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• 1990-02-12
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• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
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• 2005-03-25
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• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
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• J-D, Got it memorized?
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• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
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• i first saw Gundam Wing
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• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
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• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
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• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
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• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Wednesday, May 9, 2007
chill out sempai.
well i was kinda hoping the you'd read my posts semppai, and i really did try to explain the circimstances of my action involving lip color, but i suppose i may as well go over it again, just incase you read this post as well.
i do not wear make-up [with the exception of concealer] in public, i do not wish to wear make-up in public, i have no plan to wear make-up in public unless Bev puts it on me and in that case its more of the cuteness and forcing me to do embarassing things that i find loveable and atrtractive as well as seductive. the reason i got the lipstick is for my forensics class for a lip-print lab, as well as i just like kissing stuff and leaving marks, i find it really cute and fun, so its not as though i bought it so i could go out on the town and look all sexy in my shimmery pink lipstick, i got it so i could mess around in my house while no one was looking, practice my kissing technique so i can leave cute marks on Bev as she will to me, to kiss letters is send to her and finally for just all around strangeness leaving kiss marks on things. i really have no aspirations of being a tranny, i just really want to kiss my lover up like she'll do to me, and having the ability to leave lip marks on stuff is really fun for me. so i'm sorry if i'm crossing over some line in your eyes sempai, i just hope you think a little higher of me now that i elaborated, but if not feel free to mock me more, its kinda fun!
i am realizing that i am quite feminine, one thing i found interesting is that women are supposedly supposed to think with both logical and emotional halfs of their brain while men only use the logic part. well as you all know the emotional half of my brain is always going, as well as the fact that i am very analytical, so there is another positive female trait i have.
no don't get me wrong peoplezez, i do not want to become a girl, i don't want to dress as one or be mistaken for one, i really just want to adopt what i see are the positive aspects of femininity, while staying with the parts of malehood i like, so i'm saying i want the best of both worlds, like a feminist, or Sanjaya. infact upon seeing Sanjaya i saw what i hope to become, i don't care if he's not America's, he's my idol! and as far as becoming too girly or girly in the wrong way, there is this dude at my school that i would not know was a dude if it were not for his broad shoulders, emo-ness, and the fact he walked out of the male bathroom. i do not want to be like him, i don't want to like like a she-male or a hemaphrodite, i do not want to look like a woman, i want to look like an adorably-cute pretty boy, and i will keep trying to be that, so i will not wear my shimmer lipstick outdoors or in public unless i'm being led around by my lover, and i see that as being a whole nother issue. though i do think i look good in my pink lipstick [ i found my sgade on accident] i do not believe that wearing lipstick is a thing i'd seriously want to do, maybe as a joke, or to show off to some girl that thinks its hot [because i am a showman by nature] but i do not like the conotation i take from myself wearing lipstick, i just seems wrong to me, to do it of my own choice in public, plus even if i did i'd have to keep reapplying cuz i'd just keep kissing stuff and myself, its just not my style, maybe i'll give eye make-up a chance when i havbe a profession helping me, but on my own as far as outside and/or near another person i will not be wearing lipstick unless its about to be put on Bev.
as for Bev we talked a lot more yesterday, mostly after i had fallen asleep she woke me up to sweet-talk me, which i always enjoy, even if i miss out on valuable sleeping time, the time i spend with my lover is even more valuable. she really makes me feel happy inside, to the point of irristability, being that i cant think of her without feeling all warm and fuzzy and happy, it really makes school a lot more tolerable when i hear my beloved's sweet voice buefore i pack-off for edu-macation. having her really makes everything so sweet and perfect, i can't wait till summer, when i can hoold her in my arms and press my lips to hers for the first time in my life. i can't wait to fall alseep next to her and wake-up knowing she loves me because its probably written on at least 27 parts of my body. and in a few years when we will be together every day i know it will make me strong enough to face work and all the hardships of life.
-Quote-
"Strife, hardship, pain, suffering and desperation, these things dissapear when i think of you."
-Me thinking of Bev as a walked out of math class realizing i know nothing
HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!
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