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• 1990-02-12
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• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
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• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
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• J-D, Got it memorized?
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• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
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• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
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• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
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• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
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• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Monday, September 24, 2007
Cybermen.
thats what i feel like sometimes, a Cyberman, just clunking along with all the other Cybermen doing what we're ordered to without any questioning or resistance.
well i'm back in my mental penetenary, also refered to as high school, and i'm making up all the work i missed, its not really as if i have any complaints, there's a lot less work than i expected, so its not like i'll be running around frantically trying to do it all, it should be pretty easy, but at the same time it just feels so strange to go back to it all, i feel like an alien in a way, which i suppose is not Cyberman-y. i suppose that analogy doesn't hold water, maybe i feel more like Scrooge when the first ghost visited him, just going back and visiting melancoly memories, all of it seems so familiar but at the same time strange, all the people seem more like characters in a dating sim than real people, just popping in for meaningless dialogue then just fading out, in that homogenous mass of people i feel strange, like i don't belong there. its all very strange, i wish i had never been sick.
it wasn't even the fun kinda sick, the kind where you just chill out at home and want to be there, i didn't i wanted to go to school because i knew this would happen, monday i wanted off, so i could finish my project and then write AP all day, instead i wasted a weekdoing no writing on AP as well as acruing all this work i have to make up, this has really not been a good time for me, i spent a week falling behind and being in extreme pain, then i come back and have to play catch-up. life truely is a cruel thing.
and the worst part is that i'm genuinly concerned, i'm in paranoid mode. i really only run on two modes, i'm either paranoid or apathetic, normally when it comes to school i'm in apathetic mode, but i'm worried about my work and i want to try to get it out of the way, i think its because i'm having a bit of trouble on the math remembering all the stuff from last year, being as we're still reviewing stuff i learned last year, but the rounds in my mind just aren't chambering, i just can't fire the shots, my mind seems blocked, and instead of slacking off and using any remaining time today to work on AP or a psych project i feel like putting all that time into trying to figure out my math.
and i must say that probably is the correct thing to do, to get my affairs in order and settle the debts of work i owe, but the fact that i'm contridicting myself soi much and the fact that this stuff has me so scared is really disheartening, i'm usually diseffected to a fault, [hence my claims of apathy] but currently i'm scared and my mind is freaking out, i can't believe i'm so flustered, this never happens to me, i never feel just anxious like this, i might feel afraid or scared in my gut, you know where you get that wrenching pain of fear, but instead i just feel antsy, and the sensation is not appreciated.
i'm really going to try to get to yours guys' sites today, but i'm usually bad at commenting when i'm distracted like this so i'm sorry if my visit isn't all you wished it would be, and i'm going to try to get my usual 3 visits in this week but no promises.
i'm also sorry this was an all-school rant, i try to avoid talking about school as much as possible, but right now i'm just a bit rocked so it really infected my mind.
thank you guys who made Torchwood jokes in your comments, its things like that that get me on here 5 days a week.
-Quote-
"Its my timey-wimey detector, it goes "ding" when there's stuff. it can also cook an egg at 30 paces... wether you want it to or not, i suggest keeping it away from hens, its not pretty when they blow..."
-The Doctor [David Tennant]
peace out peoplezez
♥ JD Person ♥
HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!
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