Monday, May 12, 2008

Only Temporary!!!!! READ!
I will live two lives.
This first one, fuck it. I will still talk to the little friends I have in my new one. But this one. Fuck. It. I will move, change my life, be a better person, and I will be the A+ student I was to start with.
I will live my life better this time. I won't be the screw up anymore.
I am not following in anyone's, that I know of, foot steps. I will not ruin my life. I can promise you that.
Quit saying that I will ruin my life! You'll jinx me!! AND I AM ALREADY A JINX AS IT IS!!
*sighs*
Sometimes, I wish I cou'd have just been born, grew until I was seven and died right then. Right after my birthday. The year before my grandmother passed away. I was still a straight A+ PERFECT student. My family was proud of me. And so were my friends.
My family hasn't changed much about what they feel about me. My friends on the other hand, they think for sure that I am a disgrace. They keep thinking of me as a damn child. Most of them are younger than me.
They think I am immature and not right in the head.
I am far from immature. I am not right emotionally and I except that. I can cover it easily. I can still control myself. I am tired of everyone of my "friends" always jinxing MY WORTHLESS LIFE!! THAT'S Why I want to start over. But they. Won't. Let. Me. Leave.
If they were my real frineds they would let me go and let me live my life anew.
Message from my heart. And finally using that courage I left behind seven years ago to say it.



Make sure your hate overcomes you, otherwise you won't live in the stupid world. You have to let the hate control you, it will help you out of deep situations. Like confronting me.



"Nothing."

What goes trough my head everyday is nothing.
My heart and soul is filled with nothing.
What I own is nothing.
I am nothing compared to Her.
I want to be nothing.
It lasts forever and I am not ready to die.
I have so much to fix and no more time.
So, basiclly, my life is reduced to nothing.
I don't want to be someone's everything because when I am gone there will be nothing.
They will also think their life is nothing.
My love is nothing.
And it's what's left of my senses that tell me that I am still alive.
If I want to be nothing, let me be nothing. Please.
I want to last forever, to watch you live and some how protect you without being seen.
Nothing can do almost everything possible.
Still, there is one thing nothing can't do.
Keep me from loving you.

-Jinx D. Rees AKA-Jinx 13 ME (c) 4-11-08



"It's gone."

It's been done.
I have become horribly numb.
I can't even feel anything, not even hate.
Now all I can do is wait for the day I see that gate.

I feel the tears running down my face.
I can feel them disappear, without a trace.
I can't feel them any longer, no more.
My heart is also numb. I can't feel those soars.

They got horrible, so painful, now they're numb.
Why didn't you tell me anything? Do you think I'm dumb?
I hope you aren't serious. You can't go.
Do you know how hard it is to let someone you love leave you like that? I bet NO.

I know I have never been much of a help.
But you could atleast, to me, give out a yelp.
I don't wish to talk to you on any electronic, I want to talk to you face to face.
I don't care if you want your space.

We have been through alot together.
You were always there for me. And you will be forever.
Why can't you come to me?
I treat you like my own family.

Now you know why I can't trust anyone so easily.
You have literally driven me crazy.
I don't feel the love you gave to me.
I can't feel anything anymore....
I can't trust anyone... See?

Monady, March 31, 2008 10:34PM
Jinx 13 Jinx Rees ME



"What is wrong?"

What is wrong with you people? Tell me.
You tell me not to worry but you know what? I worry.
I may be heartbroken and feeling unloved,
But that doesn't mean I have to show it because deep down I know I'm loved.
I ask again. You still won't say.
I hope you realize that I will save your life someday.
Just tell me what's wrong.
I say I don't want to know everything about you but I only say it 'cause I'm not strong.
Not like you are. You have been through alot more than I have, or atleast that's what you say.
I have been through enough in my life, I wanted to give up. But hey,
I'm still here aren't I? I am now pushing myself harder than before.
You should do the same. Don't throw away your life like that. No more.
Why do you keep it inside? Don't you trust me?
I kept things inside before. And it hurt as much as hell. Why don't you tell me?
Explain everything. Every detail. I will be able to help then...
Even if it means walking to where you are. Near or far I will be there... Why is this happening again?
I shouldn't have to explain anymore. That's another thing. With my problems, I won't come to you.
You seem to have enough on your mind as it is. Hey, I am just saying what's true.
I wish I could bring you all with me. To run away from this hell.
Yet, you won't let me in on your secrets and your mind. You're always hiding in your shell...
It's useless. I understand blocking every one out for a little while. But not all the time.
Like I said in one of my other poems, I will do alot for Family of Mine.
You're stressing out over nothing. Take another look at life, a different way.
You would love the way I see it.
I am trying to be laid back. To work hard but still feel like I quit.
I love my life.
It may feel a little crappy at times. But I will never again pick up that knife.
Try not focusing on people. Just your work. That's what answers all my problems.
But of course, I bet you're thinking,"Well, I'm not you." And I am thinking,"It's so easy to read them."
Promise me one thing, talk to me once and awhile.
Not all the time because I'm not strong like you are. Not that strong at all.
That's all I will say for now.

