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Birthday
1990-02-12
Gender
Male
Location
in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
2005-03-25
Occupation
slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
Real Name
J-D, Got it memorized?
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Achievements
i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
i give up.
yeah, too many people believe i'm whipped, its really sad, i mean, i'm trying to be nice, i'm normally way to selfish so i try to accomidate her needs, so does that make me whipped? to conciously decide to do what they want because you like to see them happy? is that really being whipped? and yes, she has trained me, but its just because i wanted to learn the right things to do. what am i supposed to act all indifferent and disconnected like usual, am i supposed to treat her like shit, to prove i'm not whipped? how the hell am i supposed to act then!? if what i'm doing is so pathetic then what would be the right thing to do? i really wanna know. excuse me for being nice, for loving someone, and deciciding that pleasing them is more important than my own self. i mean when i talked about only doing what feels good, i wasn't in love was the general concensus, but now, i do try to sacrifice a little and that makes me whipped?
damn it, i mean i don't want to care what other people say, but it does matter, how come i can't do anything right? she loves me sure, but she loves me no matter what, because she needs me, and i need her, so i do my best to keep her happy, so she won't leave me, and everyone sees that as a sign of weakness. if i had to i could retreat into myself and only care what she says, i could be happy that way, but i want to be aware, but it seems awareness only brings shunning from the outside world. so what am i doing wrong?
and what makes me whipped anyway? give me some examples.
great, now i'm less than happy, i don't like to dislike people, but to call me that really gives me a negetive opinion of people, because for me to be whipped, she'd have to whip me, and i refuse to believe she's do that. i refuse to believe that she is some iunderhanded pupeteer pulling my strings from beyond my view. i believe that i choose to be who i am, to serve her because i don't mind it, i'll play dress up and wear tight clothes and goth boots because i think its kinky and fun to do that, i'm an exibityionist at heart, plus, i lovce to hear her voice when she's happy, and i bet her smile is really cute too. so i play along, because i know it makes her happy.
am i that wrong?
that weak?
that pathetic?
am i really whipped for acting like i do?
why am i always wrong?
and why does she always think i'm right?
Quote:
at least stacy believes i'm a good person.
Me: i'm kinda pissed you called me whipped guys, do you guys really think i am?
Stacy: no.
Kitty: no. but i do think you're well trained, and theres nothing wrong with being tied down to a good woman. [kitty leaves, me and stacy sit down.]
Stacy: i don't think you are, i think you're sweet, i have to break my boyfriends arm for him to pay attention to me. she's lucky to have you.
thats it.
i give up.
i guess i am whipped...
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