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Wednesday, March 1, 2006


nothin in particular.
i probably will find something to rant about, but at the moment i'm thinking this post will be random.

i believe that the one you love is more important than the feeling of love, being as everything i do i do for Bev, not for love. i do things because she enjoys what i'm doing, i find joy in bringing her pleasure, emotionally and in some random instances physically. if i were doing things for the feeling of love i'd just watch episodes 22-25 of Excel saga all day, that makes me feel love, or i'd draw Foxxy all day, or write my fic, all of those give me a love-like feeling. but what i feel with her is saying "okay" before she even gets done telling me what to do. yes i am in love with the concept of love, but the tangible example is much more alluring than some concept,
and if you know me, saying reality is better than a romantic concept is quite irregular.

i'm drawing some pics to mail to Bev, so she can draw Foxxy perfectly, so i'm doing that now. im doing it for so many reasons, one i'm finally able to draw something for her, like she's done for me a billion times, so its good to get her back. two i can draw for me, the fact i'm able to draw something and it looks half-way like my imagination, so i love drawing now i love doing this now, i love drawing, people used to complain i had no art, for the first time i'm complaining too! i want people to see my art. i'm actually good enough now that i can judge others work by my own, i can tell if i considerate better or worse than mine, thats why i have those two pics Bev made at the intro, to remind me i'm still number two, and i can get better, also that i still belong to her, that i'm hers, and seeing something she made brings a smile to my face.

three, Bev is a better artist than me, i may be able to half ass it out and make an exceptable pic, but Bev does make art, she whoops my ass at that too.

but i am getting better, i made seductive eyes, in fact my whole valentine Foxxy pic looks beautiful, but i know when Bev gets it she'll make art. i give her the worse copy though, i trace the original and then finish it, and she gets the eworse of the two, Sorry bev but i want thegood one! besides you're just going to make a new better one.

i've improved so much, i drew Ra and Draco a while ago and they look so shitty now, it'll be wierd when Foxxy and all the Chib's look shitty.

speaking of like 5 AP character's who needs a new chapter, wants to do art, or has a comment, just talk about AP, and read it on saturdays! i don't post it for nothing! read it!

also i'm almost able to make banners and stuff, i just need a little more help, so help there will be appreciated too.

well, thats all, see it was all random!
i told you!

HAIL ZEON!!!!!

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