And before you think of giving up, why don't you atleast answer my question.
What's wrong?

Jinx D. Rees AKA-Jinx 13 ME
(c) 4-2-08



"My wish. My sanity."

I wish I could explain the way I felt.
My heart has gashes, wounds, and welts,
From the many blows I have taken for Family of Mine,
Just so I could see them shine.
For I love them.
So much the love is flowing over the rim.
I do not understand this feeling,
And the walls in mind are pealing.
It's driving me away from my sanity.
These emotions are exploding inside of me!
Soon I hope they will stop so I can see clearly...
Until then -
_WELCOME_____________
_________TO___________
___________MY_________
_____________INSANITY_
By - Jinx D. Rees AKA - Jinx 13 ME


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Wednesday, May 7, 2008

PLEASE READ!!
What would you do if i ::

1. I died:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I stole something:
6. I was hospitalized:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there? :


::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::
9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Family:

::WOULD YOU::
13. Be my friend?:
14. Keep a secret if I told you one?:
15. Hold my hand?:
16. Keep in touch?:
17. Try and solve my problems? :
18. Love me? :
19. Date me? :


::HAVE YOU EVER::
20. Lied to make me feel better? :
21. Wanted to kiss me? :
22. Wanted to kill me?:
23. Broke my heart? :
24. Kept something important from me? :
25. Thought I was unbearably annoying? :

::MORE::
26. who are you to me?:
27. Are we friends?:
28. When and how did we meet?:
29. Describe me in one word:
30. What was your first impression? :
31. Do you still think that way about me now? :
32. What reminds you of me? :
33. If you could give me anything what would it be? :
34. How well do you know me? :
35. When's the last time you saw me? :
36. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
37. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?:

I know you're happy I'm back right,
I want you to put your hands up,
This shit is crazy,
Guess who's back,
Monstablokaz,
I'd like to welcome ya'll,
It's the new album,
Mozez baby

Hook
We fight back (4x)

Verse 1
It's Rap-tilly,tilly,
Mozez baby,
I'm back in this bitch,
Flow is crazy,
It's so amazing,
I done did it,
We had none wit it,
Be sons,
Tongue run vividly,
I tongue-gun critics,
We literally,fridgin' your lips
Be quiet,
We riot,
Any time,any place,any where,any how,
Monstablokaz,we all solders,
Never give up we all focused,
Plus I don't need splash hip-hop open,
Rock a ski mask,
Keep hip-hop open,
I know you love my style,
Fuck you I hate your style

Chorus
Ya know it ain't over,
We fight like a soldier,
Ya know we take over,
We fight like I told ya


We fight back (4x)

Hook

Verse 2
If shit's too hard,
You're too soft,
Trust fuckers I ain't fallin off,
I've been in it a minute,
At Rap wars I'm winnin,
At Rap bars I'm killin them,
Act hard on the internet,
That's all,
I'm grinnin and finish them last thoughts,
I won't lose,
And I'll never back off,
No,
We pitbullin' in ya club,
Always stay busy like bullets in the hood,
Peace then it's peace,
Beef than it's beef,
Halfhearted rappers,
Stop beefin with me,
Actin like they wanna meet in the streets,
I ain't buyin it,
Like Bushido CD's
I know you love my style,
Fuck you I hate your style

Chorus

Hook

Bridge (3x)
That's how we fight back if you want beef

Verse 3
Lioness fight back,
Cronite fight back,
Polique fight back,
We won't stop,
Still nice flows,
Still maestro,
Call right here like my name's Mike Jones,
Everybody watchin listenin and y'all,
My first single's never be sissy songs,
Say it loud Monstablokaz,
Say it loud Monstablokaz,
I know you love my style...

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Thursday, April 10, 2008

Swingset chain - lyrics.

