Monday, May 15, 2006

Crispin Freeman is my Chuck Norris.
Crispin Freemman is the Voice of Hideki on Chobits and Holland on Eureka 7, and i think he has the most awesome voice ever! we must make Chuck Norris-esque jokes about him!

i'm glad some of you are getting my references, i'm trying to suprise my girl, so i will not say the show i'm watching, though she's never on anymore, its just kind of sad that even though this happens that i've quoted lines from the show several times, she seems not to get it. but man she is soooooooooo cute! see, there's a reference for you.

yes, for somee reason i feel compelled to do things such as this, don't ask why, i just do.

and yees, i think the two major ways of death by kiss would be suffication, or loss of blood to the brain, [i got that joke, and if you didn't, don't worry, your parents will explain it to you when you're older] i guess either way wouldn't be fun, but in some ways it would!

yesterday i talked with my love for somewhere around 8 hours, being as i was home, it being mother's day my dad left me here, so in the spirit of mother's day me and my love ignored our parents and spent all day together. well my dad did pick me up to watch TNA Sacrifice, my brother watched the whole thing with us, and we played a little DOA afterward, but the whole time i thought of her.

i know i'm pathetic, my friends tell me i'm whipped. see my friend Stacy had some tinsel, for some unknown reason, and she was placing it in my hair, upon doing this i said "you have crossed a line that only one person on earth can cross." she asked what i told her "decorating me." she asked who that was, but Kitty answered before me. they were both wearing platforms and i told them that my love is planning on buying me a pair, as well as a bunch of tight clothes, and i said i'd wear them. they said i was whipped. i don't think so, to me it just seems like an easy thing to do for the one you love, plus it seems kinda kinky and fun anyway.

so i must ask, do you think i'm whipped?

Absolute Power please just read it, its not that long so far.

quote:
me and my brother playing DOA.

Me: man, this is not the game for me, i never block.

Josh: i need the practice anyway.

Me: HA! fear my repeated rolling kicks to the head move!

Josh: You're going down.

Me: i know.

remember Crispin jokes and am i whipped!
got it memorized?

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!
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Sunday, May 14, 2006

another post.
well today was a day, much like most other days. i beat Visage, so now i'm just leveling up. it got really hard again, being as i couldn't beat him without dying, so i'm leveling up like 10 levels, so that i can slauughter my enemies again.

my bro wasn't around today, so no DOA this week i think, being as he words the late shift, so i only see him rarely. i guess i can wait a week...

man, i'm always waiting.

i talked with my girl for 3 and a half houurs this mourning, then just 1 and a half tonight, she had to get off early, plus my mom took her phone and didn't get hoome until late so i had to call my love an hour late, then she got off early so i'm pretty lonely and sad right now.

[looks at TV] what is it with Crispin Feeman and patting soft spoken girls on the head? at least Eureka doesn't repeat her name a lot, though i could see her being a robot thingy easily.

damn, look at him run up tthat LFO and beat the crap out of some random guy. Crispin kicks ass!

i think people need to make Chuck Noris jokes, only using Crispin Freeman! cause he is awesome!

i found my other training glove, so now i can train again, i want my body to be very good so my love can enjoy every inch of me. i mean i know she will regardless, but still i want to look good for here.

but i couldn't train well tonight, i hurt my right elbow on this point metal thing in my dad's recliner, and when i tried punching i caused a lot more injuries in my left hand than usual, i always bust a few vessels but this time its a large injury.

i've also started drinking a lot less soda, drinking tea and water instead, it is said it will cause you to lose at least 10 pounds, i hope my ass and chest get flatter.

i'm trying to learn more songs since my love loves my voice and really loves hearing me sing. so that is my new mission.

Absolute Power please read it, i really need support right now.

quote:
a very flirty female friend and me, we have been comparing hotness of Kingdom Hearts characters.

Her: if you were Axel i'd just kiss you to death!

