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• 1990-02-12
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• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
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• 2005-03-25
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• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
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• J-D, Got it memorized?
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• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
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• i first saw Gundam Wing
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• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
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• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
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• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
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• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Monday, April 3, 2006
same ole, new ole.
the title is random, just like me!
i think some thing is up with me, today we had to write poetry, and of course, as always mine could make Cupid himself vomit with its sugary sweet lovey-doveyness. but then i thought about it, and my poems weren't always cutesy.
see my creative writing teacher is going to make a book of our poems, and i was shy for a second about my uber-lovey lyrics, but then i figured, why not? they seem to be very popular with the fairer sex.
but i thought of last year, when we had the same thing in english, and what i wrote then.
see last year when this was done it was right after Dafina turned me down, and i felt like a broken man, i talked about that not my armor of indifference, nor my shield of jaded views, or my helm of distrust, could stop Cupid's arrow from striking me, and in doing so broke my heart, putting a hole of infinite size through the center, and the pain of feeling empty, alone, weak, broken, stupid, foolish, blind. the pain of the darkness and loneliness running over the wound in my chest.
but now its all over, i've realized its all for the best, me and Dafina are great friends, i have a Girl Friend who is so deeply in love with me it continuously blows my mind, so much so, i'm so in lover that i'm absolutely gushing at all moments, and this fact seems no to draw girls to me, so i gained so much, and my past seems so far away. [humming rhyme emotion]
you know who i used to be like?
Shinji, i was so alone, i wanted everyone to like me, i hated the world, depression, loneliness, pain, thats all i focused on, how miserable i was, so i became more miserable, but i was saved, unlike him, i got stronger on my own, so now i look back at that weak me and bitchy me with the eye of an older brother, like i wish i could give advice to me-Shinji.
i feel now like Riku, darkness and light within me, giving me strength, to be wise and calm, to be the one that rides the border-line [possibly the absolute one] of good and evil, right and wrong, light and dark. i feel good, being Riku-esque.
but i think i awakened something in myself, see i train with my punching bag [in yellow and black gloves] and usually i go all out and burn out in 20 minutes but foor the last two days i've fought harder, longer and my breathing is calmer. usually i'm breathing so hard that my mouth dries out and i must drink tons of water, but lately i just drink it to gain back the liquid i lose sweating and my mouth doesn't get dry, and i just went all out and my arms wouldn't get tried, they don't burn, they don't quiver, i think i tapped into some power in me.
so i'm a lot stronger now, physically and emotionally, i'm so glad for Bev, she's the reason i fight, so i'll look good, asnd she'll be able to more enjoy this body of mine, and she's fixed my heart, made me feel like i'm worth something and made me more outgoing. i feel like i can do anything with her support, or just her memory [Fear my Riku-ness! and she's a pure as Kairi, but at the same time as powerful as Namine]
the things you can manipulate with your hands are yours to control, all you need is enough power, and i'm gaining more power each day.
HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!
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