There's a playground that we used to run on
The penny-drop that broke her arm
The monkey bars that you fell from
The swingset chain that stuck with my tongue
It's thirty below and we're far gone
If you plant yourself here I wouldn't miss you for long
But then comes the day when you leave town
I'm back to the way I was when you weren't around

If you want to know what that was like
I'll tell you first, it was way too quiet
It rained a hundred nineteen days of the year
I spent my time falling down the stairs
I know I can't tie you to a leash
But something tells me you'd go further than Greece
And then I'll have to figure out what to do
I'm kind of afraid I'm co-dependent on you

I'm freaking out that we've started breaking down
Before momentum picked up
Now all these doors are locked
The trees trick you 'cause they're always standing still
If time was really racing by
You could see it when you drive

There's a rooftop deck where we still hang out
A couple of bars where we're not allowed
The roller-skates that threw you on your face
The park on the hill which was our only space
The fog is fast and it rolls right in
About the time I struck my first fifth of gin
I really don't mean to complain too much
But this is turning me into quite the lush

I'm freaking out that we're running out of time
But to do what?
Should I stop and think of that?
Is there something I could do to slow it down?
Live in a day for once
Instead of watch it screaming by

You're a dandelion seed
That flies through the air
And lands randomly
Then disappears
x2

I'm freaking out that we've started breaking down
Before momentum picked up
Now all these doors are locked
The trees trick you 'cause they're always standing still
If time was really racing by
You could see it when you drive
I like this song alot. <3


I have all this on my computer:
1 backdoor
8 spyware
3 adware
3 dialer
27 trojan
2 rouge
505 tracking cookies
...
Is that bad?
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Friday, March 14, 2008

The answer is language. I know how they got the answer now.

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Thursday, March 13, 2008

Think of words ending in -GRY. Angry and hungry are two of them. There are only three words in the English language. What is the third word? The word is something that everyone uses every day. If you have listened carefully, I have already told you what it is.

I know the answer because I looked it up but I don't understand how they got the answer in the first place.(Or do I?) I want to hear your guesses. I will put up the answer tomorrow.
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Friday, February 15, 2008

Happy Valentine's Day kinda? O_o
Anyway, I got awesome shit for V day!! I got a laptop named Plicka.(Mother of Mine's old one) I got my first white rose!!! I almost cried!! And I got "Ahem.Personal.Items" ^^;;;
Anyway, I am leaing now.
Byez!~
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Thursday, February 14, 2008

I am at school right now..
I have after school program thingy!!
T___________T
I don't wanna go!! My mommy won't let me go home!! I have to go! She thinks that I am bad at the subjects I am failing but she is wrong..
I just don't turn anything in.
I do my work but never turn it in. I will do what I have done the past two years. I will suck at the class and kick ass on the test. ^^
Of course nobody thinks I will actually pass because of my grades. Anyway, I will leave now because yeah Suzette won't leave me alone...
Byez.~
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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Random words of Wisdom: You're not alone, Together we stand, I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand, When it gets cold, And it feels like the end, There's no place to go, You know I won't give in, No I won't give in.



I am at scool right now. It is boring as hell too. I haven't been able to get on the computer in forever. I get on when I get home but it lasts usually for like a few minutes because my mom comes to pick me up so we can get back to the apartment. For the first time in forever I am actually home sick.
I wanna go home so much. T-T
I miss Love of Mine and I can't talk to Sister of Mine on the computer much because I don't have MSN Crapola on my account on Mother of Mine's lap top.
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Okay I am done. For now anyway. I might be on today.
Maybe... Hopefully... Gah... I miss talking to Love of Mine, Sister of Mine, and the other Internet Family of Mine.
>_<
Okay, I think I am gonnna get off now because I don't want to get caught on The Otaku.
So byez.~
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Monday, February 11, 2008

I am better now. Thank God. I was getting annoyed by my own friggin' whining. >_< That's just pathetic. Seriously.
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Anyway, I have finally come home for the first time in forever and I am leaving again soon...
T_____T I wanna stay here, damn it!!
I keep saying to my mom, "Mom, I wanna go home." But no. No body listens to the Morgie Doodle.
...
O__o Why is Morgan talking in third person? Is she going mad?
O_o
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Ow... My eyes and head hurt really bad..
Oh well.. I am complaining again.. How do you poeple stand me? Seriously! Yeah!
Omg... I am turning into a mix of Hidan and Deidara and a brunette. O_o Tha's just fucking frightening...
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Byez!~
(P.S. Probably alot of spelling errors...erors? No wait I was right the first time right? >_< WHATEVER!! Anyway, I don't care. ^^ Have a nice day you good for nothing below squigglet worshipers!!)
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I am isane...
Oh well, as they say sanity is for the weak. ^^
Byez!~ (again)
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Thursday, February 7, 2008

Well, I feel a little better than I did. I am still pissed as hell though. I still don't know why nor do I care. I kinda grabbed someboby's neck todayand they won't come near me any more. I really can't understand why. All I did was grab their neck until they made a gurggley noise.
My leg hurts from getting hit with a fucking basket ball. I feel sick again. I didn't go to the damn fucking afterschool program 'cause I forgot.
And I don't think that there was anything else I could have complained about. So I will just shut up now.
Bye.
P.S. Don't bother telling me other people have it worse. I fucking know that and plus, my friends are the ones who have the worst so back off and leave me alone unless I come o you.
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