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• 1990-02-12
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• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
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• 2005-03-25
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• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
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• J-D, Got it memorized?
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• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
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• i first saw Gundam Wing
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• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
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• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
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• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
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• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Saturday, December 24, 2005
when ice cracks.
oh boy, today was fun.
least of the fun is that my left contact was damaged, so it kept slipping. buy is it for your vision to keep going in and out.
but most of all was one of my grand plans failed.
for those of you who know me, you know i go out of the way and come up with crazy plans because i'm too shy to go upfront.
like tying my shoes at the bottom because a girl i thought was cute did it and i thought it'd be a good ice breaker.
well, anyway i had this grand plan to make something to hold mistletoe over my head, for obvious reasons.
i had this idea that tons of girls would take advantage of this, that this would be my chance to finally show some sort of warmth or affection towards me, good god was i wrong!
i kind of joked with myself that guy guys would come onto me, i was right.
two gay guys tried to kiss me.
that didn't help me already injured psyche.
the mistle toe didn't even look like mistletoe, it looked like asparagus. which may have been the reason that all the ignored me.
then, while i was emotionally weakened and frail, people kept asking me if it worked.
eventually, i broke. i started crying, a few tears at first, since i was in class, and taking a test, so that got my mind off ot. so i tore it off my head. but then my friend told me to put it back on, not to give up hope.
so i put it back on. now most everyone saw me break down in class, they knew how emotionally fragile i was.
so i sat by all these cute girls i usually talk to with my friend Keef.
i sat down, heart beating and hurting, my eyes full of pain and hope, best puppy dog face, hoping someone would give me at least one pity peck.
i got nothing, when the bell rang my heart sank, then my teacher asked if i had any luck, at that point all the dams broke, tears poured down my face. i put my hoody's hood up to cover my face and walked out of school. my friend did follow me and cheer me up later. but the fact still remains that everyone saw me in the water struggling, and let me drown, no one cared. it hurts. but not because i felt alone, because i got my hopes up, then broken.
i'm strong, but when you're drems break in front of you, i guess a few tears are okay.
]maybe i should learn to accept the real world, in which my idealistic, over romantisied ideas and dreams don't come true.
so i'll survive, no worries. i'll just be limping for a while emotionally.
no hail zeon, to important.
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