myOtaku.com: JD Person

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1990-02-12
Gender
• Male
Location
• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
Real Name
• J-D, Got it memorized?

Personal

Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble

myOtaku.com: JD Person

Saturday, January 28, 2006

the random other post.
in case you don't want to read my story i always post another post.

here's something i stole of sakura5's site.

its a great poem!

Confusion of the Heart

Lost, confused of what I’m truly searching for,
Pain, tears, I try so hard to keep it inside for so long.
Keeping it all locked in ‘till the day I can no more,
Moments of a day, the pain I feel for so long.

Why do I keep in for so long?
Why won’t I allow others in?
My heart is as though its gone so wrong,
I feel as though I’ve done so much to hurt within.

Every night I lay in bed,
Letting all my sadness come out.
Covering a pillow over my head,
Not allowing anyone to hear me shout.

While I sleep, I would get dreams,
That are so wonderful I never want to awake.
I feel happiness, and joy within my dreams,
But I also know a dream is only a fake.

I sometimes feel as though I too am a fake,
A person all made of lies.
Everyone thinks they know me so well, what does it have to take,
To let you all understand I’m just a bunch of lies.

I feel as though I’m being nice for my own selfish needs
But you tell me I am not selfish.
Is my face so obvious for you to see?
So easy that I can not see, that I made a selfish wish.

My aching heart is killing me,
I can no longer hold it deep within.
I made a wish that night to be free,
To take me away from all this pain that I confine within.

I try killing myself,
All alone laying there knowing nothing at all.
Just wanting to disappear from this world by myself,
I slowly slipped away from all four walls.

I look up from my sitting spot,
I look out in the dark, and stillness.
I feel so alone, as though I’ve been shot,
Right before me I see a door in the darkness.

I try to open it, but it won’t open free,
I soon realized it was lock.
I look around in the stillness and found a key,
As the key went in, the door opened and I was in shock.

The door and key was in darkness,
‘Cause I had locked it myself, and never opened it again.
I felt pain and a rush of selfishness,
I awoke in sweat, and started to cry in vain.

All the pain I kept deep inside hurt me so bad,
I could no longer handle it, I sat there crying.
‘Till I felt better, and realized so what if I was still sad,
A goal I must finish even if I feel like dieing.

A guiding light, a gentle breeze,
Blowing through my hair.
I look out at the world, even if my heart freeze,
I will never let you down, and be unfair.

Even if snow begins to build and isolate me,
I know you are melting it away little by little.
With every smile you give me,
I soon will be able to give you my key even it it’s fatal.

I know you will wipe away the pain,
Day by day, and even if it never goes away.
Making you smile is the greatest gift, even when I cry in the rain,
I hope you’ll be there letting me lean on you for always.

No matter how much confusion I may have in my heart,
I hope you’ll always be here with me.
Helping me through and through and always be a part,
Of my life, and set my pain free.

anyone new wanna read my story or do requests for me?

i'm trying to get better at drawing, but not by reading a book, i wanna do it my own, i might ask for help, but i don't want professional souless help, i hope i get better.

i see improvement, but from my level, you can only go up!

i will get better, i just have to practice, study examples, and basically hit it lucky on one version.

even if it was by luck, i just want to see my dreams relized once.

i have all these great images in my mind my hands can't express, and it kills me to be so feeble.

i can only thank Bev for giving me the will to get better, a better writer, a better artist and a better person in general. i'm so greatful for all she's done for me.

well thats all for now!

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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