Me: please do that! that sounds like the best cause of death ever.

in reality i'd never kiss someone other than my someone, so i'd only like to die like that by her lips.
that is if i had to die, i'd rather live and get a whole bunch more the next day!

i'll leave you with that.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!
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Saturday, May 13, 2006

2000[8] hits.
i have so many, yet i'm getting so few visitors now, i sure hope its just the fact that its the end of the year of school, because i'm really trying to be on.

now i may be able to see my girl, i sure hope so, this whole yoyo of happiness is really getting tough.

but i sure hope things work out, i mean i really wanna see her, and her me of course. man, i sure hope life is cutting me a break here.

but then again the relationship ewe have now isn't that bad, we're both happy, seeing eachother is just a gift.

i really wanna watch my new DVDs, but i'm trying to savor them, i'm only watching six eps a week, but thats still too many in the long run, because i really like this series and i want the newness and joy to last, but at the same time i'm addicted i hear the stupid song in my head, and the characters too, damn life is wierd, that one thing can make you happy, yet sad at the same time.

i'm stuck on Shining Tears, stupid Visage. why are the bosses so hard out of no where in games like this? i really wish the computer character understood the concept of dodging, or that i didn't have to alwaysplay as Xion, Kiener is cooler.

i do like the singer gave me a bird for the one i love in the game Mao, yes give the cat-girl a bird.

Xion: Moa, where is that red bird i gave you as a sign of my love for you?

Mao: [cheeks puffed out] i like, totally don't know!

yes Mao, she has the best quotes ever like "i never knew you could control the weather doc, Freakin awesome!" or "theres super ultra big massive trouble coming our way!" and when you pick her she goes "i'm so psyched!"

Kiener goes "death before dishonor!" which gets annoying real fast! but he does wear a belly shirt, a cross necklace and has white hair and an eye scar, add to that his Sephiroth style katana and you got an awesome dude!

but no matter who you pick you die, because Visage's attacks are impossable to dodge, but i can just slowly weaken him until i win!

Absolute Power it a revolution!

quote:
me and my GF flirting.

Her: sorry i'm such a pevert.

Me: its okay, your the pervert just for me and only me.

i know, i have a sad sense of humor.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!
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Absolute Power ch.5
Absolute Power
Mission: 5
Enter Sarin!

Head of the board: (over Vid-Phone) …And that is why we need you here immediately Mr. Wind!

Aveian: Fine I’ll be there immediately.

Kit: So you’re leaving so soon, Commander?!

Aveian: What can I say, it’s my duty. I’m leaving you in charge while I’m gone, Captain.

Allenby: (waving good-bye) Come back soon Aveian!!

Aveian shuts the door behind him.

Aveian: So sweet, maybe you’re on to something Kit.

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Aveian: So what was I needed for?

Head of the board: Commander Wind, Black Vulpine is going broke, we can’t maintain this relationship if we get nothing in return!

Aveian: So in other words, you’re saying you need money?

Head of the board: Correct, if you want to speak in lamense terms.

Aveian: And how do you expect me to get this money?

Head of the board: Frankly Commander, I don’t give a damn, but unless you do, we’ll have to terminate this little deal!!

Aveian: Fine, if you’re giving me a ultimatum, then I have no choice, I’ll get your money.

Head of the board: Well, if you’re going to be so cooperative I’ll give you a little help. (Hands him a disk) on this is the information of a little business partner of ours, deal with him and we’ll fill your order.

Aveian: How kind of you.

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Aveian: (on cell phone) Hey, Kit?

Kit: (on Vid-phone) Yeah, what’s up man?

Aveian: We’ve got orders. We’ve gotta meet up with an “associate” of are little friends at Black Vulpine. We’ll meet in Germany. That’s where he’s supposed to be. I’ll send the coordinates.

Kit: Alrighty, see you there in about a day.

Allenby: So we’re off to Germany!

Kit: I can tell, this is gonna be very interesting.

Allenby: You guys seem independent enough, why are you taking orders?

Kit: It’s from B.V. (sighs) and we need their suits so for right now we’re not in control.

Allenby: Well don’t worry, as long as we’re together everything will be alright!

