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Sunday, May 6, 2007


i must not be person.
i eally don't get how i become tired all the time like this, i'm most certainly not a morning person, being as i really hate the morning every time i wake up, it makes me miserable and despise life for a moment. so you'd think it'd be a night person, yet here i am all tired and its only 2. maybe its all the time i don't sleep that catches up with me now, i reallu7 have no idea whats wrong with me most of the time, i guess i'm merly full of wierd and other strange things, i just defy logic an d all attempts to understand reasoning i occassional display.

twas another uneventful day for me in the most part, doesn't mean i won't be able to write a full-length post about it, who knows, it might even be interesting. i'm just glad to have an outlet to rant into and to actually have people who listen and understand me.

yeah as far as the aborted i've seemingly put that in the past, though i haven't had to deal with that wretched bitch today so i guess that could be part of it. i really despise her. when we were having "lock-down" drills she said she'd save her ass before trying to protect us. i have to say at this moment if she tried that during an actual violent intruder thing i'd probably drag her into the line of fire if i believed y death was inevitable, i'd love to take her with me. she sits there spouting all kinds of scandalous thoughts and ideas yet censors me for saying and drawing "soft bondage" [fluffy blanket wrapping Bev up] and "my face would be all covered in teal kisses" this woman says that she genuinely hates Hillarly Clinton in the truest most evil sense of the word, she descripted this in detail. she yells at people for saying "God bless you" when a person sneezes, she is just a bitch and an offensive one at that, safter seeing a cat-fight she told the girls in the class "you're better than that, let the boys fight it out, they're made stupid and strong so they can do that." she is a sad excuse for a person. i'm lucky to know that after this year i'll never deal with her again [hopefully, i don't see any other classes i could have her in]

but enough about that, i'm finally mailing my present to Bev on monday, its a cinco de mayo gift, which i realize will end up being pretty late, but we have have a habit of giving each other late gifts, i think its indearing and cute, plus i had to finish up my pictures for her, which are more risque then my presentation, and i know that she won't cut off half way through. to have a person who understands you and loves you for you, its truly a great thing. i talked with her a bit today, i told her early that i'll want to get back to my gaming, anid to basically make me talk to her, which she enjoys doing anyway, so we talked for a while, up until she absolutely had to hang up, then i got back to my gaming, and called her when i got back home. i must say a day filled with Bev is a truly good day, i'm really looking forwardd to July when i have a week with this person who drives my heart crazy and makes me so happy, to be able to do all the sweet, cyte, fluffy couple stuff i constantly rant and fantasize about, those will be very good days. i'll be so happy to have my first kiss, i really don't care how sad or pathetic to not have my first kiss until i'm practically 18, the fact that it took so long, and that i will share it with a person i truly love makes itr worth it. i'll have to take pictures instead of drawing them of when my face is colored with the shade of her lip gloss, because those will be the moment that get me through senior year, through the year after, and that i will always look back at happily. i mean i do seem to live in the past a lot.

well today under the guise of the fact that i kinda need it for forensics class i boiught myself some lipstick, this is solely for me, not as a present for Bev. its not as if i'm going to wear it in front of people or anything, i just like leaving kiss mark0s too, and i figured it'd be nice to have the right equpment for that. i wanna mark my lover up too, like she will do to me, so i need my own color, and i did find "my color" it suits me very well, it makes me look hot instead of a tranny like the other color i bought, i don't know which one i should use in forensics for lip prints, i think i'll go with the tranny color, don't want to waste the good one, plus its not as if i really care about impressing the ladies, or even banking or imagining they'd be turned on by a guy with the right shade of lip color, i don't get why eye make-up is hotter than lip make up for the gal folk to see on males, but then again i'd feel less wierd wearing that than lipstick in public, but then again i think that is circular reason, its only easier because more guys do it.

so basically the lip color is for a class and for kissing in private, i'm not becoming a tranny. i'd much rather stay the way i am then take on the wrong feminine qualities, so don't fret if you read this sempai, i'm not turning further to the other side.

-Quote-

"i should really learn the downside of pushing yourself."

-me after doing a 6 block fast jog/slow run. [my cardio sucks when it comes to running, i'm better at perpetually climbing stairs.]

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HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!

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