back to doing it on there, but it was never really compatable with that site. just take it by pm please.
i really want readers, help a brother out.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!


(Yoshima) Beverly= Hiya!!!
hehehe broke in his site again....It's fun!
I'M NOT AN EMO you freanking asshole!
hehehe!
I love U!!!!!! I wanna cookie!
And a litte attention never hurted the birds!
*huggies*
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Saturday, October 21, 2006

Fun with opinions
well i actually visited you guys today, so there is no excuse if i get very little comments.

but lets get on with the post.
now i don't really know what was being implied by some of the comments, either that i am open minded, or a mean colse-minded dick-wad.
see i don't mean to speak generally about emos, because i have nothing against nobody, and i don't judge people. see the people i refer to as "emos" are people who take on tthat stereotype so they can fit in, the shallow, hollow people, not the real ones.
i don't like fakers and pretenders, especially is they are pretending to be depressed, thats what annoys me. those are the people i don't like. the people who advertise they are depressed like it should be a turn-on or something. people who have to go around everywhere drawing sad pictures, telling everyone, "i'm miserable." or have to put stupid depressing avis the copied off the internet on their notebooks and stuff. people who think being an individual means shopping on hot topic and listening to people sing about suicide. i have to say i have a living example of this in my German class, this bitch annoys me, she is so fate, she is a token emo, if she was anymore of a charactiture she's had to have a backpack full of razor blades and constantly be drawing black clouds over her own head. and i mean that, it seems she goes out of her way to find ONE thing she can complain about, so she can be depressed, and cool, and fit in. its annoying to see, in a world of genuinly sad people trying with everything they can to be happy, and you have people trying to find problems so they can make themselves sad.
maybe i am a dick-monkey, but i really can't help but bitch about these people.
sorry if i offend anyone, i mean this as a vague statement, not a definate accusation of a whole group of people. if this applied to a person, i'd tell them, so don't take any of this personally.

well today i went clothing shopping, i wanted to get some emo pants, or at least tight ones, i don't really want black ones, i'd rather just get straight blue ones, or just whatever color i get, i'm not going for one style. but instead i ended up in pac-sun trying to decide which of 3 shirts i can get. i tried everywhere else, AE was okay, i went into Areopostle [or whatever the fuck that place is called] and inside i found over-priced merchandise stocked by the fakest looking douche-bags i ever saw, i mean seriously, i looked at them an, aaaaaaaaaaaah, they were just so douchey looking, they looked like carnies, gay depressed carnies, i had to get the hell out of there. i went into Hot Topic, but while in there i thought more about Bev than myself, i know Hot Topic is heaven to her, and they really do have better clothes for girls than guys [though the pleather pants were tempting] but really all i saw i liked was a FLCL shirt with lord Kante on it. in the end i got a shirt from Pac-sun, the brand is SKIN, and they seem to like naked girl sillouttes, and being as that is the ultimate art to me, i got one, i hope to get more later. i really hope to expand my dress styles, till then guess its bussiness as usual.

Well Gundam SEED Destiny was okay-ish, it was kinda a set-up episode, really didn't give much to enjoy, but next ep is looking awesome! sometimes this whole "1 ep a week" thing is painful. but its worth it, creating tension and enjoying every last drop!

AP is my story i'm writing, please read it. i really need more readers.
it'd mean a lot if you did...

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Me: Haro, kick her ass, kick HER ass! Haro.

[i love Haro, he is awesome!]

-AP Comments-

Foxxy: i don't like Haro, he makes me feel stupid...

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

updatey-goodness
well here comes another update people.
i'm sorta short on time today, but that won't stop me from posting, i'll visit as many people as i can, but i really love posting, so that comes first.