Kit: Allenby… Thanks.

Allenby: No prob.

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Aveian: (in ship on Vid-phone) Sylven, I smell a rat.

Sylven: What, you don’t trust my organization?

Aveian: I don’t trust anyone.

Sylven: I didn’t trust them either, I was sent here to spy on you and see what you were up to. I think they’re planning something.

Aveian: Right now we lack the proper resources to launch a effective coup, so for now we should play along.

Sylven: Until when?

Aveian: Until we acquire the resources.

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Kit: So Aveian, what’s the plan? What are we doin’ here?
Aveian: The guy’s name is “Alrock,” we’re suppose to find and apprehend him, then bring him back to Black Vulpine Headquarters,

Kit: Alrock, Alrock, I know I’ve heard that name before.

Aveian: I know I remember it too.

Kit: Damn, I hate having to work for these bastards. It doesn’t feel right.

Aveian: I know, but we have no other choice if we’re going to put up a fight against Domon.

Allenby: Well, we at least have to find this guy. What we do with him afterwards is up to us but we should make sure he’s safe first. I’m sure they’re not relying on you alone to do this.

Kit: Then it’s settled, let’s go bag us a bounty!!

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The man: So, do you think they have any idea.

Domon: of course not, they’re idiots.

The man: Sora, is the new weapon ready?

Sora: (Black haired spy) Yes. He’s being held right now.

Mercenary 1: What you don’t think we’re strong enough?

The man: That’s not it, just worry about your money.

Mercenary 2: It doesn’t matter; as long as you keep up on your end of the deal we won’t question your motives.

The man: Good, that’s just how I like it! Aveian, you’re in for a surprise.

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Aveian: This is the place.

Kit: Damn it, I know I’ve been here before!

Aveian: I know, but we have to keep moving.

Weapons drawn, Aveian kicks the door open and he and Kit storm in.

Alrock: Hey there Kit!

Profile:
Marane Alrock
Age: Over 50 but he looks 30
Height: 5’ 11”
Voice: (Kakashi, Naruto)
Body: He’s pretty skinny, but he is also muscular, not really Mr. Universe, just lots of definition and no mass.
Clothes: Big puffed out white lab coat, tight black T-shirt, cloth pants, gloves, and shiny ankle high-boots.
Face: Ice blue eyes, with always small pupils, blonde hair, slicked back over his ears, its ends about half-way down the back of his neck. His teeth are unnaturally white and he has pronounced canines like two of his creations, he wears little armless glasses half way down his nose.
Personality: Marane is very cocky, he is always self assured and calm, he never gets scared and is always smiling, he is also a bit of a pervert, not really out going, just thinks very sexually.

Kit: (Eyes turn red) You!!!

Alrock: that’s right!

Kit rushes up and grabs Alrock by the head ramming him into the cement wall behind him.

Kit: You’re the bastard that fucked with me and my sister’s genes!!!!

Alrock: Don’t forget Aveian!

Kit tightens his grip, blood starts running down Alrock’s head.

Alrock: Go ahead kill me, but then you won’t get your reward.

Aveian: You know about the deal?

Kit, back to normal lets him down.

Alrock: What, you think I’m that stupid? I knew that B.V. would betray me just like Negeta did. And to think I made him a new weapon and everything.

Aveian: (point’s gun at him) Start talking.

Alrock: Negeta came to me and asked me to make another weapon like you, so I did. As did those idiots at B.V. And of course now neither of them are here to help me.

Aveian: So where’s this weapon?

Voice: ALROCK!!!

Alrock: Well, looks like the party is startin’ guess you’ll get to see. Sarin, it’s time to wake up.

Profile:
Sarin (Sare-In)
Age: Unknown
Height: 6 foot 3
Voice: (Zechs, Gundam Wing)
Body: skinny, thin arms, flat stomach, hard pecs, oh yeah, and two huge black angel wings.
Clothes: Albel from Star Ocean, only with no gauntlet and steel claws on both hands.
Face: Hair like Sesshomaru, with red eyes and a mask like Juromaru, only with holes instead of slits for air.
Personality: you’ll see.

