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Birthday
• 1990-02-12
Gender
• Male
Location
• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
Real Name
• J-D, Got it memorized?

Personal

Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble

myOtaku.com: JD Person

Tuesday, April 4, 2006

well tonight i sleep.
another late day, so i can update early.
and thus get more visits.

well, just got done having a nice long conversation with my love. i really wish i was better at speaking spanish, knowing Bev, i just have this desire to learn spanish, but unfortunatly it won't be till senior year that i'll be able to take it, being as i already applied for my classes as a junior.

i'm taking german next year, so at least i'll have one language i can learn, maybe i should try to get it changed to spanish, i wonder if i can do that, but then again if i do that i think i'd be too tempted to take Spanish II and never take german.

i guess everything happens for a reason. i'll just walk the path i chose already, no use trying to change my future at this point.

i don't know why, but when Bev asks me to try to speak spanish i always try, and i sound like a complete idiot, and Bev just melts, she goes all soft on me, but i feel like crying almost, why do i put so much value in things, i guess there are still parts of my past i cannot escape.

i used to be an uber-crybaby, i couldn't take jokes or tricks, or not winning or getting my way, i was such a whiny pussy, and still i haven't killed that infernal past self, that weakling, why can't i forget that part of the old me?

i just want to learn spanish, i want to learn it for her, for my latina, i want to speak her language, i want to know her second language, i want to be like her. i guess i'm just a masochist, course i've always known that, i'm so self destructive its painful, i strive for the impossible, and bitch when i fail. why do i set myself up to fail?

i suppose she'll be able to teach me, but i want to know enogh that i can know if she's seducing me, i mean hell, thats the best part of learning a new language from your girlfriend, you get to do quite amorous things to your teacher, or maybe be being taught a little bit of anatomy by her.

but thats all the distant future, and i can't manipulate that, i don't have the power, and no amount of will, strength, love, intelligence, cunning, or stamina can change this future, or my past. i think i'm about the same no matter what i do, so i guess i should learn conversational level in two languages, then learn more from my hot, latin lover, uber-caliente! oh ,mein godt! oh santa maria! thats an abomination to all good sense, but then again i'm out of my mind, so i guess it will be fun.

i wish my school had latin, so i could be even more of an egotixtical prick, knowing the flagship language of the self-important and opulent. course german isn't exactly the language of love either.

i suppose i should just go with my first plan, it will pay off in the end, so i just have to hold strong till then.

i guess thats the theme of my life, holding out for a better tomorrow.

curse my idealistic optimism!

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!
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