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Birthday
• 1990-02-12
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• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
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• J-D, Got it memorized?
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Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
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• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Thank you.
it seems once again me and my favorite rival Myui have called off the debate, though its more like i called it off because i didn't want to pull a Bill Maher and go off on a tangent so long i become marginalized and/or basically lose my spouncers [readers] but it seems like we both respect eachother in the end [thats whai interpretted any way, i could be dead wrong] and thats really all i want, is for people to see what i'm saying and aknowledge the logic, i think i've gotten that, so on to much more important topics, like masterbation.
yep, me and Bev are dueling over who can keep from masterbatingg the longest, because i think Bev just enjoys messing with me psychologically being as she can't do it physically yet. but yeah, basically we're both supposed to be self-service free for 30 days [damn catholic beaner, no masterbation starting a week after Easter and lasting 3/4 the length of lent, its some sort of crazy female beaner plan in my mind] which i think i can do, i went 28 days after the first time i talked to her on the phone, and thats just because i wanted to, i think with my level of foolish pride i can makee it 30 days on a bet, i already beat what did me in last time, a phenomenon i guess i'd call a "wet-daydream" [ i guess i should say now this is pretty much adult content filled, but you figured that out by now, hell, my site is always full of innapropriate things] i went thrugh that little bit of mind-fuck [literally] sunday night, the first night i tried to abstain, i ignored it, even though i really didn't want to. i'm sure that this will do me a bit of good to take a bit of time off as far as the self gratification goes, i mean i really don't like myself for doing it, it sort of makes me feel pathetic because of the stigma they always attach to it. ay, that and the Pink song, i don't care if its meant to speak of guys i am nothing like, the chorus still makes me feel like a tool so i guess i'm going to gain some self-respect in the next 28 days.
Bev on the other hand, i don't hold much hope out for her making it, she's not like me in this respect, she has no qualms about her activities, no regrets and likes doiung it far more than i do, hell, yesterday she was acting a bit "desperate" and thats after only 2 days [at least i know now i can always blue-ball her if she pisses me off once we're living together] i really won't mind whether she makes it or not, she only is doing this i think cuz i constantly bitch about my self addiction, so i think she is really trying to help me. its really kinda sweet if you think about it, because she even likes me defiling myself than i like doing it, she tells me so quite often, i even use it as an excuse when i'm feeling like shit for doing this, i say to myself "at least i make Bev happy" so the fact that she'd give up two things she likes so much for me is really sweet. she is a great girl.
i'd also like to thank you readers for supporting me, i've got such loving and supportive comments like "Don't hurt yourself" and sempai said he was betting on me, because "what kind of sempai would i be if i didn't?" its really nice to have friends with a sense of humor. fuck, who knows, maybe if i quit tossing off for good i won't need my contacts anymore!
but i'm not really complaining asbout my situation, its inspiring me to be much more passionate in my communications with my lover, as well as i'm getting great ideas for art, so if laying of the solo hand-shaking will make me more creative then i'm good, at least in my time of self-and-love induced orgasmic drought i will create true arts of senual and desperate cries for carnal pleasure, i'm sure my baby will quite enjoy the love letters she inspired me to write by telling me to cut myself off. i'm very happy i'm doing this, because it does seem to be helping a bit, or it could just be that i'm doing all this solely for her, so the fact that i keep thinking about her to justify my abstenance is making me feel all lovey-dovey because i have Beverly on my mind, so i guess in a round about way Bev is making me darker and lighter at the same time.
because now i feel really wierd, i feel so pure and virginal [i am a virgin after all] i feel all clean and sacred, which feels really wierd, i'm starting to feel like Misato, i really want to defile myself and become dirty, and hey, i'm sure Bev would be happy to be my Kaji [they have some things in common]
well this sure wasn't a debate, sorry to disappoint anyone.
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the discussion
Bev: ...No orgasm, you can play with yopurself all you want, just don't finish.
Me: Yes, i'm going to be a tease to myself, i'll just not start, thats easier.
visit my beloved beaner, because hell, this whole post was about her.
HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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