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• 1990-02-12
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• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
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• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
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• J-D, Got it memorized?
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• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
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• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
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• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Sunday, June 4, 2006
continuation.
a train wreck wrapped in bubble wrap
broken inside, yet soothed and all there
invincible and emotional.
they seem to be contridictory, but they're not.
it was brought to my attention that these ideas may be confusing, so i will explain them, for as any of you long loyal Peoplezez know, i hate very little more than being misunderstood.
see i did feel broken, but it felt like all the pieces were floating, like they couldn't move to far, like they were in a bubble, prortected. i felt valnerable yet protected, like i may be unstable, but a force was keeping me from destruction. i did fgeel weak, but with the feeling of saftey that love provides me, i still felt invincible, this love i feel is an inpetitrable shield around me, so even if i am broken, nothing else can hurt me, and the shield also heals me. yes i am crashing, but this love keeps me from being hurt, and even if i am invincible, my emotions are still screwed up.
its just like when you fall in love, you must then always carry the wieght of another life on your back, because now you're respouncible for them too, but they give you so much strength by being there that any other wieght in the world you must carry is now so light.
life is an oxymoron, love is full of contridictions. nothing is even grey, its swirls of black and white that are so tangled that they can never be seperated, yet the white is as pure as snow, and the black is as deep as space. the two things become one, yet never lose their individuality.
and even if you can't understand it, it doesn't make it less true. and its not ass though you must understand it to live, many times i wished i knew less, i analyze too much, i wish i could be more simple.
and its not as though i go about flirting in some calm, smooth way, i don't i do it swooning and sighing, as the showing, or request to be shown affection is just an expression of a powerful love that grows exponentually every moment i hear her voice. but to know the ewants something is too great a force for me to resist, so i talk, and really i can talk for hours, as long as nothing sets me off the edge, if i don't think about her kisses, or her wanting to hold me, or decorate me, or any other flirty stuff i can talk fine, but a strong mental image will send me right over the edge. she gives little hit and run flirting strikes, and i try not to get to enthralled in the gifts of her lips.
well enough of that, if i keep this up love will be a constant and single theme on this page so onto other things...
well my old lady [my mom, it's a Sora thing, like saying "lame" too much] was supposed to mail my gift to my love today, i left it out on the table, thought she'd get the hint, but she didn't. alas, it shall be mailed monday i guess. lame!
well i'm getting sick of the Tower of Heaven in Shining Tears, i have 23 more floors to go! its really annoying, i have to figure out the next quest, because this just sucks! 60 floors, gaining no money, and wasting supplies, pain in the ass!
but i am re-playing Disgaea to get the good ending, where Flonne becomes a fallen Angel, i want it so bad! i'll go back to the crappier game later.
well schools almost out and i still don't know if i'll see my love or not this summer. but i guess nothing worth getting is easy to get.
read Absolute Power its easy to get, but i still think its worth it!
quote:
its a personal statement on the contrictory nature of love.
"you always see in movies that sa guy and girl are held hostage, they bad person threatens to kill one of them, and being lovers the other always goes 'No! kill me!' see, i find a problem with that, if you love someone, it hurts to live without them, i know that given the choice of dying, or her dying, i'm sadder at her death. so for her to spare my life at the cost of her's is not a gift, its a punishment. in my opinion, if you love someone, let them die knowing they saved you, don't make them live on with the burden, because love will give you the strenght to go on."
-me
debate me on that if you wish, its a very contrivercial opinion i know.
HAIL ZEON!!!!!
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