Saturday, January 29, 2005

   My blue blood
Well i wanted to try donating my *blood*
It was Jan. 28,2005
10am about after my AA class.

Well signed some info sheets & blood tested again & well i was alone or the only sole woman there.

How did it feel you say?
Well.. the needle hurt like the bite of an ant
& it feels like yeah sipping your blood & it feels so funny...just don't look at your damn blood! eehh...ngilo kaau at first...

Well they let me open & close my hand with a squeeze ball O_o'

It was going well when it blood clotted and they adjusted the needle & there it hurt!

"YEAOUCH!!!"

They stop when it really didn't function
yeah scary...O_o

So only 400 cc well it was suppose to be 450 after they remove the needle *geesh see how big that was* & that i laid for a few minute & got up for some snacks.

They were all fine & concerned...

The one guarded me handed me a kinda reciept & a card with my name...etc... i was too weak to stand so i put it in my hanky so it won't fall or anything.

i was seated next to an senior grade woman well she was wearing the old school uniform. She wasn't any guardian there nor a donor just well um* sitting pretty there.

I was eating silently & weakly (not my usually eat fast style).
Now there were girls now, they kept asking me if it hurt i said no then give me if it was okey then i nodded & asked me if it was really fine. Tired of answering coz i was weak.
"Well I"m still alive ain't i?"
It was frank but it worked she stop asking. After some time i've finished eating & i was ready to go. Got my bag & went off said bye bye of course i swore they said "donate again" it send chills to my spine O_o

Then i started to notice my card wasn't in my hanky just the reciept thingy
"EH!?" where could it be fallen down or what?!"

So i went back & ask them if they saw it fall or anything. They search but it wasn't found.
Then the guy told me that the card was important for i can claim my blood back. And it can't be replaced. Someone may have found it or so...
"But it's in my name" i said
"Yes, they can claim your blood even without my permission as long as they have that blue card!~!"

I was just so speechless the guy also suspected the woman next to me. I suspected too she was near my hanky & she was gone when i went back. DARN if only i knew what that card was about i guess i was more careful. I thought that was just a plan old card but i learned too late it's gone.

So i went to the canteen crying
knowing what i had lot. I told my friends yet they can't relate so well
"We can't do anything about it it's gone"
That was my first time donating my damn blood & i just lose it to some blood thirsty maniac!

I asked one of my friends to accompany me to the clinic i was so frustrated of the lose.

I told The doctor & she let me rest. I planned not to just skip class for i was so damn tired & can't stop crying.

I wasn't able to rest well thinking i was like cheated or taken advantage of.

My two friends visited me & we chatted.
The doctor just gave another blue card hmn not my name it was a guy's name...

the doctor said...
"its really your fault, you were a bit clumsy."

That struck me 'i'm what? CLUMSY'
Yeah probably but i guessed it seems planned. I went home instead & slept till dinner. I woke up & told mom but she has her own problems so she wasn't any help either T,T. So i went to the roof top (para mag-emote) Thinking maybe the doctor was right 'i am clumsy' And big tears dropped again.

There goes my motto
'I am weak but i will not let the strong kill me. I will be strong but i will protect the weak'

Then i repeated that motto & i felt good.
I must not let them kill me, so i called on my bestfriend since gradeschool & told her

"Why can't people understand me?! Is it really losers weepers! I am that clumsy!"

Then she told me
"Well at least your lucky "
"LUCKY?!"
"Yeah nothing bad happened to Jesus suffered more than you did"
I went silent *here we go again*
"They are the losers for they committed sin if ever that card was stolen."
I just listen when she prayed for me in the phone & it actually made me feel better & stoped my crying.
But i still feel weak in my body so i got to rest but not sad no more.
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