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• 1990-02-12
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• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
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• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
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• J-D, Got it memorized?
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• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
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• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
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• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
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• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
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• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Friday, June 9, 2006
Alright!
well, it seems as though my last post brought up a topic [always good when that happens] so i'll start out with that.
Yeah, the whole "Dafina subject," is quite messy. i was told by a wise elder to not tell women of residual feelings for other girls, because it causes irreplacable daqmage. well i can't lie, if i have a feeling, i tell her of it. i'm not going to hide things, hidden feelings are the root of self destruction. and Dafina isn't my ex, i never got her, or with the new-found self-worth my gal has given me, Dafina never got me. but Bev did, and i love HER, yes, i still carry slight feelings for a past crush, because she was so nice to me, but that has nothing to do with now. and it isn't the fact i told Bev my feelings for Dafina that is the problem, its the fact i may feel too strongly for Dafina for Bev to be comfortable, so i may have caused damage that cannot be fixed, but that doesn't mean i won't try to fix it. i can't risk losing her, so if it means i have to give up my past for my future, then i will.
Bev does mean everything to me, and i'm waiting to forget Dafina, i now just want to be friends with her, or to forget her. what i feel for her isn't love, its restalgia, and maybe a sort of sibling bond, but its not romantic love.
it seems my girl understands this, so i won't prod the issue, i'll just go on loving her, and hoping that she'll abandon her fears of my disloyalty. i thank you for your advice, i'll try to learn from it.
i'm still trying to get better at drawing, i hope to get close to as good as my love soon, i know i'll never catch up to her, but if i can get damn close thats good enough for me.
the two of us also argue over which one of our stories are better, we both think the others is. i like her character developement and how cruel she is in telling it, the ending is just mean, flesh melting off babies and mothers, every wound ever inflicted on a body all re-openning at once, i mean this girl has a great imagination.
she likes the story developement, and the deepness of my story. he likes the romance, and comedy. i guess she just likes the silly randomness of mine.
i also like that her characters are truly cold, the only sign of love one character shows is knocking out his mate before killing her along with the rest of existance. i envy that, i guess i can't find anything i'm better than her at.
well i'm going to go back to writing my story, please anyone who is readin g it tell me if i don't already know. and if you have time, pleaee start reading it. it would mean a lot to me if you did.
i'm out of school now, so chapters will come faster now.
please read Absolute Power i really need you guess to do this for me.
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my love as we talking about our stories.
Bev: [kiss] Shut up already, you're giving away too much, your story is really good, and i wamnt to be suprised, so stop spoiling it for me.
Me: okay.
i guess i have one devoted fan!
HAIL ZEON!!!!
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