well lets see, i have no real plan, so i'm just going to have to wing it through the post [which i usually do, i just don't admit it]

well we had to write a nature myth [a myth that explains a aspect of the world around us] in my mythology class. we wre allowed to create characters, dieties and mortals, so i of course used my characters from AP, namely Foxxy, Draco, Dracula and Draka. [if you would like to read AP (please do!!!!!) PM me and i'll send it to you] and while everyone else created stories that were 1-3 pages long, mine was a sleek and sexy size 11 and a half! yep, 11.5 pages of Greek myth-ized AP goodness. [READ AP IF YOU CARE FOR ME!!!!!!!] my myth explained diverse topics like:
Why people have pink lips and cheeks
Pedophilia
Chocolate
Mountain Dew [soft drink]
Cherry Trees
and at the end of my glorious story i got a huge ovation, and in true mw style, i worked the crowd, i got laughs like crazy, and a few people even said it sounded like an anime plot, so i was so happy, all my peers loved me.
my teacher, on the other hand was offended by my work, but not to the point of actually doing anything about it, except asking me a bunch of bullshit questions that only served me to get to spin my verbal web even further causing even more people to love my writings and congradulate me more, it was quite awesome. i will eventually type that up and put it on here as a post, because it is a stand alone story and will introduce people to my writing style, and thus hopefully get more people to read more of AP, or start reading it to begin with.

lets see what else, well i managed to offend Kitty with my rants about emos and classism, at least she aknowledges my right to hold whatever cruel and insensitive views i want. i still believe what i said, but it does kinda suck when people you hang out get hurt by your deeply held views, but fuck, not like i can do anything about that, can't ditch the close friends, can't the ideas, can't stop believing what i believe, can't stop forcing my ideas on others, so oh well, must just keep going.

saturday is sweetest day, so i gotta send a present to my beloved, cuz i love her so, and material goods are about as much physical contact as i can give her, and i'm happy to do it, just gotta make sure to keep da moneys way in the green so i can continue my plan of flying out to see her, but after Christmas there is no more gift buying, wait Valentines, k... after that no more gifts, so i'll be able to save up then, course i'll save up between now and then, just gotta learn to buy only the essentials, i'm too big of a spendaholic [i can't help it, i'm addicted to spendahol!] so hopefully i can save up enough to see her some time in the future, near future. in the mean time i must try to manage my santa like gift-giving nature.

speakig of santa, how about i put some Pucca into the rant?
THAT WASN"T A QUESION BITCH!!!!!!
anyway... for those uninitiated to the awesomeness that is Pucca, one of the recurring characters is some wierd korean concept of ole st. nick, who appears for no real or decernable reason. bit i am digressing on the segue. Monday's new episode of my most embarassing vice was the Halloween ep. it of course was cute and love filled, like i desire from my korean school-girl aimed flash-animation. the first mini ep ended with Pucca and Garu's skeletons [which exitted their bodies in the way only childrens programming characters bones can] getting intertwined at the ribs, and Garu being repeatedly kissed [hense why i love the show], then the second ep had a ghost of Pucca's ancestor popping out of a picture and kissing up Garu, leaving ectoplamic goo and very well drawn dark blue kisses ALL OVER him [hense why i REALLY like the show] but the third was best, Ching, who is voiced by Chantal Strand [who voices Lacus Clyne] becoming evil and doing random bad deeds, then blaming them on Pucca, which prompted me to whip out the handy haro impression going "Haro, She's being a bitch, she's be-ing a bitch, Haro." or "kick her ass, kick HER ass, lACUS!" "She's not Lacus, kick her ass." and random other quotes, i love imitating Haro, and i have been doing so ever sense a lot, its really fun.

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Bro: WQho is that no-talent hack of a voice actor you like?

Me: Crispin Freeman?

Bro: Yeah, he's going to be at the con in canada next week.

Me: Thank you for mocking those i look up to...

-AP Comments-

Kit: YOU BASTARD!!!!! YOU STOPPED PUTTING US IN THE END OF POSTS, AND YOU"RE SLACKING OFF ON WRITING AP!!!! I'LL KILL YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Me: Haha! i'm immortal!

Kit: Them i'll repeatedly wound you!!!

