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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
you notice a theme?
i just can't stop gushing about Bev, i mean more than usually, i mean saying me gushing is like saying the ocean is damp.
but for some reason lately she's all i heve on my mind, i used to choose to think about her, she was my life perserever, or my favorite book, something to save me, make me smile or take away the pain, but now, even though she's so far away i can't escape her. she's always in my head, my heart, taking over, i can't escape her. thats what i want in person, i want her to glomp on and never let go, to never let me be free of her warm embrace, a prisoner of love. but now i'm exactly that with out an actual person here. she has so much power.
she knows it too, because i tell her, i want her to know, because i like it, i like the feeling of hopelessness, like i have no choice, no escape, its comforting for me, at certain times i like feeling helpless.
she knows all my weaknesses, how arrogant i get, how cocky i can be and how blind and easy i am to trick then. once again, perfect, i want her to strike when my gaurd is down, suprise attacks are fun, to look forward and back on, i get kinda pissed at the time, but i doubt i could be in person. i tell her that if i say one day that i don't like the food she makes, all that means is find a way to make me like it. everything i hate from others i love from her, in my mind annoyance and romance are very closely related, things that annoy me, if i think of a girl i love doing them, frankly turn me on to be blunty, i like her to push it, abuse your power, we both know you can get away with it, so do, prove to me how helpless and trained i am.
trained, thats what i want, the life a trained dog, to do things because i'm led blindly to do them, kept in the dark when not needed and rewarded unendling for the tricks i do, as long as i get a treat at the end i' cool with it.
i read this story in literacy class, about a arrogant tiger who has a man free him from a cage only to try to eat him, he gives the man 3 chances to get something to say the tiger's actions were unjust, the man asks a tree, a cow and the road, all which say he deserved what he got, then he runs into a jackal, who can't understand what happened, so the tiger lets him live until he understands the situation, but the jackal doesn't understand how the tiger was in the cage, so the tiger jumps in, and the jackal locks the door. the tiger, blinded by his own arrogance is tricked by the seemly stupid jackal, but the cunning jackal had useed his blindness to catch him off gaurd and take advantage of him, Bev, my personal jackal, cept i love it, because if we were there, she'd lock herself in there too, and make sure i never get out, even if i wanted to, then make sure i never do want out.
i'll give one example, see with my silver, poetic tongue i often get her slightly "excited" so to tease her i kep it up until thge begs me to stop, [or i hear her breathe hard] but last night, i like usual asked how i was doing, to wihich i usually get this pathetic little squeak [she doesn't like losing] this time she actually said how good i was doing, and through those means got me to start feeding my ego instead of finishing her off [pardon my bluntness, i realized this about 5 minutes later, toi which i got a cute little giggle and a confident "yep, i got you good, your so easy to trick, and so CUTE!" then i was showered in affection, yeah i lost like usual, i'll never win, and i don't think i want to.
HAIL ZEON!!!!
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