myOtaku.com: JD Person

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1990-02-12
Gender
• Male
Location
• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
Real Name
• J-D, Got it memorized?

Personal

Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble

myOtaku.com: JD Person

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Motherland.
well once more i sit before the computer having accomplished a mission i set for myself, and yet again i feel like i've gained nothing from doing so.

i just spent a good 5 hours watching the first 3 "Saw" movies, which all of you long-time readers know i've been trying to do for such a long time, and after acquiring them through calm and cold manipulation i decided to view them today. my mother said not to watch them whilst she is around, which was fine, i never planned to have her around when i viewed them. so i sat down alone in a dim room watching Tobin Bell test people's wills to live, and i must admit my expectations were not met, i was neither entertained nor scared, i just was occupied for that length of time.

i guess i just didn't fall for the series like so many others did, it just isn't that special to me. i must admit that the second one was pretty good, and the twists were all clever, its just that whether its true or not, Bev always claims to have seen every twist and turn coming in everything, thusly now when i come across a twist in a plot i feel less engaged and more disappointed, ashamed i didn't see it coming. i suppose i'm just a bad sport or something, i don't like losing, or rather i hate losing too much.

i think rather than saying that i saw them i think the accomplishment lies more in the fact that i didn't miss them now. its more of that fitting in bullshit, no matter how much i pretend to be an independent when given the choice its nice to be with the crowd. i also thinks its kinda funny that the violence didn't affect me much at all, the only one that really got to me was the guy with a key in his eye, other than that my reaction to all the deaths was stoic.

however the overall depressing tone of the movies did irk me a little, that the doctor and cop go through all that work and still die, the only one to ever pass the tests, Amanda justs snaps and goes completely nutso and the guy in the third one was just a vengeance filled freak, his motives were ever a little whack, he lets all the people die, or at least isn't very torn up over their deaths, then offs John, i think he just liked killing people personally. either way i realize they just aren't my style, but in the same light Bev loves em, and a lot of people can't take them so i can sit through them disinterestedly for the right to say my balls are big enough to handle them. another thing i dislike is the Tarentino-esque backwards storytelling at points, watching saw 1 is like watching Reservoir Dogs without the discussions of really large penises. Bev loves suspense and mystery, me, i like action and things in sequential order, give me something that keeps my attention by being fast-paced or interesting and just happens none of this forced "he cut his leg off, that reminds of how i got here..." its just forced, clumsy and choppy. but whatever, Bev loves it, i won't complain too much, its tolerable.

funniest part was during this 5 hour marathon of torture porn i kept thinking of Bev all lovingly, because they are her favorite movies and thusly they remind me of her. its just kinda funny to watch some dude get lit on fire and think "man i love my girlfriend so much, wish she were here." even funnier is whilst i'm indifferent to these films i still want to see number 4 just based off the fact i feel inferior to Bev because she's seen it and i haven't. its just my nature to emulate her, because i love her i view all aspects of her as good and thus i strive to be like her in what ever ways i logically can. but on a different front i want to beat her at things, i always devalue my accomplishments and inflate hers thusly i always feel inferior, she can do much more things than i can, even if i do what i do well, and to those means i want to take any step i can to keep up with her. i find competition in the strangest places.

so yeah, i got pretty much no time with her today, the phone was busy up until torture porn time and right before i popped in the first DVD i got a hold of her, but she was sleepy so i let her sleep, i guess that helped with my fixation on her whilst i watched people die. i did show one adorably pathetic habit though, see when the phone is busy i constantly re-dial, and being as i had no time with her i kept thinking "maybe it won't be busy this time..." as if the "i'm sleepy" conversation never took place, i missed her a lot, damn those movies for providing me with nothing but slight negative feeling revolving around my lover.

i said to myself if i could handle saw i'd try the poo eating girls, but after seeing it [saw] i realize that things don't live up to expectations, so if its LESS enjoyable than i imagined then i think i'll avoid needing therapy, and if i'm indifferent to it like i was saw, then i'd really be afraid of myself.

i've had enough cult fetish porn for one day, and for a long while, unless i can con my dad into taking me to the fourth installment of said torture porn i think i'll just go back to my normal habits for a while.

-Quote-

"oh yes, there will be kittens!"

-top 10 things you'll never hear Jigsaw say [AOTS when Tobin Bell was a guest]

merry thanksgiving fools

♥ JD Person ♥
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