Friday, November 26, 2004

Whee!
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Call it my blue period. Hopefully, this background will turn out slightly better than my last fiasco... Today, I think I got some very good news today. We we're sitting in class today, and I was asking Roland if he knew what certain words were. Later, I wrote him a little note, and he gave the response I wanted. Hehe. I was so happy when I left, I almost tripped down a flight of stairs. Today, I beat The Windwaker. The ending was OK. It was like, some stuff that could have happened didn't and I was disapointed with the last fight with Ganon. Usually, it takes me about a week to even begin to try to beat him, and I got him in the first try. It wasn't what I had hoped for. Hopefully, Paper Mario will be better. I think, that I will also, ask you lovely people a question. 1. When talking with someone do you prefere to do the talking or listen? I prefere listening, because when I talk, I end up angering the person. Heh. Cue the OMGs and No WAY! Well, just thought I'd give a little background information. Hoepfully everyone had a good Thanksgiving. Love Ya Josh PS: Off Key Sing Alongs will get you killed. PPS: If anyone wants to play Literati, I'm game.

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Wednesday, November 24, 2004

The Inspiration comes.
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Fianally, I have found that which I can write about. I have figured out what I have wrong with me. I AM A LOSER! Hehe. No, I just want attention. It's time for me to pull my head out of my ass and enter realaltiy. I AM JOSH! That's all I try to or can be. I shouldn't go around trying out sorrow. Live life to fullest and never stop hoping!!! I think, by reading what Miss Mimmi wrote, opened my eyes. I have been sitting here, feeling sorry for myself, when what i really needed was a kick in the ass. Well, now I got it, so here I go off on a writing spurt. I started afternoon classes yesterday, and it was an eye opener. Ever other kid is the same as one. Except, my class totally disrespects the teacher... Heh. Hopefully tommorrow will be better. Sometimes, it's like you hit that rut, then find something and get back on the hump. (Of the camel) Heh, I'm so damn hyped up, that I think now that I'm rambling. Just one last note Mr X. If I don't talk to you tonight, I hope everything worked out well, and I expect a FULL report tommmorow or Friday. With that, I take my leave. *nods* Josh EDIT: Not five minutes later, I remeber, that, Singing outloud rules. Doesn't matter what, singing outloud always makes people feel happy. Or at least me....

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Thursday, November 18, 2004

C'est la Vie
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Well, the cookie crumbles, and Josh does too. From spanning hyper active Gummy highs, to the lows of the night, Josh has felt it all. I think that when life gets you down, it expects to you to get back up and keep going. So, when you decide to just let life keep going, it gets pissed. So, stuff like breaking a leg or heartbreak happens. I guess you could say I like to throw the blame, but who doesn't? Let's look at Moulin Rouge. Christen and Satine have the love of a lifetime, and becuase of peer presure, Satine tries to throw it away for the love of some asshole. Which, really isn't love anyway. It is just lust. Christen, in an act of desperation goes to the Moulin Rouge and tries to pay Satine. She tries to run, but they end up in stage where Christen throws the money at her, then leaves. As he leaves, Satine begins to sing again. After she finshes, Christen responds with his song "Come What May". The two meet on stage and finish the show. After the curtain closes, Satine and Christen embrace, then Satine falls. She whispers to Christen, first telling him that she loves him, and gets him to promise to tell their story. She then dies in his arms. What the Hell? I thought they were going to live happily. Nope, Christen gave up on his and Satine's love, so she died in his arms. If I had another example, I would use it. It just seems that when all hope is lost, that you don't stop hoping that it will come out ok. After you lose hope, what else is there to lose? I realise, that I probably couldn't follow my own advice even if I tried, but helping others helps right? I guess, the whole point I'm trying to make is, that if I do give the hope I have of finding someone to just be there for me, will I never find anyone? I realise, that like in my last post, I comented on online people. They are all great, but what if no one's on? What if I am no where near a computer? I guess it's like bottling up everything just stops the flow of natural emmotion. If you stop the outpour, the in inpour gets stopped up. So, talking about stuff should feel good right? For me, it doesn't. It just makes me feel like, now this person has the authority to have me packed up and shipped to the looney bin. I guess that's kinda dumb, but I'm a little jumpy. I don't really trust alot of people, and those I do, they know just about everything that happens. END (insert word) Once again, Nothing Happy. SOrry Guys Josh

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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

