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Birthday
• 1990-02-12
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• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
Real Name
• J-D, Got it memorized?
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Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
death of a happy summer.
yes, i do believe now i will not be seeing my love in person anytime soon.
so now summer is looking a bit, well not happy. i was so looking forward to my little vacation of love, but it seems now that that will not be happening.
see her parents do not like our relationship, therefore they don't want me to see her. so i was to act as another person and then see her, but then finacial problems got in the way...
see its expensive to go on such a trip, and my mother was unsure if we had sufficent funds for such a journey, so informed her of the lengths that i and my love were going to for this meeting, worst mistake i've ever made.
see i was expecting "oh, how romantic, if you mean that much to eachother then i'll try and get you there." instead i get "i'm not helping you sneak around, its not good..." so i know i can't trust her now. i hate her for saying that, i hate myself for thinking things would work if i said that, i'm really miserable on the inside right now.
i mean my girl makes me feel all better while we're talking, but as soon as i get up the next morning i'm sad again.
i really hope another plan happens, this time i'll lie too, i can't trust my mom, so i have to keep her in the dark. i have no problem decieving such a heartless person as to deny me my only true desire.
if nothing happens, i can be happy like this, its just losing that dream, that idea of finally finding true paradise in the arms of one who loves me, and instead to only hear her voice, yes quite a downer.
we both cried, for a while. we just cried, while we tried to make the other stop crying, it was kinda cute in retro-spect, trying to stop the other from crying, even though your own face is drenched in tears.
i sure hope i get to see her soon, i know we'll stay together no matter if we see eachother this summer, next summer, or in 4 years, we'll still be in love, its just we want to share it physically. and is that so wrong?
i finally got my DVDs today, so i may watch a few. hopefully that willhelp divert me from the shards of broken dreams lodged in my concious mind.
pray for me, for i need all the help i can get if i am to see my love. [i realize its cliche and probably lame but desperate men will always come to god]
if i don't go see her this summer i'll ask if my mom will just go vacation on her own, leave the phone so i can still contact my love. because if i went anywhere but into the arms of the one most dear to me it would feel like a replacement, i'm going here in direct contrast to seeing her, and i don't want to cry in public, or feel my heart ache anymore, its her place or mine, no where else will do.
lets hope for her's shall we?
Quote:
this is a conversation between me and my love.
Me: [cutely] you're such a dumbass.
Her: [teasing] Meanie.
Me: but you're an adorable, lovable, affectionate, sweet, and romantic one. you're my dumbass and i love you.
read Absolute Power its the ultimate orginal thing to do.
AP is all up to date on the link too.
HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!
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