*tackle*
*stabbitty wounding*

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Monday, October 16, 2006

Rules of engagement
well as of late i seem to be getting a lot of comments from people about not commenting. so i guess i must give all the fckn n00bz to my site the way that i do things.
i am on here usually mon, wednesday, friday, and the weekends. i update all those days, except friday, i usually don't update then anymore, as far visiting i try to during the week, on the 3 weekdays i usually visit everyone, and on the other 4 days i MAY visit select friends, and sometimes i don't viosit on the 3 main days. this is the best schedule i can keep, i'm sorry if the days you usually update on are tuesday, thursday and the weekend, but i don't do mu8ch visiting those days, and i very rarely visit people who updated the day before, i don't shun anyone, so if you haven't gotten a visit is just bad luck or a scheduling conflict.
sorry for any those who damage with my methods, but thats just how it is.
i get on as much as i can, so just bare with me peoplezez, and i'll always do my best.

well the last few days were pretty good.
i got a little extra time with my lover, which of course is like heaven to me, and to my beloved. but she has been kinda sad lately, mainly because i've been out later this weekend. UFC and going to the movies meant getting home later. saturday i had to talk to Bev early, cuz i'd be coming home at 1 a.m. instead of 9 p.m. its really nice to have male bonding time with my bro and dad, but it really takes the fun out of it when i know that my speacial one is in paion while i'm doing it, so i may have to resolve that later. then yesterday my dad sprung going to the movies on me, and i hsad not the time to tell my lover that i may be a bit late, i did call her from the hallway at the theatre to tell her i may be a bit late
the movie i saw was "The Marine." oh dear God was it not worth it!
that was possibly the worst movie i've seen, and i watched "Undercover Brother," "Duece Bigalow 2," and "White Chicks." John Cena seems to be made of indestructable materials, no matter what happens to this guy he is unscaved, he gets hit in the temple with a beer bottle, he goes through about 6 walls, he grabs into a semi truck abd gets driven through two buildings, he gets hit in the face with fists and several metal and wooden foreign objects and caught in about 5 explosions, yet he has not a scratch on him. his wife got hit in the face to the point of unconciousness, including getting pistol-whipped, yet he shows no injuries either. in fact half the movie Cena is running through a forest, just doing that would give you a lot of small abrasions, yet once again, no scratches. his wife at the end of the movie drives through about 7 sets of exploding tanks [where the hell are there warehouses of propane tanks just sitting out ready to explode?] but she is handcuffed to a truch that falls into a lake, and she passes out. so cena tears the pipe she's cuffed to clean off, then takes her to the surface, when he lays her down she looks all peaceful and smiley, because you know thats how you feel when you just drove through several exploding tanks, seeing a woman explode, and potentially seeing your husband die multiple times, peaceful and happy. well John gives her CPR, and she just wakes up, laughs and kisses him, giving some cheesy line. okay, when you wake up from almost drowning you vomit uncontrolably, and CPR is very rough on t5he chest, sometimes bruising, cracking or breaking ribs, so yeah, i'm sure after all that you'd be all happy and laughy.
overall the movie sucked, i saw it as action yaoi, no plot, no talking, no problem. just as MOST [check the profile, gravi fanboy here] yaoi plots are only there to stick together the gay sex scenes, the plot here was just to put together the over-the-top fighting scenes. because of coupons we had the movie cost us -1 dollars, it wasn't worth it.

upon getting home Bev was in tears, she missed me a lot, but we worked it out and we both went to bed really happy.

well it appears i'm going on long,
tell yaz more next time.

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Me: Why is cena signing? it sounds like3 he ripped the beat off an old Linkin Park CD.

Dad: They rea;lly shouldn't use the WWE scriptwriters to write these movies...

Me: Or the songs...

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!
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Sunday, October 15, 2006

Does no one care about Indian Micheal Jackson!!!!!!!?
nobody coomented on him, why?
well here he is again, please watch.

Indian Micheal Jackson


Even better Indian Micheal Jackson


i must say that both of these MJ's are just so entertaining, i first saw MJ #1 on Attack of the Show, my bro was in the kitchen, so i paused the DVR, and told him to come out and see this, we saw it are were both laughing so hard, so my bro went on youtube himself so we could see the full version, and we were both laughing so hard that our dad had to come out and go "what are you two laughing at?" so we showed him and he started laughing uncontrolably too.

today i forced my bro to listen to Real Time with Bill Maher, and my dad and bro hated it, i enjoyed it, even though Bill thinks completly different things than i do, he is so damn funny, much like on here myui and Pillowsrock can savagely mock me all they want, because they are both so well-spoken and funny that i enjoy it. and tonight was great, because good ole Affleck was on there [my older or more devoted readers will recognize many reasons why that is funny] and once again i realized, Ben Affleck is a really intelligent man. the entire night Bill and the two other panelists were all arguing and fangs, then Affleck would calmly explain the reason why both or all of the other 3 are wrong, and slwly explain the center position. i totally agreed with him on immigration, we should become a bi-lingual country, it would really help us out, and his next reply, though a bit condridictory was awesome, Lou Dobbs said "i totally support the 'English Only' laws, we should teach all them english!" so Affleck goes "first we have to teach all our normal American students how to speak english." tis true, many in my classes would be lucky if someone told them they were at a 1st grade reading level.

