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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

I can't stop crying. Yesterday I was listening to Antonia by Motion City Soundtrack and it made me cry uncontrollably. Then today I've only been awake for about 2 1/2 hours and I've cried three or four times already. I went to my dad's house this morning. I sat on his and my moms bed and listened to some phone messages from when she was still alive. They were from around Christmas. And that made me ball like a baby. I feel like I'm gonna start crying right now. Sometimes when I try to talk or sing to music my voice gets really shaky and I have to stop. It feels like every day the pain of losing my mom triples and I don't know when it's gonna stop getting worse. What if it never does? Will it totally consume me?
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