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Birthday
• 1990-02-12
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Location
• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
Real Name
• J-D, Got it memorized?
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Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Wednesday, October 4, 2006
Day oh, Day
yep
i don't really know why i feel like i'm in a slump recently, maybe its because at school they started pressuring us about our futures again. i realize that i have to decide stuff like that at this point in my life, but i still hate it, i'm still afraid, it still hurts to even imagine it. i hate a lot of life right now, i hate thinking about my acedemic and work-based future. i wish Bev already lived here, i wish she could hold me in person and make me less afraid, i need someone to lean on, but at this point i stand alone, but as i say "all worth having is worth suffering for," so i guess its time to live the lesson, i'll get my prize in less than 3 years, but till then i get to play the game.
the sucky part is that i'm just not made for this future, there are no after-school activities i like, none, not one! i mean i'm guessing i'll have to pad my reseme, but i am at a lost of things to do, i mean i could be lazy and hang out at CARL [Composing And Reading Literature] but i don't really have anything to contribute, i'd be a member in name only, because i don't write poetry or little depressing emo stories for fun, all i write is AP, and i'm sure as hell not reading that out-loud, i guess i could print multiple copies so everyone can read, but i don't know if they'd care, or if they'd want to read it. i don't know if i'm even right for that group, its seems like there is no place for me. maybe i'll never get into college, i mean there are no EC activities i'm interested in, and my grades aren't exceptional, i'm no 4.0 student, around 3.5,6,7. i feel like i'm doomed in the future, well, at least after a year of being rejected from colleges i'll have Bev's shoulder to cry on.
at least i have my love to keep me strong.
man do i hate my bleak and painful future, i can't wait to have Bev with me, i really need her, fuck not relying on critches, when it comes to my future i'm broken.
yeah, right now i'm great, doing good in my classes, looking great, feeling great, loving myself, but its just being slothful, shirking off respouncabilty, because i have none.
i'm guessing i'm doomed
i'm destined to fail
but at least i'll have my lover to help me through it.
its sad, the two things i enjoy doing, writing anf voicing, i looved reading play roles in class, and writing in Creative writing, i mean MAYBE with drama and a lot of other training i could become a VA, but then i'd have to move to vancouver, houston, or L.A.
damn, just can't catch a break, even if i get my dream job i gotta move to get it. of course there is no dubbing studio in Detroit...
fuck it, there is nothing in Detroit, except broken dreams [luckily i live in Inkster]
i could be a writer, but all i like writing is AP like stuff, so at best i could make the next IGPX aka, massive publicity failure, and i don't think that pays well, coming up with massive failures. i mean damnit, no one ever becomes a VA off the bat, they're always REAL actors, and i don't want to be a REAL actor, i want to be a VOICE actor. i see some VAs are also comedians, so maybe i could go that route, but once again, its a once-in-a-lifetime job, everything i want to be is a lucky shot/massive talent job, i have no practical plan, i'm like all those poor people who's financial plan is winning the lottery, i suppose with how lame i am, with no exception vocational or intellectual talents a subpar job is perfectly exceptable.
all i seem good at is love, which i guess isn't such a bad thing, cheers me right up to think about my love, and romance in general, so i guess as long as i have Bev i'll be the happiest failure ever.
"We must stop global warming...
FOR THE PRESERVATION OF OUR BLUE AND PURE WORLD!"
-Me
visit my Beverly-Lover, she's back online.
please do it for me...
HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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