well today Bev got really sad, she is taking the fact her parents are cutting back her phone time hard, its really sweet. its a sad time for me too, i mean i'm honored she cares for me that much, but i feel bad that i cause her that kind of pain, i really hope we can get our time back soon, i'd given almost anything to get it.

UFC was tonight too. Rich Franklin got owned, the guy broke his nose, he got kneed in the face repeatedly, it was really bad, other than that the fights were not really worth talking about, UFC is kinda something you gotta watch. i am looking forward to december when Ortiz fights Chuck Liddel, THAT will be a post all to itself.

well i'm going to write more AP and dream of Bev.

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"FUCK ABRAHAM LINCOLN!"

-Annymous

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!
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Saturday, October 14, 2006

My "loyal" fans.
well right now i'm tired, and in a higher than normal cocky/cynical mood, so this post will probably be fun, but still be the JD-ness you come to know and love [and a few of you mock]

okay, off the bat i know i have a lot of conflicting opinions on classism, but in my mind it is all rational. as far as i see it i hate people that tell me what they are proudly, or have to advertise their clique constantly. case in point, in my German classs there is a girl who is sich a stereotypical emo its annoying, all she does is bitch and moan, she draws depressing stylistic art, and of course cuts herself, and all day she just whines and complains how miserable she is...
that is until her friends talk to her, then she is all happy and talkative, boy i love the people who complain about falsehoods yet are as fake as Pamella Anderson's tits themselves. i realize that i classify people, but i do it after the fact, if you call yourself "emo," you go in the emo box with all the other sheep, blindly following the norm while actually thinking you are rebelling, SO CUTE! you actually believe that you are shocking me?! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!
i can't wait till all these people either get killed, kill themselves, or become yuppies, i like watching people break down, to a certain level i'm a sadist, but only in the idea that i like seeing justice served, not hurting the innocent, so i'll enjoy watching these mental lemmings throw themselves off the cliff, fuckin weakilings.

but in other news i'd like to say that you all suck. i read the comments on Bev's post, you all like her better! I AM SHUNNED!!!!!!! if you all love her so much go to her site, Yoshima. excuse me for having a lot to say... the only reason Bev doesn't post long is that her attention span doesn't cover that much, but i can't complain, i love her.

And there is no way in hell i'd put up with uniforms in school, i need my freedom of expression in my douchey clothing!

also i realize that my personal opinion is based off of my life experience, and that i was born pretty lucky, but the idea to "walk a mile in another's shoes," is functionally impossible unless you have a 30 days type show, except not as biased as Spurlock's little piece of social commentary. i can to the best of my ability assess the world from my position, and it is a bit pretentious to believe you can see things from another's view point completly or even functionally. As far as i see it, we can barely comprehend our own lives, and we are with us all the time, so how could you believe that you can go "i can see perfectly how i would feel if i were you." i mean you can react to a situation another describes to you, but your reaction is still your's, based on your life experiences, and therefore tainted with you own personal bias.

on a lighter note, Gundam SEED Destiny. Today we find Cagalli about to marry Yuna, which has been arranged to happen for quite a while. i must say i'm not liking Cagalli as a politician, i mean she is so weak-minded, she bends and folds almost instantly, where is the girl who tried to kill Athrun? But in any case i loved seeing Cagalli get "abducted." i believe it is during the "if there are any objections to this materimony, please speak up now or forever hold your peace," that Freedom lands and carries her away. personally i love seeing Yuna cower behind Cagalli, hands at his chest, shrieking like an 11 year old girl, then once Cagalli gets taken away he goes "WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? SHOOT IT DOWN!" to which he gets "but sir, if we shoot it down Lady Cagalli would be killed too." so he just starts weeping. he deserved to, he marriage-raped Cagalli. i aslso like the General of the Orb Navy getting the message "The Freedom has abducted Lady Cagalli, please approuch with extreme caution." so he just watches, a fellow soldier asks "are you going to do something sir?" he salutes and says "i'm approuching with extreme caution."
i love that guy, he is so cool!