A door opens and we see Sarin chained to the ground by his hands and neck.

Alrock: Sarin, it’s time to spread your wings!

Sarin’s eyes open and he raises his head, he spreads his wings then snaps the chains on his wrists then breaks the one on his neck.

Soldiers rush in.

Soldiers: Wings?!

Sarin flies forward and sinks his claws into the soldiers before they can fire off many shots.

Kit: What the hell have you created?

Alrock: The perfect weapon, better than you. Very good Sarin, now go back.

Sarin: No.

Alrock: What?!

Sarin: I’m not going to fight for you anymore.

Alrock: How dare you!

Sarin: You’re too weak to fight for yourself; you need me for that, but I’m not going to be your tool any longer.

Alrock: But I created you!

Sarin looks over himself.

Sarin: Thanks a lot.

Kit: This is it; you’re comin with us back to Black Vulpine!

Sarin: If you two are working for Black Vulpine then you’re my enemy too.

Kit: (Readies his blade) So you wanna end it right here?

Sarin: No. I know you two are pilots; I’ll fight you in my Gundam.

Kit: First we gotta straiten some stuff up with your creator here.

Sarin: NO, we fight now.

Kit: Look pal…

Aveian: No, I’ll fight him you take care of Alrock.

Kit: No way, I’ll take angel-boy here!

Aveian: You take Alrock, that’s an order from your superior.

Kit: Fine.

Aveian: BlackStar awaken!

A mobile armor drops from the ship. It has a bottom like the Zeong only jagged like a stealth bomber and with a Sazabi style particle gun instead of the duel beam guns, three clawed hands that when the claws are closed form a triangle large rectangular shoulder armor with pointed ends and a torso and head like the Kampfer minus the horn. The whole suit is black on lighter black.

Aveian jumps in.

Aveian: What’s up old friend, ready to kick some ass?

Sarin: Now it’s my turn.

A black Gundam rises up, it has the body of DeathScythe Hell with custom’s forearms and legs. It has huge black angel wings instead of the bat ones and a heat scythe and clawed fingers.

Sarin: Reaper Gundam.

Sarin’s Gundam initiates the Mobile Trace System. His suit is black with a black angel feather on the chest outlined in white.

Sarin: So, are you ready to die.

Aveian: I’ve been ready for 12 years now, (shoves throttle forward) but somehow an opportunity hasn’t presented it’s self yet.

Kit: Talk Alrock: what’s with the wings?

Alrock: What’s with the eyes, fangs and claws?

Kit: Those aren’t permanent!

Alrock: So he’s an improvement.

Kit: And how come you look the same as you did 12 years ago?!

Alrock: I made you, I made Sarin. I’m a very good doctor. (Shift to the battle) right now two of my creations are fighting for supremacy, let’s see with one wins.

BlackStar rushes at Reaper. Aveian opens the claws and grabs the scythe, yanking it out. Then he aims the beam gun in the other hand at Reapers chest.

Aveian: Game over.

Sarin: Not yet!

Sarin swings the scythe throwing Aveian back.

Aveian: Bad move.

BlackStar’s shoulders open and reveal missiles as do a pod that slides up on each hip. Aveian fires a huge barrage.

Sarin: EEEEERRRRRAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!

Sarin rushes strait through, missiles impacting, armor shredding, Aveian fires the particle gun in the center of the waist, taking out a section of Reapers left shoulder and body.

Sarin: Die!!

Sarin’s scythe cuts off BlackStar’s right arm.

Aveian: Die!!!

Aveian fires BlackStar’s left arm tearing off Reaper’s right arm and the scythe.

Sarin: I’m not dead yet!

Sarin blasts forward and digs his claws into BlackStar, Aveian fires the waist gun into Reaper blowing it’s legs off.

Aveian: (panting) Looks like…

Sarin: …It’s all over.

Both suits fall from the sky.

Alrock: A tie; didn’t see that comin’.