HeHe
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Josh is having problems with writing. He has no clue why. He could write and book and delete it right now. In other news... Warning: If you don't want to read the whinning of a 15 year old, scroll down. Or, just leave. I think, that by using myO as my source of output, I can get off with not telling others about what goes on in my life. For the last two months, it's worked. Now, with everything, I think I need to talk to someone. The only problem is, who? I have no friends I could talk to this about. Everyone is closed minded, they would just blab to someone who would tell my parents, and the whole point is ruined. I figure, that in the school, there is someone I can talk to, but I don't want to. I guess you could say that I like to hide what I really feel. I don't know why, but I feel like telling someone anything about what goes on in my head would violate what I felt. The sorriest part about this is, that the only people I could talk to about anything would be those on AIM. I guess that's kinda stupid. Bitch and complain at people who have no clue who you are, or what you do. It's like thier the online "shrinks" that try to help. I won't mention any names, but I thank all of you guys. End Rant. Thanks for letting me get that off my chest. Josh

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Monday, November 15, 2004

Questions
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Comming after a long AIM discussion, Josh has a couple of questions. 1. Is baking cookies gay? 2. What song do you most incorperate with your life and why? Answers from Akamaru 1. A certain someone, sparked this when I talked to (he/she/it) on AIM yesterday. I personally don't think so. If it was called gay, why are famous chefs so famous? For their dinner? NO! For cookies. *nods* 2. I personally feel like "Whose to Say?" by Vanessa Carlton. The song talks about how parents and family want to slow or stop you from reaching your goals. Personally that's not my problem, it's everyone else. Well really, I feel more presure from the Media. I mean all these ads just flash, IF YOU WANT TO BE COOL WEAR THIS! DON'T DO THIS! BE THIS! DON'T THINK! It's sad because so many kids follow this. I'm not saying they all do, but alot do. Josh now, he is 15, and more responsible. For him, it's a change for the better. Also, Josh has started another story, so, expect something (maybe) about it soon. TTFN Ta Ta For Now? (Who says that?) Josh EDIT: No more quiz surfing for me. Nick Highway Valley of Depression 9 TravelWorld 24 Wealthville 40 Tower of Commitment 149 Bewilderment Avenue 289 Please Drive Carefully Username: Where are you on the highway of life? From Go-Quiz.com

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Sunday, November 14, 2004

Sorry
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I hope no one was worried about me. I know I probably spoke with most of my readers over AIM once, but if I didn't, I sincerly apologize. I guess, I felt like any updates I made would contridict my next one. For some reason, last week, I was having some bad writers block. I had problems just typing on AIM, at some points. Heh. Starting with Thursday Josh is fed up. Ching is about 200% to physical, and I'm sick of it. Brushing it off hasn't worked yet. I'm about ready to just knock his head off with my boots. Friday We found out today that we could use the internet at other times beside "Informatik!" It was great. For the whole 7 minutes I had. Saturday My birthday. Nothing big. We had Thai food for dinner. It was pretty good. Got a new watch and lanyard. Sunday Nada. Just sat on the computer talking to James. So lovely to return classics eh folks? Josh EDIT: O.o This is flattering J Juicy O Organic S Shy H Hot Name / Username: Name Acronym Generator From Go-Quiz.com

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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Akamaru
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Maybe when I'm 18, I'll change my name to Akamaru Puppy... lol Nothing really interesting today besides the snow. I love snow. It's white and cold. And fun to eat, play with, throw, and do other stuff in. Oi, as stuff comes in I will update. Josh

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Tuesday, November 9, 2004

:-P
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Well, I have to apologize about Sunday. I wasn't really feeling great, and I hope I didn't insult anyone... Sad Stuff -A four car pile up stopped Josh from getting home yesterday. -Josh's interent is being an ass. -Josh hasn't talked with certain people he needs to. -Mimmi and Miss Kei had problems and Akamaru wasn't there. -IT IS SO FRICKEN COLD HERE! Josh thinks he has found it. *nods* Yep that's right, Josh may have found love! Today after class, the new kid Chung came over and put his hands around my shoulders. It was like he wanted to hold me... Then as we're leaving he puts his arm around me and starts walking me in the direction he's going. I try to tell him that I have to stay at school, but his hold was just so, right, that I waited. I also had trouble trying to tell him that I needed to stay for class. I guess this is how some girls feel. OI. Anyway... I would love for anyone who read my Reanimatrix story to post thier comments here. It would make me feel warm inside. I love ya'll Josh EDIT: Goddess: OF COURSE! I just have to start it, that's all... heh. EDIT EDIT: At 7:30 my time it began to snow. WHO HOO FOR SNOW! EDIT EDIT EDIT: This is the last time I promise. I have this problem, but no one in America could help. lol. Sorry, it has to do with a German music video. It's called Willkommen by Rozenstoltz, and it has a movie clips in it. I want to know what movie that is! I know it's about canoeing, but that's it. I sent a letter to the band's website, but I doubt I'll get a response.