i leave you with these:

Indian Micheal Jackson


Even better Indian Micheal Jackson


live long
love hard

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!
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Friday, October 13, 2006

   I shall Bite you!
muhahahahaha!
Eh got bored!
I'm JD Girlfriend messing again on here cus I got nothing better to do!
hehehe!
Hiya!
My name's Beverly!
hehee
this the second time i'm on his site!
and i like biting people!
muhahaha!
FEAR ME!!!
Heheheh
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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

I post, you read...
its a symbiotic relationship!

okay, right off the bat i'd like to go on a huge rant about social-classism, but first i must q-tip my ears... okay then. well in any case i was annoyed by someone comparing me to "preps," i know not who said it, i care not who said it, i hold no grudges. well to get back on track what i'm talking about is that i'm annoyed by the cliques and classes, its annoying. i'm sick of all the damn popular kids at my school, stupid emos. see i'm annoyed that people seem to be popular for pretending to be depressed, its not cool to be depressed, and we, at this age really don't have any reasons to. people give up too damn easily, because at this point the world is an enabler, somebody goes, "oh, my parents are mean, well the song tells me to slit my wrists, i'll try that." see i don't think that the songs INTRODUCE depression, they REAFFIRM the thoughts. i don't know, these are only hypothesi, i know when i was depressed i was looking for a way out of the hole, and i sure wasn't going to let people think its "ok" to be depressed. that is another thing that is annoying, tolerance, telling everyone its okay to be inferior its okay to be obese, or illiterate, or mentally ill. if you look in the mirror at 16 and you weigh 300 pounds, can read at a 2nd grade level and have razor scars all over you limbs, you are not "OK" you are a massive failure. people give up too easily, they see a failing and dwell on it, until they are listening to "my immortal," while sobbing and cutting themselves. find the good in yourself and use that for strength, and any failing turn into anger, determination, not sorrow. thats my advice for the day.
bhut i'm off subject, what i'm sick of is people hating eachother based off of their class. look, i'm no mother tersea, i'm a horrible person, but my hate is distributed justly and fairly, i hate people of all creeds and colors, and i like just as diverse amount of people. i love hearing "alternative" people complain how "fake" "preps" are. yeah, like you are real, in your t-shirt from a band you never listened to, and your other mass produced unique-wear. you are speacial and unique, in the exact same way most everyone else is. and there are plenty of people who really are that unbarably happy and shallow, not all preppy people are disingenuos, sure most are, just like most emos. i like i once saw a REAL non-conformist, i swaer this person made marilyn Manson look like Greg Brady, and they were, CLINICALLY DEPRESSED, and what they said will never leave me "i'm sick of all these poser pretending to be depressed, i am, and its not fun, and not cool." i must admit i don't have the guts to say anything to any of you guys face to face or directly, just please take this advice to mind.
now i plan to dress emo-y, and i act preppy, but see i'm not trying to be unique, i wanna look good, i don't care if the look is original or not, to me my personality is fine, its the physical representation that is lacking, and if anyone does call me emo then they are a moron, and i don't have time for them.

another thing i think is funny is when i see people who actually think that you can be yourself AND be popular. see there are people who are born insanly happy or clinically depressed, Bev is lucky, she mostly is the first, has a little of the second, and dresses like noth, so she gets it both ways. but other than those examples being yourself gains you the people who like you for you, which in most dsituations aren't a lot of people. see mostly you can be yourself, or popular, and its fun to see people who want it both ways, you can either be satisfied with having people who like the real you, or be happy that you are uber-popular, or that you can fool people into liking your deception, its really that simple. sure some times i dislike that people don't like me, but a second later i say "fuck them" and move on. i'm changing style now for me and for Bev, the only two people in the world that matter.

well i hope i get done on here earlier, so i can some body work done, i need to get in shape, i still want to be able to pull off the whole tight leather pants and skin hugging black halter-top look to prove there are hot, sweaty, sexy, guys.

-Quote-

"with how low and tight my pants are, i may as well go commando, i have the theighs and pelvis for it."

-me

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!
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