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Birthday
• 1990-02-12
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• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
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• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
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• J-D, Got it memorized?
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• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
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• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
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• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
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• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble
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Monday, November 13, 2006
continuality
yes, once again it seems like i'll just be dwelling on one subject for a while, being as it seems like a big shift in my life has occurred.
yes, it seems my paranoid beliefs about Dafina have been validated. Kitty has told me that she talked to "Fi-fi" and she didn't seem to remember me, which hurts in a way. i mean it was a suspicion that that was the situation, but i guess even i thought it was false. its good i got over her, its good Bev once gave me the altimatum of "her or me," maybe not to that degree, but i realized it would eventually come to that, and of course i chose my lover. yeah, the other day i took down the drawing Dafina did for me, some day when i was all mopey, it had a dragon and stylistic hearts with highly atistic swords through them, and she wrote "don't worry, be happy." i got it framed cuz she wrote it with shitty water-based ink, so i put it in a frame and put it over my bed. well i took it down a few days ago, cuz i was sick of dwelling, i now have more room to plaster anime pics on my wall. i did it before i realized she was a cold bitch, now i feel even better about it. lets see other things i did for her, well she was the first person i ever deeply loved, i asked her to be my first kiss [thank god she refused!] i used to buy her a bag of gummi candy every day, i gave her a Wing Zero SD action figure, i wrote her a love letter, i searched all over school every day to maybe get a chance to talk to her... man this is getting harder, fucking memories, Sora is a moron, i'd love to run into Namine about now, well lets keep going, i used to get up every day for the chance to see her, i always did my work and made sure i knew it so i could help her and she could copy off me. i'd stay up all night to maybe talk to her on AIM, infact the only reason i got an AIM account was to talk to her. i'd be late to class so i could hang out with her, during that time the school got evacted i was hoping i could roide home with her, and i waited after school searching frantically for her, and even after she said no, i talked to her on AIM she said i could have used her phone, and i really believed she cared. i never wanted last year to end cuz then i wouldn't see her everyday in school, i used to take the path i knew she went down so i could talk to her, and at the end of the year i cried like a little bitch, and when i found her she hugged me and said of course we'd stay in touch.
she fucking lied to me, i bet she just thought i was some insane fanboy, so naive geek who ACTUALLY thought she liked me back, i bet she laughed at me while she tore up my love letter, smashed the Gundam, and ate the candy while she coasted on my grades! that is if she even remembered who i was.
and the whole time i thought any day we'd get back in touch, and everything would be okay.
well it is, that lousy double-crossing bitch is out of my life, and i have a REAL lover, a person who loves me for me, an existance that is all mine, and that i can feel at home belonging to. i don't need false hope anymore, i have the real thing.
i don't have to worry about seeing Fi-fi's fake ass anymore at school, she is gone forever, and i have a framed drawing and a yearbook to remind me of my past stupidity.
now my days are spent sitting in class, praying thanks for giving me this wonderous being as a lover, and praying that i can feel this way forever, while waves of lovestruck pleasure wash over me. i can't escape the love she puts on me, i'm covred in it, in way too deep to ever get out. just the way i want it.
so thanks Dafina, for screwing me so royally that i can fully appreciate how good true love feels.
-Quote-
Me: i like Panic! At the Disco...
Kitty: that takes huge brass balls to admit.
Me: i like them same way you'd like a retard on a unicycle, in a sadistic "awwwww, he's trying so hard!" kinda way.
read AP
HAIL ZEON!!!!!!!!!!!!
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