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Sunday, November 7, 2004

Josh has become Akamaru
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Due to a drug riddled Literati, Josh is know known to the Goddess and Miss Kei as Akamaru. Somehow, I feel like nothing that I could write about here has happened. It's not that I don't trust you my faithful readers, but I guess keep someone's trust is just a tad more important. (I will try to update with more happy stuff this week. (Maybe even a picture!) Josh EDIT: No Picture but happy nice lovely stuff. Josh is finally lost it! He has been listening to Destiny's Child for three hours straight! Just thought you'd like to know. :) EDIT EDIT: It's the same song.

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Thursday, November 4, 2004

More Updates
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Heh, didn't get a chance to get back on yesterday. Now on a stricter time limit so I got to hurry. 1. Well Miss Mimmi you say that and you will lose your title. ~_^ (Nope that would never happen) 2. At least I know people actually read my rants. Updates Monday We got in the car. I slept, wrote, slept, heard some music, slept. Heh. Lots of sleeping. We didn't go to Prague then. We stopped in Plzen and tried to get a tour of the brewery. They were done for the day so we didn't. Dad was dissapointed, but he wnats to go tommorow. (Friday) I don't want to, becuase he also wants to go to some crystal factory in Nurnberg, but that's another day. We instead went to the world's oldest beer muesuem. It was kind of intersting. Did you know that beer goes back to Mesopotamia? They eat it as a meal. -_- Also, there in Plzen, they made some important discoveries. (I can't remeber which) We then had pommes and a sprite, coke, fanta, and two beers at the pub. We then went back to the hotel and had dinner. Then Mom and I were sharing a room so we wacthed a little TV and went to bed. Tuesday (Dienstag, Got to keep the German up. It's the only way out of the draft. ~_~) Woke up and went down to breakfast. It was surprzingly American. They had eggs, and sausage, and some yogurt and fresh meat and cheese. And lots of bread. (Josh really likes bread.) heh. We got in the car to drive to Prague, and I slept the whole way. It was kind of funny. I woke up with a little bit of drool and the sign for the Hotel. Heh. (Josh really likes it when the trip goes by faster. ^^') We checked in then headed out for the museum. It is right up the street, and it is so beautiful. (I'm talking about the National Mueseum) We went in and it was so cool. My favorite part was the Palentology wing. They had so many fossils and the information was overwhelimg. Of course I got no sketches becuase I forgot my notebook. I was so pissed. Anyway we finsihed the day with some dinner and watched the TV for election news. Wednesday (Mittwoch) Woke up and had breakfast. Also very American. We then headed for Old Prague where we saw the castle. Very rich in history and culture, but they have dull guides. I really wanted to learn alot about the castle but the guide sucked. Saw a really pretty basicillica. (I know I didn't spell that right. -_-') The back half was redone in the 20th century and trhe front half was from the 13th century. (I think) They really macthed well though. everything was done Neo-Gothic so it was very pretty. I wish I could have had time to just marvel, but I was too tired. We then saw this really plain house place. That about all I can say about it. We then went to Exhibtion. It was so cool! It told all the history I wanted. It had so much, I would hurt my hands seriously if I even brushed on it. I really would tell you to go see it for yourself. Then saw some other stuff and went to McDonalds for lunch. Went up a hill in a cool little car. Tried to get to a mirror maze but it was closed. Went home and watched TV. We were very disapointed with Kerry's speach. I was pulling for him. Today (Thursday) (Donnerstag) Woke up, had breakfast, left for the Zoo. Once again Josh forgot his paper. Really maturaly habitats, although the big cats pavillion was destroyed in a flood in 2002, so they lived in cramped quaters. I didn't like it. Lots of interesting animals. Saw borining bridge. Was just a bunch of people selling stuff, and some statues. Also did a boat cruise although I missed most of it on account of sleep. Heh. Shopped, bought post cards and a nice keychain. Went and had authentic Check (ERG! I cannot spell for a shit tonight!) dinner. I had goulash (Once again) which was really good. Came home and I got on here! Heh. If you want any more info. Wait for me to get on AIM Friday or Saturday. I will give lots of information then. I love ya'll Josh

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