myOtaku.com: JD Person

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Birthday
• 1990-02-12
Gender
• Male
Location
• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
Real Name
• J-D, Got it memorized?

Personal

Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble

myOtaku.com: JD Person

Monday, February 20, 2006

not so randomness.
i really wanna see Bev this summer, but her parents don't like our relationship, so right now they think we're broken up, they don't know we're more in love than ever.

and it doesn't seem like we want them to find out, being as they may block my number or move Bev to Mexico, i don't know if those were threats or just our paranoid delusions we created, either way not good.

but i still wanna see her so much! every time we talk i fall deeper in love with her. i can't help it, at this point in in to deep to ever fight it, not that i ever wanna try. i used to be in control, i used to log off when i wanted, i used to get her do everything to do, now thats the furthest from the situation, she has me calling whenever she asks, stay up until 2 in the morning just for one more moment with her, staying on the computer all day just so i'll be there if she logs on. she has me trained so well, a loyal dog that comes when called and obdiently follows all requests.

i used to want to be in control, i wanted someone that would give me everything i wanted, unquestioned a subservient, and i got that, she did and was everything i wanted, but slowly she started to infect me, i slowly started to want to make her happy, i went from proud and arrogant to humble and loyal, from proud lone wolf to loyal little puppy. she beat me, she killed me with kindness, she completly and utterly anihilated me. i never stood a chance, and i bet she knew that.

the controls me completly, she knows she does, thats what i love about her, she does everything i want still, because it makes me weaker, and more fun to play with, she does it all in a nice way, just with somewhat evil intenions, that kind of good-bad is what i love, she controls and serves, she does everything, i can never beat her.

well, thats the major thing now, who'd win in a fight, and thats what i'm obesssed with now, i want to fight her, because well, you can nevrer lose when you fight the one you love, if she wins, i win, if i win, i'll let her win, i'm a bottom anyway. i like being done to, not doing to others, she's a top, she likes being in control romantically, like i said, perfect, she wears glittery lip gloss, low cut shirts, and can beat someone shitless, able to beat my ass and kiss my face, in one fluid motion, so perfect.

i have 4-6 monthes to find a way to see her, i will find a way, the only way i could see this failing is if someone else gets to one of us before we do, if i see her this summer, and i give into her love in person, and enjoy all the pleasures of the world with her, 3 more years will mean nothing, i'll wait for her, but i'm afraid that if someone else comes to me before her in person that i'll give into them, i'm weak i don't know how i'd react there. so lets hope for summer.

i talk about her because this blog is about my life, and Bev is my life.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!

and i love Bev!
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