Kit: Aveian!!

Allenby: Aveian!!

The two of them run out to his suit.

Kit: Aveian! Are you alright dude?!

Aveian: (coughs) I could use a smoke.

Kit: (whips around) No you don’t!!

Alrock stops dead.

Alrock: Go ahead; bring me to those fools at Black Vulpine. You know what they have planned.

Kit: Yeah, I do. That’s the problem. So… just get out of here. But, if you get captured by Negeta or B.V. I swear I’ll kill you before you have a chance to ruin someone else’s life!

Alrock: Roger, come Sarin!

Sarin: (rising from his suit) No.

Alrock: WHAT?!

Sarin: Like I said before, I’m not your tool anymore. I’m living for myself from now on. Deal with your problems yourself. Be a man for once.

Alrock: Sarin your mine, my creation, my tool, MINE!!!!

Sarin: Not any more.

Sarin jumps back into his Gundam; it shudders and rises then flies off.

Aveian’s ship flies down, Kit climbs on with Aveian supported on his shoulder followed by Allenby.

Kit: Have fun.

Aveian: Don’t get caught, or else.

Allenby: See ya later Doc!

Lines drop and pick BlackStar up.

Alrock: Damn, my life sucks.

Kit: (lays Aveian down on the couch) You gonna be alright Commander?!

Aveian: After all we’ve been through do you really think I’d die now? (Lights one up)

Kit: Yeah, we can’t get rid of you so easily!

Allenby: So where are we off to next Commander?

Aveian: Italy, right after me and my armor recover.

Allenby: Right!! Italy it is! Come on Kit!!

Allenby grabs his wrist and pulls him off toward the cockpit, Kit looks back at Aveian smiling wide and gives him a thumbs up. Aveian sits up a little and returns the sign then falls back down on to the couch.

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The man: How did our little plan go?

Sora: The plan failed sir. The doctor escaped and his weapon ran off.

The man: Is that so? Well, this is quite unfortunate, (looks at Sora) but I think I know a way of getting over the loss.

Sora: I think it would be more beneficial to focus on the operation, wouldn’t it?

The man: (advancing towards her) Now come on, we can work anytime, let’s play!!!

George: I’ve located Kit Sune and Allenby. They are moving towards Italy, the Commander and his Suit are completely inoperable. Allenby is yet to activate her Gundam. I request clearance to pursuit them.

The man: (turns around) (sighs) Fine, track them down and defeat him, kill the Commander, save the Captain for me and the girl for Domon.

George: (Bows and opens his cape) As you wish leader! Those knaves shall meet defeat in Italy!

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(Ending music)

Sarin: Negeta Zeru, Marane Alrock, Kit Sune, I shall defeat you all and finally be free of all my chains.

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Sylven: (looking up at a unfinished Mobile Suit) Soon Kit, very soon.

Ja Ne

(Outlaw Star next episode music)

Foxxy: So far we’ve seen Kit and Aveian’s Suits and fighting, but what about Allenby? Well you’ll see next time! Aren’t you excited? Well you better be, because I’m not cutting these promos for nothing! Next Episode: Nuns and Roses! You better get ready!


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Friday, May 12, 2006

stuff.
my big bro's birthday was yesterday, he's 31 now. i got him a me and my dad got him a 360 with the hard-drive, DOA 4 and another controller.

problem is someone else got him that too. see his ex-girlfriend and his current one bought him one too, and DOA, so yeah everyone was suprised.

we went to an all you can eat BBQ place, i had a plate of meat, then two of fruit, i'm trying to eat healthier. i actually ate more than my bro, which is wierd.

on the way home my bro bought me a bottle of Bawls, my favorite drink ever! i meal its called Bawls! you can't get better than that! plus its healthier than coke anyway.

and i didn't get sick to my stomach! i'm stronger, yay!

my dad was gonna get him an ice cream cake, but the ice cream dudes screwed it up, so my dad came home really pissed. he looked like Paulie from "The Sopranos," he was gonna go back and yell at them but me and my bro made enough jokes he realized how silly it would be to do that.

