myOtaku.com: JD Person

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1990-02-12
Gender
• Male
Location
• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
Real Name
• J-D, Got it memorized?

Personal

Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble

myOtaku.com: JD Person

Monday, September 11, 2006

just me.
well, time for me to write another post. i always have so much to talk about, and you guys are always really supportive so i know its worth it. but damn, going back to school sure makes you appreciate all the time you have during summer. i do really hate school, i mean i have friends, i make friends easily, because i'm so out spoken, so people either like me or hate me quickly, but i just don't really want friends i guess. i'm not interested in doing things with people outside of school, once i'm out of school i just want to do whatever i feel like, just chill out, play video games, go shopping, play with my action figures, go on the inter-web, i'm just not into doing much activities. i am pretty selfish to tell the truth, with one exception, my beloved Beverly. i'd do anything with her, because i just want to be around her. plus Bev likes doing everything i do, so i won't even have to sacrifice most of the time. i mean kitty and stacy are cool, but we don't share any out of school interests, they're great school friends, but they're not really, i guess compatable with me. when i was a little kid i was so bossy, i always told everyone how to act, what to like, and i'd throw a tantrum if i didn't get my way. i really regret how i acted back then, but i can't really acct much differently from then. i mean i don't boss people around, or get pissy if i don't get my way, i just shut up and sit in silent suffering, hating the whole time. its just that at the exception of Bev i haven't found someone who can make me have fun, that no matter what i do with them its fun. i haven't found people i'd sacrifice for. and they never push me, when i was a kid, all my friends were older than me, and back then i thought they were teasing me and being mean, when they'd make me do things, or just blow me off when i through a bitch fit, yet i always came back, and i always liked them as friends, my parents saiid they were manipulating or using me, but i realize they were trying to help me, make me realize that the world does not revolve around me, and when i leave them all because i'm being a divo [male diva] that i was the only one suffering. they out grew me, because i was at least 3 years younger than any of them, and we gew apart, butthey were all great friends. they pushed me to do things i didn't want to, to make me a better person. and basically Bev can make me do anything, and by being my love anything she asked me to do is pushed against me by the weight of the world. i need someone to kick me in the ass and do things, because i'm so unmotivated. no one makes me do that, not stacy or kitty, no one, so i'm just lazy and pathetic. i want to be a better person so badly, but in the end when it comes down to crunch time i'm too lazy to follow through, i give up on the punching bag before the 30 minutes are up, i barely ever even go up there to begin with, i want to be tanned but i have no out-door interests. i want a future, but i have no extra-curicular activities i'm interested in. i want to be a better artist, but i lack the confidence and motivation to practice. on the inside i have so much ambition, so big of dreams, but when its time to act i just give up, all my fire goes out. i need a cheer-leader, a motivator, i need my beloved telling me to keep going, because no matter how sweet and loving my Beverly is, she does not tolerate my bullshit. i know that if i bitched i wanted to be a better artist she'd make me practice. if i said i was going to hit the bag for 30 minutes, she'd probably make me keep at it for an hour. i if i wanted to tan she'd drag me around in the sun all day. but as far as my academic future goes, my love can't get here until i've been in college for a year, i need her help. i want to be a VA, a comedian, or a Cryptozologist. i still have hope for the last but very little. really all my dreams are out of reach. Bev is a great artist, and draws anime, so she wants to work on anime, maybe in the editting process, i don't know her exact plans. but she is so sure, and she works hard for her dream, i knoow she'll get it. but for my VA dreams, i want to be a VA, not a real actor, i was watching "professional," plays, i don't want to do that, i want to just do a normal voice, not an over blown voice with exagerated actions. my self and my future are so fucked up, but i have love, and its definatly enough.

on top of mourning and evening calls, Bev called me at midnight and we talked until 2 thirty. i felt like Shuichi in the mourning, i was just so happy and entergetic. i realized that its the lack of me talking to her that makes me all dark and mopey. i really hope we get more time together, then i'll be set. at least i know no matter what job i take, i'll come home to a house full of love and the person who fills it and me with it, so its all good.

-Quote-

during the night call...

Bev: Are you sleepy baby?

Me: being as its past midnight i am a little.

Bev: well i could hang up if you...

Me: [giving her kisses] don't you know by now? any time is a good time to talk to you lover.

-Senshi jokes-

Fool me once, shame on you. Fool Chuck Norris once and he will roundhouse you in the face,
even attempt to fool Senshi and you will make you stop existing.

-AP Comments-

Kit: Its so much easier to be an anime character. my job was set out since birth, assassain/pilot/ladies man.

Foxxy: i really petty you, you have to decide your own fate.

Sora: Ours are determined by others, makes life a lot easier.

Me: Oh well, at least you guys appreciate i take all the pressure off you.

Foxxy: Poor bastard.

HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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