myOtaku.com: JD Person

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1990-02-12
Gender
• Male
Location
• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
Real Name
• J-D, Got it memorized?

Personal

Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble

myOtaku.com: JD Person

Thursday, June 22, 2006

inner strength.
a lot of you are right, love does bring a lot of pain, but i still think is worth it, there are some times when it brings me so much pain i just want to go crazy, and i can't find a thing to make it go away. but even if that is because of love, the few precious moments of happiness are worth it.

nothing happened today, i really did nothing, its kinda sad, i mean usually i do something i can talk about that i did, but i did nothing to talk about today.

so i guess i'll ramble, anything to distract me from this feeling of desperate loneliness and pain. there's not even anything on TV.

you ever get the feeling that every force in the universe wants you to be sad?

damn, i bit off loose lip skin, and i guess i took off some living stuff too.

i can't even write AP, still haven't got the proof reading done. i can't blame my number one fan, its not her fault, but still i really wish i had something to distract me from my heart's constant pain.

i suppose i should learn to be more of a man, to be able withstand pain, and not always bitch, but its just i'm so used to telling people i'm hurt, so they can tell me how to heal, but i know i cannot do this forever, i have to learn to be self reliant, to be able to stand on my own. i mean i used to be able to, nay was forced to stand on my own and rely on myself for happiness, but after all that has happened, i've learned to find my happiness from others.

so i suppose you guys see me as weak, being so reliant on love to be happy, but i guess i aquired this weakness. i guess i'd rather have this weakness than be without its cause. infact, that exact situation scares me more than anything else, its the main source of my pain, why i sometimes lose sleep, and why i go somewhat crazy just trying to keep my mind from poking at the wounds in my heart.

i guess i could write more of AP, it seems i always get busy when i try, so i guess either way i'm good huh?

yeah, i guess i just have to buck the fuck up and just move along, no use in being a mopey little emo.

i really don't know what the future will bring, i only hope i am strong enough to handle it.

once again i will try to write Absolute Power though i wonder if anyone will try to read it.

quote:

"lipstick commercials make me feel more shy and turned on than porn or underwear adds."

-me

sorry couldn't come up with anything else.

-AP Comments-

Kit: You can tell that from your damn story numb nuts!

Aveian: You are a terrible writer.

Foxxy: i have fun at least.

me: She likes it, thats all that matters.

Foxxy: [sticks tongue out] haha!

HAIL ZEON!!!!!

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