yeah so me, my bro and his girlfriend watched a few episodes of "Princess Tutu," and discussed the shows we're embarassed we like because they're meant for girls we both said "Chobits," and i said "SuperGALS," i love that show, my brother didn't really like it when he watched a few episodes. i tried to convince him "Blue Gender," didn't suck, but to no avail. i told him that i just bought the Chobits Box set and he asked if he could borrow it and burn the discs, he said he'd burn me EVA on DVD if i did, so i mean why not let him?

the whole time there i was thinking about my girl, seeing my bro's girlfriend always cuddling up to him, her arms always around his chest and her chin his shoulder, it made me feel all warm and fuzzy, yet sad kinda, i mean its really cute and romantic, and it romantic, and it really made me wish my girl was here, to be all cuddly with me, man, i love seeing couples in love, but it reminds me how physically alone i am, i can't wait until i have her body with me, to go with her heart, they really are grerat accessories ya know.

for some reason i though of that literally for a second, bad images.

well the whole time i watched the clock, cuz i knew i was gonna be late, i knew she'd miss me, i knew she'd cry, and sure enough she was sobbing when i called, but i cheered her up, she cried a few more times, but she explained it was PMS, which i expected, it is that time for her. but we were very happy in eachothers company, like usual. i'm so lucky to have her.

readAbsolute Power my GF does and she's awesome!

Quote:
me and my brother watching a little kid place with a large butter knife.

Me: he's going to stab himself.

Josh: Yeah.

Me: at least the knife is blunt on the end.

Josh: but its serrated.

Me: Yeah, so it will cause blunt force, stabbing, and cutting injuies, and since its serated it will be really hard to close and keave a nasty scar.

Josh: Probably.

Me: its like the ultimate injury, its like an adorable puppy covered in fluffy kittens!

me, my bro and his mate burst out laughing.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

death of a happy summer.
yes, i do believe now i will not be seeing my love in person anytime soon.

so now summer is looking a bit, well not happy. i was so looking forward to my little vacation of love, but it seems now that that will not be happening.

see her parents do not like our relationship, therefore they don't want me to see her. so i was to act as another person and then see her, but then finacial problems got in the way...

see its expensive to go on such a trip, and my mother was unsure if we had sufficent funds for such a journey, so informed her of the lengths that i and my love were going to for this meeting, worst mistake i've ever made.

see i was expecting "oh, how romantic, if you mean that much to eachother then i'll try and get you there." instead i get "i'm not helping you sneak around, its not good..." so i know i can't trust her now. i hate her for saying that, i hate myself for thinking things would work if i said that, i'm really miserable on the inside right now.

i mean my girl makes me feel all better while we're talking, but as soon as i get up the next morning i'm sad again.

i really hope another plan happens, this time i'll lie too, i can't trust my mom, so i have to keep her in the dark. i have no problem decieving such a heartless person as to deny me my only true desire.

if nothing happens, i can be happy like this, its just losing that dream, that idea of finally finding true paradise in the arms of one who loves me, and instead to only hear her voice, yes quite a downer.

we both cried, for a while. we just cried, while we tried to make the other stop crying, it was kinda cute in retro-spect, trying to stop the other from crying, even though your own face is drenched in tears.

i sure hope i get to see her soon, i know we'll stay together no matter if we see eachother this summer, next summer, or in 4 years, we'll still be in love, its just we want to share it physically. and is that so wrong?

i finally got my DVDs today, so i may watch a few. hopefully that willhelp divert me from the shards of broken dreams lodged in my concious mind.

pray for me, for i need all the help i can get if i am to see my love. [i realize its cliche and probably lame but desperate men will always come to god]

if i don't go see her this summer i'll ask if my mom will just go vacation on her own, leave the phone so i can still contact my love. because if i went anywhere but into the arms of the one most dear to me it would feel like a replacement, i'm going here in direct contrast to seeing her, and i don't want to cry in public, or feel my heart ache anymore, its her place or mine, no where else will do.


lets hope for her's shall we?

