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• 1990-02-12
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• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
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• 2005-03-25
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• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
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• J-D, Got it memorized?
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• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
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• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
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• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
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• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
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• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Wednesday, June 7, 2006
up hill, down hill, so many hills.
yes well i didn't update monday because i went shopping, i got 5 pairs of boxers, i now have more then there are days of the week. mand does that make me feel poor.
well yesterday was a bit of a cursed day for me. see this girl in my lit class was asking guys if she could paint their nails, so i volunteered, man she screwed it up, i could do better! i think she made it look crappy on purpose! so i had to rush home and whip out the nail-polish remover.
then at night while discussing various things with my one and only i damaged her deeply [again].
see for some reason i had this dream where my and my ex-love, now friend/light crush Dafina where just hanging out, but it had a sorta heavy crush feeling to it, so i told my one and only, and she tried to blow it off, but when i tried to explain, she just said, in this tiny sad voice "i don't want to talk anymore..." and then silence for a while, she didn't even cry, then i told her to let it out, and she cried for a long time, i told her i can't help the fact that i still hold some feelings for Dafina she just sorta sobbed out loudly "Yeah, but you don't have to make it sound like you love her more than me! i mean i have little crushes too, but i don't to you about them , i don't bring them up on the phone!" i can't defend that so i cried to, i said something like "i'm sorry, i'm just sorry, not about anything in particular, i'm just sorry. i'm sorry for being me, for having all these stupid feelings, i don't even deserve you, i don't know whatyou see in me!" so yeah, last night was "happy." but i think we're over it now, i don't know, i mean i can't help i have unresolved feelings, or that i care about Dafina, i can't help those things, but i know that i'm in love with Bev, i know i love her with every ounce of my heart and soul. as i said in a letter i wrote to my beloved today. i'll use that as my quote at the end.
i got another shirt in the mail from my love the other day, its not as cute as the first one, but its also not satained, and i do like it a lot more. see one, its hers, she wore it several times before ever thinking to give it to me, or maybe even before she knew me. also, when she decorated it, she was a bit undressed, so this shirt has been all over her, which makes me really want it all over me. plus she sewed little hearts all over it, and heart beads and jewels around the neck. some better than others, so i can tell it was hard for her, it means a lot that she'd do that for me. so i wore it today, i felt so good, and man all those kisses on it were getting my head, she even puut kisses all over the sleaves so if i lay my head down, there are dozens of kisses waitng for my cheeks there. and they got them, many times.
she also sent a letter in the box that was all cute pictures of us, the envelope even has us kissing with stickers all around it. hearts "kiss" "xoxo" and "suprise!" its so cute, inside was a little manga of us meeting, and her sneak-glomp-kissing me. its really cute. i love her so much and its so sweet of her to give me all this.
i spent all today writing letters to her and drawing cute pictures of us, even if last night was storm, i'm still in a sea of love and i can't swim well, so i'll never be able to escape. i'm glad thers no escape too. i think its cute.
my love got some letters from me too, one was a wish list, because i felt better writing than asking for stuff, but she said "the wish list made me feel bad, you seemed to calm, like you were asking for stuff, i like when you say it better, you studder, you sound like you're begging, you sound so guilty, i think you sound sexy when you're guilty." so saying it it is!
read Absolute Power i'm working hard on it!
quote:
the moment you may have been waiting for. my letter to my love.
"i'm sorry i've got these feelings, its just that Dafina was so nice to me, she may have broke my heart, but she re-built it, and like any architect, she left her name all over it, but Bev, now you have my heart, you hold it in your hand and you could easily erase her name from it forever, and i wouldn't be able to hold it against you. i'm just asking you please not to, unless you have to, because you're still my one and only love, and i'll never see her again if it means i get you forever."
-Me.
its the truth, no matter how it makes anyone feel, its true.
HAIL ZEON!!!!!!
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