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Birthday
• 1990-02-12
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Location
• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
Real Name
• J-D, Got it memorized?
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Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Tuesday, July 25, 2006
I know, I know, i'm insane...
i know, i pick really strange topics to rant about, but really its just because i'm trying to find something i can talk about, and i mean whats easier to say a lot about than deep psychological issues? yeah, so as most people post about when they go to the mall, i go "hentai is not arousing to me, my gun is cocked, but i don't ever even think about the trigger, my friend likes to screw popsicles!" come to think of it, did i get a comment telling me there was a song about popsicle violation? hell, i may bring it up, somebody wrote a song about it, now who is wrong?
right now i'm going through a bit of a revolation crisis. see for such a long time i was afraid that no one would ever love me. then someone finally did, but i'm still told i'm not what girls want, so i fear for the future...
see i'm afraid that girls don't like me personality wise. i'm emotional, a good listener, kind, caring, loving, devoted, loyal, affectionate, open, poetic, romantic, sweet, i'm just like a dog, aleways at their side, trying to make them happy as much as possible. but from most sources i'm told girls like the Sasuke type, distant, cold, uncaring, cruel, emotionless, hard to get, dis-interested, unhappy, users, self motivated, basically like cats, here when they want to be, if you give them what they want, and even then they might take it and leave. why do girls want hard to get guys, then complain when they vdon't stay around, why is it that i am everything that every girl says they want, yet except one, none have ever desired me? my doy girls find gay guys like Ryan Seacrest sexy, yet a guy like me who keeps his body clean and soft, smooth and shimmery, with pink sunglasses and well kept nails, gets passed up for smelly, greasy, dirty, jock type muscle brains?
i know that my love is devoted to me, but it seems that girls do not desire that which i am, so therefore eventually my love will get sick of havong a caring person, and want a uncaring hard to get guy. i'm afraid i'm too nice, that i'll get boring or something. its just that no one else ever loved me, so why should she? i'm not good at rejecting those i care about, i can't tease girls i like by ignoring them, or acting like i don't like them, or saying maybe i'll go out with them, maybe not. i can't be cruel, i can't be cold, i can't play mind games and torture people so is it possible anyone would ever love me?
i feel so safe when i'm with the one just for me, like she'll protect me, like i belong with her, that my home is in her arms, to me she is my gaurdian angel. so of course i'm sweet and loving to her, she just makes me so happy, i can't help but want to give all of myself to her. so i guess i'm afraid that she'd rather i was a cold, unfeeling prick like every girl seems to want. i'm afraid my angel will fly away because i'm not what girls want.
do you guys, you girls, my fangirls, or just Female Peoplezez, do you think i sound like a lovable guy, the kind you would want as yours. or would it be better if i was a hate filled prickish Sasuke type?
why do girls want hard to get prick guy, until they get him, then they want a weepy pussy like me?
do guys like me. guys like me? who care about looking good, who cry at movies, who listen and care about feelings, who want to cuddle and snuggle, who will support and love forever and ever, the kind who would jump off a building just to make their love laugh, who are self sacrificing and devoted. is that desrable, to be a loving devoted pretty boy, or am i better off being a cold assholish jock type, and just ignore until i want something, take it, and then become colder.
what is your type ladies?
what do you want?
would you want me if i was available?
am i desirable?
i'm i even usable?
am i even worthy?
i'm so cocky, but its all baed on vanity, or pride in being wanted, if no one wants me, i just lay naked and dying, i was saved before, as i struggled so hard not to give in, and lose myself to the self hatred being alone generated. i guess i wonder, if i'm lost again, will anyone save me?
i'm going to start doing Senshi jokes, like Chuck Norris, except not a 60 year old actor.
Absolute Power its there, its mediocre, deal with it.
-Quote-
the ultimate weapon against girls.
"you look pretty."
they melt like ice, i only use it on the one just for me, and i love hearing how happy it makes her, it makes me so happy that just thinking about it makes me cry tears of joy.
do girls like guys who cry?
-Senshi jokes-
Chuck Norris punched his way out, Senshi slid out doing a sliding drop kick into a double-foot stomp to the chest on Chuck Norris several miles away.
-AP Quotes-
Me:*waterfall tears* no one loves me...
Foxxy: *petting my head* there there...
Aveian: Idiots, so many idiots
HAIL ZEON!!!!!
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