Quote:
this is a conversation between me and my love.

Me: [cutely] you're such a dumbass.

Her: [teasing] Meanie.

Me: but you're an adorable, lovable, affectionate, sweet, and romantic one. you're my dumbass and i love you.

read Absolute Power its the ultimate orginal thing to do.

AP is all up to date on the link too.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!
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Monday, May 8, 2006

beginning life crisis.
for spme reason right now i kinda feel bad. i mean at school they keep telling me that next year i gotta figure out what i wanna do with my life next year.

i mean since i was little i wanted to be a Crypto-Zoologist, i wanted to find nnew animals, i wanted to find Bigfoot. but now i don't know, i don't know what i want to be, being that doesn't seem so great anymore. and it kinda scares me.

now i kinda wanna be a voice actor, everyone tells me i would be good at it, but i know iits a 1 in a million thing. i know i don't have any chance of being one, but i just don't know what i want to do with my life now.

my girl is a really good artist, she wants to take classes and become an animator, i know if she did i might be able to be a VA or a writer, b ecause i know i'd do good at those, but once again i know both are pretty much dead ends.

i mean how much of a chance would i get? probably none, i mean if everyone who wanted to be a VA was one there'd never be a character with the same voice ever.

so basically my future is my biggest fear now. i'm afraid i'll be a failure, or that i'll end up in some worthless job that i'll wake up ever day hating, but have no way out of.

but i do have love, my one and only strength, the only thing that makes me look forward to the future. because i finally have it, i finally have lips that want to taste me, arms that want to hold me, and a heart that wants to own me.

its the exact opposite of what my life used to be like, i used to know i'd grow up and be a Crypto-Zoologist and possibly die a virgin that had never been kissed, because it was impossible anyone would ever love me.

now i have a loving, affectionate mate who loves me and wants me, but i'm unsure of the future i will share with her.

i don't know where i'm going, i have no idea what i'm going to do. my future scares me. i can't see past tommorrow really.

i have no idea what i'm going to do.

will i be a VA?

will i be a wriiter?

will i be a Crypto-Zoologist?

or will i just live off the money my soon to be famous girlfriend?

well whatever my future holds, whatever road i go down, i know she'll be there beside me, holding my hand. and i can't be afraid if she's with me.

so the future doesn't scare at all.
[but still] nothings like before.

[i want her to] hold me
[if she does i don't care] whatever lies beyond this morning
[because it] is a little later on

well i'm done with that.

read Absolute Power at least i'm doing it right.

quote:
me 7th grade science teacher told me that Crypto-Zoologists aren't real scientists, and none of the animals i belive in are real.

Me: i will find Bigfoot, and when i do i'm taking it to her house so it can throw poop at her windows.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!
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Sunday, May 7, 2006

all love. [as opposed to 99% love like usual]
i sure love posting, and i'm glad you guys like reading it, i sure hope that its that less people are on for some random reason, and not that less people are coming on purpose.

well i talked a lot with my love today, which of course has put me in a very good mood, i'm all warm and fuzzy inside, i can't stop smiling and my heart's all fluttery. biy is it nice to be in love.

all of you commenters seemed to think i did5n't know her reason for sadness. i knew it well, she missed me, she always misses me, so she was sad that her father cut her off from me, so she missed me, and when i fell asleep, so did she, but she didn't wake up as fast as me, so thats why her dad answered, and told me she couldn't talk.

so i called this morning as soon as i woke up and talked until i had to leave for my dad's, then called her back up as soon as i got home.

she got tired so she asked for a half hour nap, which i gave her, i called back and no one answered so i waited 10 minuutees and called back, and i was met with her sobbing, cuz she was afraid i wouldn't call back but i cheered her up, i love her so much. its nice to know i can make her so happy. she makes me really happy too.


her dad made her hsang up again, she may have a friend call me, or not, i don't know.

