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Birthday
• 1990-02-12
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• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
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• J-D, Got it memorized?
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Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Sunday, August 5, 2007
Love and loyalty.
i've been gone from Bev's side for over a day now and niether of us is exactly coping quickly, we have both be sobbing a lot because of the others absences very well, i must say that my standard equipment of apathy and optimism, soi basically after a while my mind just sort of snaps and i stop feeling sad and just go into i guess what would be a sort of emotional survival mode, but i was truly miserable for a while, i walked through Macaran airport looking in all the gift shops for anything i had seen while was with Bev, bit i could find nothing i recognized. i was so miserable, i felt this horrible pain in every ince of my chest, my world just seemed shattered, like reality itself was broken and the painful shards of my lost dream were piercing my chest, sadly the further way i got from her, i did not feel closer, and even though she essentially said "don't give up" my loneliness did not turn into strength, no matter how much i thought about her.
we also managed to get eachothewr sick, so we're both hacking and sneezing, both our throats hurt and thats sadly the closest contact physically we'll havew for months, sharing a sickness divides by 1900 miles.
i cried pretty much until my MP3 player died [more on that tomorrow] because at that point i had nothing to let me escape the pain, no way to shrug any of it off, so i just snapped and basically lost my emotions for a while. meanwhile Bev horded everything i ever touched a lot, layed down on the bed i slept in and cried for 6 hours straight, then called me and cried for 2 more hours and fell asleep. that level of devotion and love was unimaginable to me, she won't sit where i sat in the car, and can still picture me in all the places i was, she basically is acting like i died, and that is so sweet to me, i'm so happy i have a person as devoted as her, she was sniffng the bed i slept in and refised to get under the sheets because i never did. she now wants to drink out of a cup i gave her the day i left that was from starbucks and a bottle of water i left behind exclusivly and never wanted to change the sheets [her mom did while she was in the shower, that broke her poor little beaner heart.] she also had to erase all the loey-dovey stufdf i wrote on her arm the day i left, i still have3n't bathed an washed it off.
despite the sadness i'm glad i miss her, it feels good to be reminded how much i love her, i was so selfish while planning to go there i did everything except look forward to it, i worried about TV, my dog, video games, but never her. so now i feel redeemed know how much she means to me, pain never felt so good.
she is coping a little better now, we're both just exausted, so i'm going to end this post and about 70% ther normal length, i'll start recalling the tales of my adventures tomorrow.
till then peoplezez, thanks for all coming back.
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"tact was never my forte"
-me
♥ JD Person ♥
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