as for me being an emotional masochist i don't think so. i may like to be teased and embarassed, but thats because i think its fun, i don't like pain, and besides, i'm so open anyway, its very hard to embarass me, i just like to be played with, but i do now want to give a little back, at first this was a one-sided desire, but now shhe REALLY likes that plan.

i'm glad she does, because i mean it wouldn't be very fun if she didn't like it! i want her to enjoy it, because i like to please, like the good dog i am. plus like i said, she always gives back more, so i'm just really digging my own grave. she will get me back even worse, which is really what i'm looking most forward too, well actually i just want her to have a few marks to rememberr me by, on her face, neck, chest and arms, so that she'll be blushing in public too, i realize for ever mark i leave on her i'll probably get like 12, but still, i know she'll look cute all decorated up.

man do i love her, she just makes me so happy, even if i'm completly pissed, miserable, or depressed, if i think of her i become all locve struck and happy. i get weak just hearing her kisses on the phone, and when she tells me everything she plans to do to me, as does she when i tell her my plans.

it feels good to be in love, but it feels even better to know that you're loved back.

Absolute Power its the second greatest thing i've ever done.

quote:

Me: i want your marks all over me, i want everyone who sees me to know just how weak i am against you, because being your's the greatest accomplishment i've ever made.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!
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Saturday, May 6, 2006

tell her to say!
hot princessxoxo

we can't let her leave!

please tell her to stay.
she must know she is wanted!
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okay....
i got very few comments yesterday, probably because i haven't visited anyone in a while, so i will visit you because i said i will, plus i do need the visitors. i'm sorry i've been so lazy, i guess i have no excuse.

i had a kinda lame day since i updated, i waited a long time to talk with my love, because i figured out i'll pretty much be able to see her, and definatly for longer than before. i used priceline and i actually asked her about hotels to know the best one to stay at, being as she'd know, she lives there.

but then she got tired early, and told me to call back, so i did and after 2 minutes her dad made her hang up, so i was gonna call back in ten minutes, after she would be done with her chores, but i almost fell asleep, so i ended up calling a half hour later, and her dad and sister picked up, and they kept asking who i was, so i freaked out and hung up, re-thought my plan, tried again in 15 minutes and was told she couldn't talk.

the worst part was that when i called back that first time she sounded so sad, so i really wish i could have comforted her. i'm really sad that she could be crying now and i can't help her, thats what i'm really sad about, i really want her to be happy, her laugh is so cute, and i love the sound of her voice when she falls asleep happy. i don't want her to cry herself to sleep.

well i guess i'll just have to suck it up and be a man, i'll wait till i can talk with her tommorrow, i have to be sttrong, i mean she's the one crying, so what do i have to bitch about?

as to what was said in the few comments i got.

when i say we will "play," i mean cute stuff, kissing, writing on eachother, leaving hickies, sticking on temp tattoos, dye hair, paint nails, wear eachothers clothes, her putting the dog collar she gave me and leash she bought herself to use, i mean i want her to show off what she did to me too!

and if i get 'em i will have pictures, which you all will see, because like i said i like the whole embaracement thing.

and now i do plan to get her back, i've learned my kisses can make her weak too, and my words too, i can make her weak, which means i can mark her up. of course once her mind clears up she will get me back, but i'm counting on that.

yes i like to be tortured, teased, used, played with, owned, kept. i'm not sa dominator, and i don't want to be. i'm her cutie'puppy, and i'm a good boy, because i want treats, though sometimes i act bad because i like the way she punishes me too.

for the record i hate getting hit, so there will be no spanking, but the binding i'm looking forward too!

my friends Kitty and Stacy suppoort my relationship, i must hit them up for funds, i need finacial aid if i am to truely enjoy my love's quite desirable body.

well thats it.

Absolute Power read it, its one way to be original.

quote:
my GF talikng asbout when she moves here, and plans to sneak into my house.

Bev: do you have a fence?

Me: Yeah?

Bev: Can i jump it.

Me: of course you can, your mexican, you learned to jump fences before you could talk.

she loves when i make mexican jokes.

HAIL ZEON!!!!
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